Actually, Squall, and the mices

Cleaned their cages today. Squall met Actually at the railings of Actually's cage when he was allowed to run freely and they started fighting between the bars!! Grah. Looks like they have to stay separated for permanent.

Here is Actually about to sleep.

Here is Actually having some kueh bankit

Here is Squall emo-ing in a corner

huddled in my sis's shirt. He was ready to catapult himself to the moon any moment.

Here is Squall doing his favourite pasttime

Here are my sister's mice looking very inquisitive. The one on the rightmost looks like he's saying: "look over yonder!"

PINKY HUIWEI'S 18TH BIRTHDAY
ESCAPE THEMEPARK

Congratulations to huiwei! She can finally runaway and get married without parent consent! Heheh. Anyway we went to escape! But we only took 3 rides and went through the stupid haunted house! The first ride was the go-carts and we waited 40minutes for it... -.- It's the first time i ever go-carted by myself! I developed a phobia of it after some people crashed into the go-cart containing me and my bro[who was driving] when i was just a small lil kid. I still remember the facilitator guy was pissed at those people because of their reckless driving and scolded them! Serve them right for making a little girl cry. Fudi's cart ran out of gas at the top of the slope so he had to suntan there while i went past him wahaha.
The next ride was the flume! It's awesome! I didnt get very wet cuz i was sitting in front since i was wearing shoes and didnt want them to get wet. Xiu Rong was in the same log as i was and she got VERY wet! So did Fuddy, who was sitting in the one with huiwei in front. Xiu Rong said she was gonna crap in her pants when we were going up the 15meter slide lol. The drop was DAM long. I am surprised i managed to sustain such a long exclamation of helplessness. The feeling was awful but awesome at the same time. I was squirming all over the seat during the drop. The viking people were laughing at us cuz the viking bridge was just above the flume ride!! Mean!
After that we went to the stupid haunted house, where Xiu Rong and I basically walked blind through the whole thing led by Huiwei andFudi haha. I only looked at one display and almost died. The stupid thingy fell forward right beside me. I have no idea how i survived going first in the haunted house during Funtasia. I must have been braver then. What happened to me!
Finally we ended off with shuang yakult ride. It was so no kick and xiu rong, who was beside me, was SMSING!!! I cant stand her. lol.

All the other got kick rides were closed! Whoohoo. I hate rides that make my heart feel like jumping out through my skin. I remember the last time i rode the pepsi ride during the dunman shooting outing, i seriously, almost died. I was gonna fall out of the seat and was holding on for my dear life and being very helpless. And the last time i sat on the viking in pri4 at sentosa during gep outing. I was screaming to be let off but they ignored me.

never again.

Anyway since it was so boring there, we went to ehub instead! Also my first time going there~ We went to the arcade and played my favourite bball game first!! But Xiu Rong went to scan the card FOUR TIMES cuz she didnt know it registered already!! So we had to play FOUR TIMES. Our arms were so dead by the 3rd time. We had a challenge at the last round and my arm was dying so badly, towards the end, all the balls stopped reaching the net though they were on target!! No matter how, they just touched and went. I only got 99 lol. But it was super fun.
Then as usual, spot the difference, which was quite bian tai, the pictures were bian tai!! And then crazy button pressing games, some UFO cheat money games, ghost whacking game which we played on free credits which were somehow in the machine haha.

We were quite tired by then, and huiwei needed to go off, so off we went!

I went to White Sands with xiu rong to look for some thingy that she wanted to get, then to Tampines with her to continue looking and also so that she could go to Artbox for the first time. Then at toys R us, xiu rong made the best comment ever at a littlest pet shop pet.

Me: "This is so cute!"

Xiu Rong: "Is that a mosquito?"

WHY WOULD THEY MAKE A MOSQUITO PET!?!?!?

i exploded into laughter and melted to the group and xiu rong had to mop me up.

It was a seahorse by the way.

Anyway after that she was summoned home by her parents so we had to go. Awwwww..

A fun day it was!

Meeeem-ries.. all alone in the mooonlight.... i can smile at the ooold dayss....

NATIONALS 2009!

BIG ARG!



SUITS!

SH2S! [i like the polaroids, thus am holding them!]

KELLY'S STUFFTOYS OVERWHELMING!


POLAROID SENIORS!

MASQUERADE!

ARG!

LET'S KILL SOMEBODY!

HAPPY

GUNS!

CDANS TEAM!

ARG AT CDANS!

ARG UPSIZED!

Played bball with CS, Chris and some ip3 boys during PE today!

It was fun [although i didnt really move much harhar.] because i had a shooting streak! Somehow by some tyco stroke of luck i threw many balls in consecutively! How cool is that. [Usually im really bad at it.] And the last of my streak was really funky. It was from diagonally behind the net. And it just went in, somehow, leaving us all stunned. Whoo. But i missed the next shot of course, haha. It's only natural.

I got hit, on the head and in the face, by the ball though, which always happens -.-

I will never forget FUDI who threw a basketball that landed on my head [by accident] while i was walking innocently past the courts, back in dunman too! I didnt know him then, and he doesnt remember hitting me, of course.

CS commented that the ip3 boys even block girls [which is apparently bad] though i didnt really notice, but nvm cuz i won't be intimidated by them!!

Oh and i also played Squash on Tuesday during my free period with Xiu Hui and Jia Sheng! I can hit the ball! How amazing. The last time i tried, it kept flying right past the racket. I like it [as i like games that require some movement] because i'm tired of stoning in one spot growing fat in a sport.

I NEED TO MOVE! MOVE MOVE MOVE!!

Oh anyway i could play cuz i've finished the last napfa of my life. Everything A except C for sit and reach. I wonder if that will make me get silver instead of gold. If so, i will be very very sad indeed.

I keep thinking there's something i must say. But i don't really remember. I need to do some memory improvement exercises. Like pretending to know how to read. Lala.

hoho. i changed the layout again! Because i have to include ROXAS! Sora's nobody! He will be sad if i dont include him, you see. I drew and coloured roxas in an hour just now. [sketch 15minutes in the wee hours of last night]

Oh i realised it can fit the whole screen afterall. har. i thought it was forever partial only.

Well, here you go.

Characters Sora and Roxas belong to Square Enix.

Whee.

I made a new layout!!
All the art izz mine!!!
But character Sora belongs to Kingdom Hearts, Square Enix.

Just decided to draw something because i havent in ages and i'm afraid i might become noob-like [i am already quite noobish to begin with...] if i dont do a little practising... i also havent coloured stuff in ages... how sad is my life.

I spent about 2 hours doing sora's head and was too lazy to colour his clothes, thus they are white. Spent around 3.5 hours doing this whole thing in total. I'm slow.

I know the colours look different on different coms :/ On some coms for the lighter colours, you might see nothing at all! But i just know that it looks fine here on mine.

Too bad if you cant read the words!!!
Just kidding. I will change it if need be.

IT'S OFFICIALLY OVER.

Let me extend my congratulations to Wenying, for shooting well despite all the pressure, and to Li-Fang, for putting her heart and soul into it and also doing very well considering it's her first nationals and she had only 1 month or so to train.

I really really really love NJ shooting Club!!!

I'm so sad this is all over... OVER!!! Noooohhhh...

Didnt want today to end AT ALL...

We sang inilah at the safra range super loudly and cheered super loudly whenever our people collected prizes.

IT'S MY LAST YEAR I CANT BELIEVE IT...

After prize giving, we went back to school for club phototaking! Which took a VERY long time because leonard is a noob! And then debrief by Mr Low, Jia Pei and Zhong Xian, and of course, Andy! Then team photos with yan hui's fantastic polaroid camera, which is like uber cool. I am coping one of the polaroids. It's unbelievably nice! The picture just appears in a fadey sort of way!

After that was dinner with a whole load of the club people. Pistol boys, rifle boys and rifle girls. We couldnt find anywhere that could take us all so we all ended up at Gelare, where Li-fang was SO KIND as to treat me!!!! Yayyy!! Li-fang is super nice! I bought my own drink though cuz i felt bad! Then Julie our ex ex captain treated us to ice cream on a waffle! It was super nice too! [My vocab is not very wide as you can see, i use super nice for everything.]

Then after eating, everyone was gonna go home so we parted ways. I went with wenying to action city though, and we were amazed by all the little inventions and stuffs!

I wish today didnt have to endddd....
HOW SAD.

For the benefit of Xiu Rong who doesnt believe they exist.

Désirée potato

From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

The Désirée is a red-skinned [well, when i have been under the sun] main crop potato originally bred in the Netherlands in 1962. It has yellow flesh [i'm chinese!] with a distinctive flavour and is a favourite with allotment-holders because of its resistance to drought [how true! I drink very little water], although it is not well suited to organic growing. It is a versatile, fairly waxy variety which is firm and holds its shape and useful for all methods of cooking; from roasting to mashing and salads.

Its recent popularity in the UK is attributed to TV chef Delia Smith.

• Habit: Medium height, later spreading
• Foliage: Medium to dark grey-green. Strong purple colour throughout plant.
• Stems numerous, purple.
• Leaf rigid, open, slightly arched.
• Leaflets oval, pointed.
• Secondaries few.
• Buds/Flowers: Buds large, red-purple on hairy stalks. Flowers red-violet fading to white.

hehe.

Desiree 1977 Smash hit by Neil Diamond
It was the third of june
On that summers day
Well I became a man
At the hands of a girl
Almost twice my age
And she came to me
Just like a morning sun
And it wasnt so much
Her words as such
As the way they were sung
It was the way they were sung

Desiree
Oh, desiree
There I was found
By the sweet passion sound
Of your loving song
Time was right, the night was long
Remember, desiree
Oh, desiree
Somehow I knew
I could only have you
til the morning light
If only for that single night
Sweet desiree, you make it right

Then came the fourth of june
On that sleepless night
Well I tossed and I turned
While the thought of her burned
Up and down my mind
For she was there and gone
Without one regret
But she continues on
Like the words of a song
I could not forget
I could not forget

Desiree
Oh, desiree
There I was found
By the sweet passion sound
Of your loving song
Time was right, the night was long
Remember, desiree
Oh, desiree
And though somehow I knew
I could only have you
til the morning light
The night was long, the time was right
Do you remember desiree

Desiree by Left Banke
Everything returns again
Both the laughter and the rain

She is living somewhere for a while
Still I ask her in my lonely way to stay

Desiree desiree
Now she's
Leaving

Desiree you know
How it hurts me
Living alone through all the years
Nothing can hold the tears in me

Everything remains the same
Yet she answers not her name
Still if I could
Look beyond these skies
Standing here again before my eyes I'd see

Desiree desiree
Now she's
Leaving

Desiree you know
How it hurts me
Where do I run to
Is it real
Nothing but pain I feel for real

Desiree you know
How it hurts me

Living alone through all the years
Nothing can hold the tears in me

Desiree
La la la la la
La la la la la

Desiree by Keith Urban
It's killin' me to write the word "goodbye"
I've wadded up and tossed a thousand tries
We both know the reason
There ain't nothing to explain
But I know that my leavin'
Will spare us both the pain

[Chorus]
Desiree I can't hold you any longer
Desiree you love his money more than me
And the taxi's at the gate
I guess all that's left to say
Is in teardrops at the bottom of the page
"I love you Desiree"

It'd be easier to leave if I were mad
But it's hard to lose the best you'll ever have
And to write this note to you
Was the hardest thing to do
But not as hard as bein' a poor boy
Who can't afford a girl like you

[Repeat Chorus]

God, I love you Desiree
But I just can't take it anymore
I won't be around for your goodbye
I won't be around for your goodbye
You love his money more than me
I won't be around for your goodbye
You love his money more than me
I won't be around for your goodbye
Oh you love his money, you love it more than me
I was just a fool who couldn't see
That you love his money, you love it more than me

Okay okay, enough. I dont like the lyrics of the last song.
Goodbye goodnight.

Well. It's over.

I shot excruciatingly badly!
Whoohoo.
If my series scores were to be graphed, they would make a mighty mountain!

Oh and i had 15minutes to shoot my last 2 series [20 shots] because of my exceedingly slow pace, which was not really a pace at all. If Linus had not signaled me to start on competition cards i might have been totally out of time. I suddenly realised i was gonna be out of time when i saw that i had 25minutes left for 3 series and that pretty much ended my trigger-freeze spree but also caused me to shoot a 7 out of pure madness.

-.-

Congratulations to:
Rifle boys for being the CHAMPION TEAM!
Gerald for being INDIVIDUAL CHAMPION!
Akshay for being INDIVIDUAL RUNNER-UP!
Xu Yang for being INDIVIDUAL SECOND RUNNER-UP!
Rifle girls for taking TEAM THIRD despite my horrible score!
Carol for her INDIVIDUAL CHAMPION!
Pistol girls for their TEAM CHAMPION!
Xin Hang for INDIVIDUAL SECOND RUNNER-UP!
Sheng Rui for shooting a PERSONAL BEST!
Everyone who worked very hard for this day!

We shall await B girls results!

Anyway i have people to thank[not in order of merit]:
1. Zhang - Oh my, she really became quite helpful suddenly. Yes she has and well i have to thank her for her encouragement [gasp!] much as it might seem unlikely she gives any and her secret methods and things she has been trying to teach me whether or not i have understood.
2. Linus - A sudden helpful person assigned to me by zhang who is very encouraging and gave me good advice and assurance.
3. Joannah - Giving me encouragement in her own joannah way and having an aura that i can feel 50 miles away so i know she's always there.
4. Nicole - For being there for me too and following me on expeditions to the north pole[of safra literally, yishun is in the north afterall!] and back
5. Xiu Rong - For telling me i am loved by ARG repeatedly lol. And listening to me rambling on about bad trainings, which is i reckon, quite annoying.
6. Yan Hui - For being my partner in training always and for sharing the times we had to travel to safra with our tons of stuff to carry and going home late late late after training and also for taking care of our equipment super nicely.
7. Wenying - For making me amazed at her little bits of advice.
8. Daxiang - For technical advice and other kinds of encouragement.
9. Mr Lee - For making everything seem not so bad as it is.
10. Lyrad - For listening to loads of crap and rambling that i seem to have on mind.
11. Andy - For helping me and Yan hui carry our equipment and stuff down the slope to the faraway NJ bus stop
12. Zhong Xian - For convincing me to train at safra with one comment.

All the people that wished me good luck[in alphabetical order]:
Chris, Daniel[representing rifle boys], Fudi, Joannah, Jolene, Linus, Lyrad, Mark[representing pistol boys], Minlu, Nicole, Peixin, Shujen, Shermain, Xiu Hui, Xiu Rong

i hope i did not forget anyone.

oo. it is 22:17pm.
Just got home, 10 minutes ago. I met avril at bedok interchange.
Havent done math at all.
Why then, you may ask, am i sitting here typing this?
Well i am eating dinner, spare me. And i have to reflect.

I didnt shoot well.
92 97 94 95 - 378
As you can see, i shot a 92 yet AGAIN.

Well, it's because close to finishing my sighters, i SUDDENLY started shooting very high! And i seriously have no idea why. I tried again and again and got like a super high up grouping so i sighted and sighted and it didnt really move much. So i just started because i had already done 30 over sighters. First few shots continued being high then it went slightly normal then i shot a 7 as well. Oh well..

Then it started being more okay, i stared very hard at relationship. But at my last series i forgot something very important, which was to bring down the gun straight, so i kept shooting 9 and 10.0s until the 4th last shot then i suddenly remembered, and shot 10 9 10 10, proper 10s, not 10.0s.

I should not listen to music before i shoot. It distracts me from thinking about my technique.
And it didnt help that my trigger finger was wrapped up in a plaster after stupid mr.umbrella dug a hole in it while i was trying to close it. The hole is quite deep i managed to squeeze a large drop of blood out of it. I took the plaster off at first when i was going to shoot, but then remembered that it might get infected with a lot of lead particles so i put it back on. It might have affected my triggering in some way.

I was distracted by the pistol shooter facing me who kept coughing loudly. I shouldn't have been but i went to think about getting distracted so i did get distracted. Stupid me.

Oh and because it rained when i was on my way to safra i had to buy an umbrella from northpoint for $2.90 if not i would never have made it there. It is not the foldable type but it is a nice shade of translucent sky blue. My shoes and socks were soggy. I had to borrow socks from carol to shoot in.

What a crappily eventful day.

I also dreamt that the world hated me.

im not quite ready for school.

Squall is horrible. He bit Actually. Actually bled. Now he has a wound on his belly and it's so red :C

Have separated them.

man, just now was epic. I was trapped by a cockroach. I couldnt move! Ok. i just really hate insects that crawl around quickly. It is quite freaky. My sis came to flush it down into the sewer.

And my hamsters were fighting! I wanted to cry. It's heartaching to see them fight. My sis helped me stop them by spraying them with water when they fought. Squall bit Actually! Bad bad hamster... But they've stopped now. They kept taking turns to go to a corner and emo. It's so cute!! But sad.. They'd rest their heads on the edge of the plastic compartment upstairs and poke their nose out from the bars and just stay like that, at the corner of the cage. I have pictures but my phone has no batt now.

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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VWDc9oyBj5Q&feature=related
My favourite dog breed. VIEWER DISCRETION ADVISED. EXTREMELY CUTE CONTENT.
[notice only one of its ears flap when it walks!!]

hey i shot surprisingly quite goodly today.

i did groupings first but they didnt come out very consistent after a while.
Then i started on single shots.
And just kept shooting.
Until i ran out of time.

Here is the breakdown:
10 10 10 9 9 10 10 10 9 10
10 10 10 10 10 10 10 9 10 10
10 10 10 10 10 10 10 9 8

i shot 29 shots in 15 minutes. I thought it was 30 but counted wrongly. Last two shots were a bit too hasty cuz i needed to get off the lane. haha. ops.

Hey i never shot so many 10s in a row before. I think it's cuz i was just shooting and shooting, shoot, change card, shoot, change card, i didnt take note of how many i was shooting or anything so it was continuous. But the real thing won't be since i have to stop to put cards on the chair after 10 shots! My mom suggested pretending to change card a few times after the break in each series so i imagine im still doing a continuous action. I shall try it on sunday.

I need to put my stand closer to me. When i move it closer it seems nicer to transfer my gun to me. And i MUST FOCUS ON RELATIONSHIP and PULLING TRIGGER SLOWLY [i have major trigger freeze problems nowadays] and CONTINUOUSLY. NO HESITATION!!! cant forget about shoulder being tight... and stop my left hand from moving or using any strength or force.

Oh when i think about the string of 10s my heart falls to the bottom of my stomach for a moment. Must try not to think about it.

must remember those things... :D
oh i have a new favourite song called Mad World by Gary Jules. It's depressing and awesome.

my life is now:

5:30am wake up
6:40am reach school and do homework or sleep
7:40am go for assembly and the rest of school
[depends on what time school ends] go train
9:30pm reach home and practise piano and eat dinner and get distracted by tv and so on
10:00pm do homework
11:15pm Either still doing homework or started slacking already

And now i am slacking.

My hand smells very glove-ish.

I had my 2.4km run on tuesday! Because tuesday exchanged timetables with friday so i have PE THREE times this week. How cool is that! I didn't walk during my 2.4 for the first time in the entire pathetic life of mine. I ran 12:21, a palindromic timing, as you can see. I wanted to walk so badly during the last 300 meters but forced myself to carry on. My legs are kinda aching[also because i was practising standing broad jump. i might have 5 items tomorrow]. I really don't wanna get C for my sit and reach... oh mann PE is first period. I don't have time to practise stretching!

Who practises stretching anyway. Other than someone who's dam bad at it like me.

lalala. goodbye now world. I must go do something more productive.

There was grapefruit juice spilt in the sky tonight.

Oh shyt. I'm being distracted from my bio and my chem and my math.

I shot 96 97 92 96 today. How wonderful!

-.-

I started the 92 series with 2 8s. That means i shot 2 8s and 4 9s. Wow, thats a lot of times of wrong action. My 97 series was quite cool. 10/9/9/9/10/10/10/10/10/10. But i didnt count score! I'm learning.

Oh! On saturday i shot 92 94 95 95. Why do i love 92 so much? i think zhang inspected my first series and came to check on me. She found that my cylinder was close to zero in gas! Ops. I was too distracted i forgot about that. So zhong xian helped me get it pumped. And then i had to sight a bit again so i didnt get that great a score.

Ok. let's not get too distracted. I must be going now. goodbye.

i am so grateful for JOANNAH SHANE. who although may talk crap sometimes, but this time she really talked a lot of sense to me. And her comic rocks. It should get published.

i am also grateful to everyone else who knows who they are C:

it was difficult but i still had to say it.

never said things in such a way before.

but i have to let them realise.


but will they see the meaning?

or take it with a pinch of sugar.
like its nothing.

I hope i didnt say it for nothing.

i like a real game.

But i cant really play.

But i like running around anyway.

I will have fun as long as i'm with friends, or i will still find fun in it anyhow.



Training was okay. I finally stopped shooting to the right, now its more to the left, but that seems to be easier to adjust. Cylinder has no gas! My shots were going low. Hope will be able to pump tmr.
My left hand is not really listening to me. I said stop but it would not. I just need to learn to relax it... I'm not consistent.

But i had a really nice 10 shot grouping, by really focusing and doing all my action slowly and properly and being patient. And the grouping after that one was not so bad too. I need to be patient.

but i still want a release..

i want to be friends with wenying forever :D

it's so nice and easy to just talk and share problems with her and she can give me some helpful advice too!

And i miss Mr Lee. He gave me some helpful advice today that made quite a lot of sense.

But i need to learn to live life without hoping for a Mr Lee to always help me solve problems.

Time to GROW UP!!!
Stop having little confidence in myself.

I learnt quite a lot on the first day of training camp.
My brain is smooshed.

New words:
Wenying is an assiduous student and does her work with sedulous concentration.

playing basketball with rifle girls is the most fun thing ever!

we were playing on early shut down day, after my chem make up. There was joannah, carol, wenying and yan hui and me. Joannah introduced us to a game called Bullet, where we shot hoops to accumulate bullets to kill people.

We took turns and i was after joannah so i had the highest probability of getting killed cuz joannah is the most pro among us! But i got lucky and managed to shoot in quite many heh heh heh! Like two consecutive, and once, 3 consecutively! So i killed wenying because i didnt get killed by joannah, and then finally in the showdown between joannah and i, i won! yay.

But that is because the point we shot from was directly in front of the net and at the 1 pointer line so quite near, not so difficult haha.

oh oh, i shot a 3 pointer!

lol.

Anyway playing basketball with them is like so fun and funny cuz most of us dont know how to dribble, so we were basically trying and failing, and looking like total retards but who cares.

we played until the gate was gonna close so decided to stop.

:D

i was supposed to go do homework but i ended up cleaning up the hammie's cage instead! They were sleeping so cutely but i had no choice but to wake them cuz they were starting to have hamster smell. Squall was sleeping on his back so all his little feet could be seen like a curled up hedgehog's would look like. He really looked like he was in deep sleep with his mouth half open. Actually woke up first.

Anyway thursday is a hamster cage cleaning day! I have decided because i have been cleaning their cage on thursday consistently, apart from the first time being friday. It seems like a good day for cage cleaning so i shall stick to it.

It's so nice to have 2 little hamsters crawling about my arms. Actually isnt scared when you let him walk around by himself. I put them both in the hamster ball while cleaning their cage. Actually wanted to jump out of my hands when i took him out of the cage. [he's always like that.] They looked so cute running together.

ok ok, i really must go do homework now...

sch admin is freakin stupid.

They decided to have the half day in the morning so school starts at 12 instead.
it's dam retarded.
I just saw announcement on KM saying all SH2 H2 math ppl have to go for math lecture at 11.

so they are cheating us of the half day.
CHEATERS.


and whats their freaking problem with the key la. Like what has getting the teacher to return the key got to do with them keeping it. Like whats the diff between us returning it and the teacher returning it. We are returning it what?!? Stupid retarded system. what kind of stupid comment is "lucky we are keeping the key". It has no link whatsoever to us returning the key. You stupid retards all of you.

school is freakin annoying.
being here makes me stupider by the day.

no wonder the GP standard getting worse. Even the office people are talking out of point half the time.

insidious - crafty.

androgeny - when the embryo only contains male chromosomes due to failure of the egg's nucleus to participate in fertilization.

androgyne - a person of ambiguous sex identity [hermaphrodite]

Charlyn was doing her french homework and these words came up. We were unclear of the meanings.

The wheel gets stuck sometimes, then the scratching sound comes again. Little Squall trying to run on a wheel that wouldnt move.
Just cleaned their cage. Because there are two of them and Actually is difficult to get close to, i distracted Squall with a piece of orange and capped the top of the cage over Actually as i separated the wire body part from the plastic bottom. So Squall was not capped by anything and was freely sitting there in the open space, distracted by a piece of orange. Meanwhile i changed the bedding and added new food. My sis changed the diet to an organic mix of cereal and fruit musli, its like what we humans eat! That, and some bread is the diet of my hamsters.

Ah. The wheel got stuck again. lousy thing!

i like watching my little hamsters.

But i have to go do homework now.

goodbye world.

wrote a poem on saturday on the bus home, when it was freezing cold.

Desert Rock

Worse luck than a desert rock,
fluctuating temperatures, how they flock
towards my heart and mind and soul,
the morning hot
the night so cold.

I shiver as i walk the roads
home to warmth and shelter alone
Sometimes i almost skid and fall,
but i regain balance upon a wall.
My teeth they clatter jaw to jaw,
my breath it trembles ever more
no shelter from this cold, cold world,
no friend to hug, no hand to hold
A long time 'fore i reach salvation
then i'll have a celebration
drown myself in cotton cloths,
dip myself in sunday's broth.
Comfort at my fingertips,
hot tea in savoury sips,
mudpies oozing chocolate dreams,
oh what little fancy whims!

But before i reach my destination,
i must rely on my imagination
keeps me happy, gives me hope
with this cold it help me cope.

yes it is quite lame and contradicting, i dont hug people so it wouldnt matter to me whether there was a friend to hug or not.

i am losing touch with school and with shooting, with everything i should be doing proper. Cant pass my tests or listen in class. I feel so tired.

no time to even talk?

HEYYY the overall results werent so bad afterall.. though individually we may not have done so great, with the exception of carol... eventually we only lost to tertiary institutes and shooting clubs! Whoo. We got 5th! Below safra's 1st and 2nd team, NUS and Home team NS. We beat raffles! i find it quite amazing considering the score i shot.

Oh yes, i faced up to the truth and looked at my score. I counted wrongly, thought i shot a lot worse than i did. My middle 2 series were toot all because i thought my first series made me a gonner. I REALLY gotta stop counting. it demoralises me and i dont know it. i shot 95 91 92 96 i really counted my first series as 92 actually. But it felt so bad anyway i wouldnt have shot well.

ok, i wouldnt know that. but nvm.

Pistol girls won a prize and so did carol, as expected haha.

tralala.

My mom discovered squall but didnt say anything about him, and Actually.

its all just bad. bad bad bad. B-A-D. bad. bad.

bad.








im demoralised. disappointed.


exasperated.
but i can't understand.

whats wrong?

EVERYTHING.




hamsters were making a lot of noise, climbing the bars on the top of the cage. Wheel fell off. Cant on room light, sis sleeping. Worked with a lamp, fixed the wheel, had to readjust the upper story of the cage cuz it was interfering with the turning of the wheel. Fingers hurt from trying to dislodge the clips quickly in fear of being discovered. Hamster was running on wheel that couldnt turn, shuffling noises. Put new chew bar in cage. Hope Actually stops squeaking now or my parents are gonna discover them soon.

Felt so exasperated.




Nothing felt right today. Nothing.

Dont know my score and dont wanna know. I know it is bad. Very.

Trying to put it all aside.
Just feel so queasy inside.

I dont know if im sad over this. I am very disappointed thats for sure. Have the sick feeling of feeling something gone and wasted...

Now have to think about how to change my training method...

I keep biting the same part of my mouth, the right corner of where my upper and lower lips meet. It's been 4 times! There are big holes there and was soo painful now its just numb.

A nice old indian fellow offered me umbrella today! Cuz i alighted from 67 at the stop before newton and was trapped in the rain. I was prepared to run, but he was kind enough! How nice C:

Then saw kev!n at bedok interchange and we exchanged waves. I keep seeing people i know recently! Saw gladine recently too.

I actually have a lot of things to write about but by the time i get down to doing it, i have nothing to write about!

Oh well... and my english is deteriorating by the milliseconds...

Competition tmr!!! wheeeeeeeeeeee missing school thurs and fri - but going back for bio spa on fri :/

Oh oh i am getting bitten by the multitudes everywhere in the dead of the night. I wake up at 4am feeling itchy spots here and there. This has happened 3 times. Theres like 30 bites on my legs and at least 6 on my arms. I have 2 on the soles of my right foot!!! It's itchy when i walkk sometimes... My dad found a DEAD FAT mosquito under my pillow yesterday!! It drank so much of my blood it got too fat to fly and just died there. Can you imagine that!! Apparently there must be more of his friends around.. i am still not free from this torture...

oh and YOU are a total WEAKLING and FATass.

My secret hamsters are still going strong!

Refilled the food and water and little squally was so busy eating, he didnt bother when i put a sunflower seed on his head. Actually was hiding downstairs.

Cute little Squall!

Squall is actually a lot bigger than Actually. His hair is poofy-er. Actually has very neat flat hair while Squall has poofy hair. Makes Actually look a look skinnier but they are both adorable C:


Good thing lit consolidation wasnt on today! I got to train! Though i didnt really get the Feeel. But at least i got a chance to train. There's chem consolidation until 530 tmr so maybe i'll only get to train an hour. And then NTU will be on thurs. I will be missing math test and taking it on friday instead, the day when i have bio spa. And there's KI test tomorrow.

My life is very exciting! I look forward to each day very much, hoping that one day when i return home, i can still see the sun.

I have homework to do, but i am very very reluctant to do it. It's the chem remedial worksheet. It's very boring! Other than that i have math, which i can do tomorrow, and carbonyl tutorial to finish [finished the assignment question at least! That one need to hand in.]. What else must i do?

This is a very contemplative post. Hey im not lagging behind too badly... I just need a little more motivation.

Goodbye world.

the ULTIMATE cuteness.
An Innocent Actually and a Slab of Squall.

Been tired recently. Missing bus stops [and boarding the wrong ones] and missing mrt stops, taking longer than usual to get home because of that.

Im getting confused by people around me.

run run run...

Here comes Squall! He stayed in this position for like 1 minute! He just suddenly stopped moving and my sis and I were like.. What happened to him!

His leg hangs lazily off the hand.

Actually is not as photogenic as Squall!

My secret hamsters updates

little squall sleeping on the wheel.

This is Actually. He is Squall's companion and friend [given by my sis] but he's timid and very squeaky.

Squall and lettuce.

Actually likes to make a lot of noise. He flips over his own back and gets scared easily. Squall is clueless and couldn't go to the upper storey house all night because Actually would make a lot of noise. Poor Squall had to stay downstairs. But Actually started walking about outside today! Squall helped Actually clean himself, but Actually was not keen on it. Squall is a clean freak. he loves being clean. Actually doesnt seem to care as much.

I love my little hamsters [but biased towards Squall haha.]

Actual Valentine's Day 2009Ele gave me a yellow rose! [cuz i like yellow...] It's super big and nice..

cake i baked

lunch made by ele and me

This is Squall, my dear hamster that ele got for me! I'm worried. I dont know where to hide him. My parents were both in stormy moods i couldnt tell any of them about Squall.. My sis helped me hide him among her art stuff. My heart aches that he has to stay longer in the tiny cage. I feel so sorry to him... left him water in a plastic square in case he gets thirsty in the night...

The cutest pic ever

I am grateful for what you have done for me.

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY 2009!

kristy's pretty rose!!

A piece of elephant chocolate from leonard a few days ago lol.

Cute jersey thing from Ah Rong! It's dam cute and its got a pic that we took on the first day of school for 2009 on it. Yay. Behind is my index number, 1! Kristy's lovebugs are crawling on my plants.


Roses from Kev!n and Lyrad! SHOCK. when i received these. This is how the story goes. I know that Kev!n typed the wrong class to send the roses to, so when i went to collect, i asked, 06ip04? Council people said dont have. 09SH04? Haave. So they brought the whole bunch down and i took one, and it had my name on it, then the girl was like, ehh your class right? can take for all of them? And i was like, not my class! Is type wrongly... cept i didnt realise all of them were addressed to me... So it was only MUCH later in the day when cheryl told me she saw many roses addressed to me that i realised! Gosh. I am now hanging them all to dry so they will stay in their nice shape hah.

Also got nice choco from WENYING and YANHUI and LYNNA and gummies from KAITING. Thanks to everyone! :D

TALENTINE 2009

The first act was by shanti. Quite cool luh. But i tell you, wendy's performance was just FREAKY. She kept twirling her hands in a meaningless manner and half the time the music was playing instead of her singing. She looked REALLY SCARY. Diana kept going off key.
The chester guy was DAM GOOD. like seriously. It was super entertaining and his singing was dam good. im in awe.
The single ladies dance was quite funny. Lol. Entertaining. And wen loong's dance was just wen loong. But the singing was surprisingly live! Sexy back... and it sounded like the real thing! Benjamin just kept going "yeah!" at the right moments. lol.

The JH1 band. The guy is SO DAM ACT COOL LAH. TOTALLY NOT COOL. The only cool thing is his shirt. It's a dino and giraffe hugging each other.

Haha i got a pic of chian siang's funny face!

Ate our overdue dinner at the canteen after the show [no time to eat before that!] And then got my parents to fetch me.. carrying so many things and my leg muscle has been pulled i think. I cant walk properly!! Ahh. Luckily shooting only involves me standing and not moving.

tralala C:

Today was quite eventful i must say.

Here are the people who wished me! [In the order]:
Huiwei!!
Ele
Crispy!
Lyrad
Singhui
Xiu Rong~
Sis
Bro
dad
Fuddy
Joycelyn
Kev!n
Yanhui~
Shermain
Everyone in class
henry
Wenying~
Benchua
Adie!
mom
jolene~
joannah!

Yay Thanks to them all C:

I got nice presents too! My sis gave me a cute japanese doll keychain and a cool red notebook with red pages. My bro gave me a dam nice blue stone necklace/choker thingy. Married hedgehogs courtesy of Huiwei and fuddy! Elephant stationary courtesy of Kristy, Kaiting, Ama, Lynna, Daniel! Lol. Choco wafer thingy from Xiu Hui! Hong Baos from parents of my own and ele's! And elephant had the most magnificent present yet. Giant hamster wearing grey fbts and 18 cherries! Ok, its a polar bear actually. Its HUGE, as you can see. I officially have no bed left.

I am grown up now :D How cool is that.

I swept the range floor for half an hour today! What an achievement!

1 hour and 20 minutes later, i will be 18 years and 1 day old :D

i am 17 and 364 days old! How cool is that. I am even older than fuddy.

Nick is flying off today, my sister and I shall be seeing him off.

Meet genevieve and friends yesterday. Gen came back from australia for a while. There was eleanor, chia, tiff, suat yee the unfeeling, gloria and me. Gen had a reservation at Manhattan Fish Market, so we had dinner there. It was awesome. I had a flaming platter cuz i didnt know what to eat so i just had the same thing as Tiff. I couldnt finish any of the fries so suat yee devoured them all.

They are such a funny bunch. No NJ humour can ever beat their humour! With a lot of witty, accent-ful people [One italian, one australian, one fake suat yee], it couldnt get any better than that.

Had gelare ice cream too. Eleanor explained that gelare means "To freeze" in Italian, like, "i went home gelare my fish." And its JER-LAH-RARE not like how everyone pronounces it. And the thingy on the a shouldnt even be there.

ok i need to go to the airport now. shalt return later.

Ok im back from air port. I am extremely tired. I would like to sleep but i think i wanna wait for my sis to come home and see what she's giving me first. Haha. yay.

I thought i had a lot more to write but now it seems i dont have much :/ Goodbye.