Haha this is gonna be long. Everyone just pretend that you are reading several posts and it is really not one post.

National Day Celebration 2008 in school. [The cupcake is what my sis's sch got]

I think the most fun thing we did all day was to blow bubbles into the sky. Especially when there was a lot of wind, you could just swing the bubble hoop in the air and the bubbles would form by themselves. The goodie bag they gave us was quite funnily crappy.There were clappers in it, which broke from one hand into 3 hands and some bubble soaps were weird and yellow. There was also a whistle in it which annoying people kept blowing and made us go deaf. While we were busy blowing bubbles and pasting tattoos randomly on people, the concert going on was like chao ji bian bian bian thingy by each house. I think aerius's was the nicest cuz got the most link with chao ji bian bian bian. Other houses either dunno whats the story line or they just dance dance dance [its not dance competition!!]. So basically we spent our time blowing bubbles and spilling bubble soap.

Then prize giving, they gave out the prize for the shoe!! I didnt even know what was happening cuz was happily blowing bubbles, then everyone was like, eh!! go go go!! go get prize!! and i was like huh?? what what? And some people in the class were like what shoe? And by the time we were all done whatting, someone else went and helped us take the prize and then passed it to us. It was so big and nice and soft, the package was. BUT! To our horror and dismay when we opened it, we found that it was just filled with one big pack of marshmallows, and one big pack of fruit plus!!!

So awesome lor the prize. So me and huiwei started taking the sweets and throwing them around [urm, think we kept hitting the same person lol] Ah but it was gratifying to see people pick them up! wahaha. I have sweets to last me half my lifetime...

After that actually wanted to go seoul garden with xiu rong and huiwei cuz xiu rong supposedly owe us treat haha. BUT, to our horror and dismay again, all were fully booked and walk in customers only allowed in at close to 2pm. But i had piano later on so couldnt stay so long. We went to eat at Jack's place instead. The food is such a rip off okay. Stupid crappy place. The only thing reasonably good was the dessert. Warm, melt in your mouthhh... I liked it but then again, xr and huiwei didnt very much, which also speaks of how good the place was.

After that went home.

At night went to watch movie with my sis! Journey to the center of the earth! It started at 10. And the movie was pretty dam nice, ignoring all the discrepancies. I shall not give a summary of it else this post will be way too long. It was basically very nice and full of stupid heart attack moments that made me jump in my seat more times than horror movies -.-

Saturday - Gaming convention + random cosplaying people

In the morning went with xr and anh to this gaming convention thingy which included cosplaying people. Walked around a bit and saw that the whole place was like about gaming! There was the world cyber games dunno what dunno what competition also. So there was nothing much for us and we wanted to leave early. But then the people got those cosplayers to go on stage and do poses. Omg, some of them were like totally.. urggg. unbelievably bad okay... Think the best looking ones were the ones with masks. Those looked pretty awesome. But the link one was nice. Then there was this super nice d-greyman group with people who actually looked nice, but there were technical errors and they didnt go on stage!! So sad...

Rahhh, so after that was over we just went for food. At macs -.- Cuz theres nothing to eat at a place like SUNTEC CITY.

Anyway after that i went to watch national day parade the cheating way. Actually just wanted to see the stupid heart -.-

Waited for chao long then saw some kites flying around.

Parachuters. Look like houseflies.

He's having fun.

Right above us.

Planes too fast can only catch the smoke.

Aha! Planes!

People get so excited at the almost crashing stunt.

He's having fun too.

AFTER THIS MY PHONE RAN OUT OF BATT. RIGHT AT THE MOMENT WHEN THEY WERE MAKING THE HEART. I HATE MY PHONE!!!!

Oh well, at least got to see the heart right before my eyes. [words of consolation.] Oh oh, and there was a rainbow too! Cuz it was drizzling before that. Nice big fat rainbow.

Then we stayed for the fireworks too. It was quite random. At first we just walked back after seeing the heart, and then halfway while walking they released some fireworks. So we stopped to watch. But after a few pops it stopped. So we continued walking. Then walk halfway see baybirds bobbing along. So stop and look also [the last one didnt have light > <]

Then we were trying to find a good place to see the main fireworks. So went to bridge there, and sat there and waited. THEN WE HEARD THE SOUND. shyt la the fireworks was like behind the stupid building in front of us -.- But luckily they just popped a few also. BIG PINK fireworks. Then stopped. So we moved to the other side and walked and walked until a reasonable spot. Waited for a while then got to see the fireworks! Yayy so nice so nice. They were like so sparkly and never ending and big and noisy. [At this point i yet again hate my phone more] Green red yellow golden even after they're gone they leave stars in the sky that keep on sparkling :D

After a looong looong popping of fireworks [with the small cheap thrill ones as described by someone randomly popping at one side], we left to go off. But then walk halfway, then start popping again! Golden showery fireworks. glittering their way into the dirty water below. A few only, then stopped again. So we continued walking. Then they played national anthem! And after that, pop again! pop pop pop. So we were like contemplating whether they were gonna randomly start popping again -.- But no cuz the host guy was like saying Thank you for coming! So we could go home! Whoo. So squeezy all the way into the station, but the mrt itself not that bad...

Yea, i hate my phone!!

Oh yea there were some tourists near us also, and they were dam irritating Like saying singaporeans dunno what they are waiting for but they have reasons cuz they are tourists! Pls la i think they have even less knowledge of what they are waiting for.

sigh. what a jam packed and demoralising day.

had piano in the morning, 3 hour paper.. got home at round 12noon. Mom didnt cook cuz was having tuition then asked me go buy lunch for everyone. So i went and came back round 1230. Stuffed food down and left house at 105.

Reached commonwealth mrt for national day observance ceremony at 150+pm. Stupid phone went from full bar in the morning to one slit when i was on the mrt so had to off it to save for later. After everyone came, we went in. They gave us quite budget shirts, the white shirt was so thin, zui qiu totally looked like some farmer.

So at that new town primary school, we sat around for about 1 hour waiting for someone to brief us. Ate ice cream while waiting. Finally this guy came and briefed us, but he was talking to like one side of the mini grandstand, so the other side couldnt hear nothin. He told us to go get hats, and wa lao, thought we would at least get the nicer red caps but we seriously got straw farmer hats. -.- We took the guy's kind of hat cuz who said there had to be a gender segregation for hats anyway. The guy's one looked more elaborate, like cowboy hats. The girl's one looked like wearing hay on your head.

We were sent off to our respective positions, but quite dumb, me and huiwei were sent to a gate that wasnt even open. The only job we did there was to help this random guy pass food to a red indian [he was wearing red shirt] by passing it to us over the gate. So after that me and huiwei went to ziuqiu and joycelyn's gate to help them open and close it. Got my foot stuck under the gate once cuz they pull it open too fast before i moved so i got a bit lighter, it removed some dead skin. The parade came in through that gate, so we got to see evrything close up, including miss singapore, which we couldnt even recognise anyway, other than the fact that she was wearing the cloth thingy that said so.

After the MPs came, we went to the field where they were having performances. After zui qiu posed some farmer poses, we decided to go sheng siong and buy some stuff. Then huiwei made a random comment that "ey you know ppl that can use the tongue to tie knot with cherry stalk", then i was like "i can!" then she" ... are good kissers." UH. Since when?!?! NVM. so she very excited in the end ask me to buy cherries cuz i like cherries so that she can play with the stalk -.- So i bought 10 cherries, then we went out then all of us started trying to tie knot with the stalk, look quite bian tai. Zui qiu was the best! He was the first to get the knot done man.. then me! Then huiwei who always got halfway but never suceeded, and MINLU like, 1 HOUR LATER. xiu rong spat her stalk out while laughing at zui qiu's conceited face!!! Yuckk... While they were all trying me and zui qiu did it a second time!

After that went back and the pink guy told us just have to wait until it ends, help to make the ppl leave then can go le. But ppl already left by themselves, so we just watched the last few performances then we left. Me and xiu rong rushed off to pasir ris for the end season bbq...

Think we alighted too early, we ran there halfway and walk halfway. Reached round 837pm? There were round 20 ppl left i think. All the food was cooked finish le.

-destroys this whole portion*- cleared up matter with yuyan liao C:

look there are 4, so zhun.

Ants.

Ants have become a part of my life. They eat with me, do homework with me, read books with me, go to school with me, use the com with me, even crawl up and down the bathroom walls [nto with me this time though]. But ants are not my friends. NO.

I hate it when they drown themselves in the water jug or in a bowl of soup, were they hypnotized by the pied piper or something? Or have they lost their queen and become so aimless in life that they have to take their own?

even if i see them everywhere
even if they're crawling right through my hair

I dont care what, my view still stands

Ants, ants, ants are not my friends!

it's been sometime now. [the last thing i wrote was on 19th july and was the 219th post. 19 19!] i shall write something. Like for example my dream, again!

Again, i dont remember what the dream was about, only scenes in the dream. So i remember i needed to get to somewhere which was the 50th storey of a building, to save someone. But there were only 2 lifts, one went straight to the 50th storey, the other went straight to the 100th storey. I didnt know that at first, but i was rushing for time, so i just went into the lift that opened first. There was a girl in it and i saw the buttons on the lift and there was only 1 and 100. So i exclaimed this lift goes all the way to 100?? And the girl said, yes it does and laughed shrilly. The lift shot up and i was beginning to feel that feet on air feeling and i foresaw that i was gonna get freaked out by the time the lift reached the 100 storey. [It's like sitting in a cable car, its one of those kind of lifts that protrude out and have transparent windows, not hdb flat lift. And yea i have a fear of cable cars, usually sit on the floor when i ride one.] I dont remember if i ever made it up.

But i know the next dream was like, we went to thailand. We, being me, xiu rong, huiwei [i think there were others but i dont rmbr]. And i wanted to go to the toilet and so did they, so we were all searching for a toilet but the place was so obscure that the nearest toilet was at a place that we passed by earlier that looked quite run down and stuff, dark blue tiles that looked more like blue algae than blue paint. Actually there was a toilet where we were, but that toilet had no walls between the cubicle -.- So we went to the one with the dark blue tiles, which ALSO had no walls between the cubicles. But it had curtains instead! So it was 20cents to get in [though it should have been in baht] And at first i gave a 10c but it was wrong so i gave a 20c then the man asked me if i had one LARGE 50c coin, and it was really large, like, there was actually an image of it like the size of a pizza. I had one, for some reason, so i gave that instead. In return I got my house key, a 20c coin and a tiny silver fake sword. I dont know what that combi of things mean. So i went into the toilet. AND for some horrendous reason unspoken, i dropped my stuff into the dam toilet bowl! Meaning that i forgot i was ever holding them, so i dropped them into the toilet bowl some way or another. I looked into the dark blue ceramic toilet bowl and could see each of the items. I was just about to summon my greatest courage to pick them out when the toilet bowl became a some sort of treasure box instead. It was full of fake guns, like those decorative ones you place around the house, with designs on them. There was even one made of a thin sheet of metal, cut out into the shape of a long rifle, and with flowery patterns cut into its body, so it looked like a cake cutter. At this point i was already about to wake up. And i did, cuz i had to go for piano. And i DID have to go to the toilet too..

Ah, so those were my dreams for this morning.

As for any epic occurances in the week, well there was ONE. And the whole world knows about it and saw it but i must still write about it since they only saw it and didnt feel it.

Well, we had a house session on wednesday, and at first we were all quite skeptic and unenthu about it cuz well, its a house session. It started off with boring cheering, with a cheer that had no rhythm or rhyme whatsoever. But later on we were made to go to the field and make the letters of AERIUS. 04 did the letter U and it was TINY at first cuz some guys ran away to play bball. We got them fetched back and our U became more reasonable. Then chiansiang, feeling quite inadequate commented quite loudly that the class beside us, their S dam big leh. LOL. Me and huiwei burst out laughing man... he didnt even realise the implication of the way he said it until then. haha. Then he tried to correct it but failed. It just sounded like, well, what it sounded like no matter how he said it. lol. Anyway this part of the house session was quite cool since we never had anything like it before.

After that there was inter class capt's ball. SO, at first we had no class to play with! So we were monkey-ing around on our own, until the OGLs fetched a class to play with us. And we took a glance. WA!! ALL GUYS!!?? And one LARGE canoeist to boot. So we were like, OMG. And started acting dam enthu [about losing] and having great class spirit. We thought we were gonna die, maybe thats why we were being so enthu, you know, treasure the last moments of your life. BUT THEN, the guys from that class s01, which was my og group, were actually being quite slack cuz they UNDERESTIMATED US wahahaha. So they started off quite slack, but slowly as the game moved on, daniel started spreading his wings and propelling himself like 5feet off the ground, and chiansiang ran and slid about until the friction was going to melt the soles of his shoes, and our class was everywhere like ants on a battlefield and those guys were like, they're everywhere!

Being everywhere all the time, there must be moments when one accidentally overlaps the coordinates that the other is standing in. SO. Guy from other class has the ball. Guy from another class is going to receive it. Ball leaves Guy's hand. I run to intercept, daniel runs to intercept [from the entirely opposite direction]. I doubt we ever saw each other [i never saw him coming] I have no idea where the ball went, becuz i had a HEAD ON COLLISION with daniel!! We both collapsed to the floor under the force of the collision, and my head was totally ringing and i was seeing the stars, the sun and the moon. He hit the left side of my head and like a pendulum thingy the pain shot over to the right side, so my whole head was having a headache. As for daniel, i hit him in the chin [lol hit chinh's chin.] So he was saying that he got the hairpin shape on his chin. After i got hit and thrown to the floor, i jumped up and was like DANIEL ITS YOU!!! raaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhh and there was a moment of confusion and then the game continued on. The headache went away after a while. And we also won the captain's ball game! Yay, got free food.

Anyway its not the first time something like that has happened to me. The first time was during Dunman Orientation, where there was captain's ball too. I was running to intercept, and so was Anthony, in the exact opposite direction. Yea so we collided, and Anthony, being made of stone, didnt even budge, but i was the one thrown to the floor -.- The effect was generally the same.

I shall not intercept in such a manner anymore. > <

ok this has been long enough so i shall end here! byebye.

I shall first write about my dreamS before i do other stuff.

The first dream i cant remember at all what it was about, only who was involved, so i shall not talk about it.

The second and third dream, however, is slightly clearer, though not that clear either. So in my second dream, i dreamt that i was watching The Dark Knight [yet i havent even watched it] and it was taking place in this castle. On the inside it had orangey light but on the outside it was dark with creatures flying about and stuff. So the characters, there were quite many: there was a woman vampire slayer, a woman shapeshifter, wizard, little boy with magic powers, random kindly girl, and a boy who looked like Sora. Some of them were princes of random imaginary lands. So i just kept dreaming them returning from their duties nightly, covered in blood and stuff and talking about who they had slain and how it went, like normal people.

Then i think in the middle i was interrupted by my own alarm clock. The dream switched into like a final fantasy dream. The boy really was Sora [even if Sora is not exactly from final fantasy], and the little boy was a little Sora. The other characters were like acting in a show, there was this pale woman with purple hair and slitty eyes who was supposed to act throwing a shoe out of the window. She really did drop the shoe and then had to climb out of the window to pick it back. Then i forgot what happened, but little Sora did something wrong and Big Sora refused to bother about little Sora, which made little Sora immensely sad. Little Sora went to look in all the other rooms to look for other people but everyone was sleeping. So little Sora went to the kitchen window and started watching the kids playing in the sand downstairs. The parent was being awed at his kid's ability to draw a new final fantasy weapon in the sand, which was a shoe with chains here and there. Little Sora just watched. Then another character, the kindly girl, came into the kitchen and tried talking to little Sora, but little Sora kept bursting into tears and crying and crying [and man i could feel his pain too while having the dream] because Big Sora wouldnt talk to him and maybe wouldnt ever see him again. After everyone had come down to dinner, Big Sora still didnt come down. Little Sora, sad and dejected, i suspect planned to disappear somewhere.

But i was too awake at this time to let the dream continue smoothly by itself so thats the end.

Please dont starve your kids.

Cucumber and bones for dinner!!??

So dizzy with hunger to be greeted by that is the worst.

Feel like we're living in poverty.

oh the horror.

so, i had this dream. In the dream, i decided to watch the end of evangelion, since xiu rong kept asking me to watch it. So i turned on the tv. There it was showing. But not quite it. :X



The blond girl was walking through a yellow walled hospital. Everyone was just doing their own stuff, like watching tv, wheeling stuff around etc. Joannah was there to but i forgot what she said to the girl. Suddenly, there was a werewolf, and it tore through the hallway and ripped everyone apart so there was the camera on the jaws of the werewolf swiping side to side with dismembered arms and legs in its jaws.

The girl ran away, out of the hospital, into the streets. There were like people who were like diseased, and covered in blood and moaning in pain crawling around. Newspapers creeped along the ground and paper flew about randomly in the wind. There was like a disease breakout. Everyone was dying. But the girl hadnt got it yet. There was this guy who made it out too, so they decided to escape together. They went into a safehouse, where they found this child. Creepy child with pale skin and black hair that was straight and eyes that were blank. They took her along, and went to see the council.



So turns out this girl and the guy were supposed to be trying to eradicate the city of the disease and the monsters. So they were telling the council fellow that chocolate will do the job.



"Chocolate will make it right." the girl said.

"Good plan." council guy said.



But somehow. actually chocolates will make the monsters more excited and crazy.



At this point in the show, i looked at my sis who was watching the show with me and said, "this is such a gross show." I looked at the clock and thought to myself. Ok i have training at 630pm.



So i continued watching the show. The girl, the guy and the creepy child went out of the council house and they met a woman. She had a baby with her and it was wrapped in a cloak. The woman needed to take two carriages to get to the safehouse. But the carriages were filled with monsters and werewolves and people were getting ripped up inside. So the guy told the woman to take the cloak and bring the child in. The woman was reluctant at first but in the end she put on the cloak and carried the child into the carriage. When she came out the first time, the child was gone, she was still alive. So the guy said, "good plan?"



But when she went into the second carriage, she came out and her face turned to the camera and her eyes were wide in shock and fear and her face was covered in blood and she looked so traumatised. The skin on her left arm was coming off and in her madness, she ripped it off herself. It came off in one whole piece. She went mad and chased after the blond girl. Like, she growled like a werewolf and became one, and pounded after the girl.



The blond girl ran back to the hospital, where everything had become dead and papers just flew around. She ran until the end of the hospital where there was like this operation room and there was a monster standing in front of the door. The blond girl ducked, and the woman who became a werewolf jumped over the girl and crashed into the glass panes of the operation room. Another werewolf flew out of the monster and chased after the blond girl. It caught her and ripped her apart.



Yea she died. And the creepy child got taken too. No idea what happened to the guy.



The show ended and i went to sleep and woke up at 930++ And i was like SHYT!! I MISSED TRAINING!! and went to my mom and say why you nvr wake me up for training??



Then i wake up for real...



Yea, so that was my dream :/ So vivid.










This is a slipshod drawing of the main characters in my dream. Didnt bother to colour the clothes also wahaha.

Yea, creepy kid, blond girl and guy.

im so so so so so so so so so uber uber uber uber sleepy right now...

Had a wrong number call from someone just now. Weird person, called wrongly then still call again.

This is how it went:

Stranger: Hello!!

Me: Huh.

stranger: you are ariel[cant hear properly who she asking for also] right??

Me: No.

stranger: DUN LIE LA!! I KNOW YOURE AVERIL

Me: Uh..

stranger: YOU KNOW THERE WAS THIS GUY CALLED EDWIN...

Me: Uh UH uh, i think you got the wrong number..

Stranger: oh. shyt.

*stranger hangs up*

???? Crazy, tell you wrong person liao dont believe -.- Should have just let her continue talking, she sounded so excited.

My head so heavy.. i really wanna sleep right now...

The only marks i know are my lit marks. And i havent got any papers back at all! Deprived me. Mrs Poon wont let kt take my chem paper -_- maybe i got a single digit mark. oh well 90% failed, maybe i shouldnt feel so bad. But oh i do. kev pls save me..

What if i get some crappy paper back on tues? Hope it wont make me emo on wednesday... Oh dont tell me they are giving out lit section B paper on wednesday -_- wont get my paper again then...

Left hand getting more and more painful. But the pain feels like part of the action :/ Important pain. I havent posted about shooting for a long time here.

I keep shooting nice grouping[97-99] and lousy single shots[96- 1 8, 2 9s]. Keep shooting 8. But they were due to me trying to twist my body, which is bad for me.

Tmr will be a scary start to the day. O why doth this task befall unto me?

Hope zhang doesnt do anything funny to me. And even if she does, i shall ignore it [as long as its not that important.]

This post is utterly random. I feel a lack of things to say. I feel an emptiness <-- this is such an oxymoron. How do you even feel emptiness if its empty. But honestly i dont give a lamb...

Oh well, after training i went home today, and did bio and did math and it was 1115. Havent done homework for sometime now. Just doing all the stuff that's due. I feel sleepy everyday but dont really want to end the day so soon. But then again, what am i prolonging each day for... for worthless crap like this? Really whats the point..

the nights are pretty quiet.

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yay! no more common tests for meee...

anyway since i have barred myself from the com for a week, i shall write about how the week went.

On sunday, to start off, my nose was running like a cheetah [oh wait this is kinda a wrong comparison since cheetah's lack stamina but my nose sure ran like a marathon runner]. Just kept running and running the whole day non stop. I used up sooo much tissue. Lazy to keep walking to the dustbin to throw tissue away so i just had a plastic bag beside me and it was fulll of tissue. This was the only day in the whole holiday i studied more than 4 hours [cuz on other days i kept falling asleep], since the studying was just annotating of Great Expectations and i had to finish it or be doomed.

Monday however, my nose didnt run anymore. Went for KI paper, which was pretty slack. My handwriting was so NICE and BIG for section A but small and crappy for section C cuz i forgot to write bigger to be able to gauge how many words to write. And also because i wasnt sure what to write... supposed to assess the argument, but didnt have many points to say about it.

Tuesday was chem and lit. Chem, a total disaster. A sure fail. Even heard this guy say wa study like never study like that, sure fail lo. But it wasnt supposed to be hard, i just really suck at chem... probably getting 30 or so out of 100.

Lit was alright. I liked the poem. About a jaguar. Didnt bother reading the other poem. My handwriting for lit was soooo spaced out it was like one-finger spacing between the letters man. Because during one of the lectures it was mentioned that average handwriting is 8 words per line, so i tried doing that but it still ended up around 12 words a line. M y w o r d s l o o k e d l i k e t h i s. Really! Wrote around 1200 worth of crapping for each.

Mathh on wednesdayyyy.. my first 3 hour paper of the common test. Ahhh the paper wasnt hard.. i made some stupid careless mistakes.. that cost A LOT of marks!! eek. I cant live up to those GREAT EXPECTATIONS!! > <>

Anyway i celebrated the end of my exam with a Burger King Milo.

Yay. What a not so epic week. But i had epic dreams. I forgot the actual content but my dream this morning was sweeny todd-esque. It had a guy that looked like johnny depp in it, with the eye shadow and mascara and pale complexion and black skinny clothings get up kind. Also had a girl character, similar, but with rags and layers of plaid and cloth with picha-ded[this is not a real word] ends with threads handing down and coarse and common boots[too much lit]. Messy hair. They really looked like characters from a crooked fairy tale. Then there was a part where i dreamt i had a hamster. And since in real life i didnt feed no hamster, in my dream i was like SHYT! I DIDNT FEED THE HAMSTER! so i went and took it out. There were two of them, but one hamster had a tail like a mouse.. i took it to the kitchen sink at home, to bathe it!! Rubbed green apple soap on its back.. remember seeing it almost fall into the sea [though there was no sea] But it slowly stiffened and died.. Yes it did. And its tail was swollen because i didnt feed it!! What is this ominous foreboding?? Ok, dont wanna think so much. Better do the bio quiz on km..

sigh... i need a new brain. wish i could buy one from a roadside stall. i wonder if brains have emotions without a heart.

This is from my heart. When you say that what exactly is it thats from your heart? Are feelings from the heart? I think the only feeling in a heart is when you get a heartattack. That sour feeling you get when its a so called heartache, feels more like a stomach malfunction. Or an expiring rib cage. I really am talking crap though, so dont take any of these to heart? C; what a pun... Take it to the brain man..

Was so hungry after pt today, but xr didnt wanna go with me to satisfy my mcflurry craving so i got one from bedok interchange. It went down like a thin, dried snowflake. I felt like i hadnt even tasted it and it was gone. I couldnt taste it, it just kept going down my throat. And just felt cold.

food food food food food....

im so packed with things on thurs from 8-1 and friday from 8-3. maybe i will faint and die? ahh, they wont let me off so easy...

say what you need to say.. say what you need to say... say what you need to say... the john mayer song playing right now keeps saying that. even if your hands are shakin.. He thinks its so easy. And your faith is broken...

say what you need to say... say what you need to say... blah blah blah you know what line comes next...

wow the pencil just stopped short.

Right there.

Couldnt get it to touch the paper. My inspiration wont spill out. But anyway the ideas in my head could just be some consolation prize. If you get what i mean. But i bet you dont. ahaha.

shyt. no inspiration.

nvm. Moosic music music.
i gotta pick me up when im downnn.. i dont know when i got bitter.. love is surely better when its gone...

yay i have worked my primitive brain today. Math math math math. I still dont feel fulfilled though, only cuz i still think i havent learnt anything more. Whoohoo! I wanna live in my primitive world with my primitive mind, and only know the most primitive thing.

The most primitive thoughts could still keep a person alive no?

bloody hell la all you idiot people in the world please just get sucked up by a large vacuum cleaner and disposed off into another universe please.

i hate this dam pollution.

why are some people in this world so evil and act smart!! and scheming!!!

like mr high!!!
grrrr so pissing off. this kind of crappy unhelpful uncooperative unreasonable unwanted people should just be shot right in the eyeball!!

walaoZ. Think we wanna use your car on purpose think your car very nice meh?!?! Got transformer sticker doesnt mean is really transformer okay!!! Got no car then dont use your car la! Not like youre the only human bean with a CAR. Obviously we will be able to find other people with cars AND other people who are MUCH MORE helpful and understanding.

HMPH. dont want to fetch dont fetch la! Dont have to say tell the others not to help us fetch it also right. So toot. use your brain a bit la... who is so dumb to take public transport to carry 6kg when you have car?? Like who will go carry a bag on a stick and trudge your way to the next village when you have trains.

pampered what pampered lor. You think the whole world wanna take advantage of you, so ego for what.

do you like my strawberry tartlet?

Baked on election day.

haha. its mayonnaise surrounding chilli sauce. I made it to dip my fries. Nice right?

yay im back to the real worldd.

uh. whats the real world.. my world is just shooting and study shooting and study. It has always been this real. The camp just felt like going to another planet but still doing the same thing. Back to my own planet now. The planet where maybe i can fall asleep.

I like to twist and turn in bed. I just cant lie there and fall asleep. :C This is like gonna be detrimental lor. I keep turning from this side, that side, facing this direction, that direction. Sometimes when i really cant sleep i just sit up.

Wow if i had to share a bed with someone i think i'll irritate someone to the ends of the earth okay. [Like i used to kick my sis all the time by accident without knowing.]

How to not move at all and just lie there and fall asleep? My body is acting out my turbulent mind. And then there are the dreams, that make me feel like i never slept. Oh i keep dreaming about scenes in the shooting range.

sigh. i need to sleep. Haha <-- this laughter is out of place.

Shall we run from this world?
Touch the nightsky filled with pearls.
In your eyes burning bright,
there's a secret we hold tight, as we
escape with our masks,
Rendezvous in the Night.
Climb our way to the stars, oh if we could
Reach those heights,
swing back and forth on threads of cloud,
shout our worries, lost in doubt.
Blink the tears out from our eyes,
for the Moon's our alibi.
We could be so alone, but
We could feel so alive.
You and me, just slumbering in the other's company,
Freed from the world's mess and misery,
Finally.

ha.

ARISTAL 2008

























'I' am taller than xr

failed attempt at making this look combined

Prelude.

chinese dance first

Indian dance

Another chinese dance

creepy malay dance

chinese dance with cloud and topless guys

malay dance with umbrellas

indian dance

indian dance again

chinese dance

indian dance
[daniel leftmost purple guy]

finale dance

Dam crowded stage and THE END.

whee i am stoning.

benchua: who?

me: myself

lalala.

This town is old
the people have sold
their minds for gold
and even the bold
have all lost hold
of sanity in this town so cold.

just for the sake of rhymes.

today i woke up late so got my dad to fetch me to sch. almost got involved in accident. didnt see how it happened. only looked up cuz felt jerky brake and screeching. 3cars in front of us crashed. we were next in line but dad braked in time. no one died.

today i took the train and went in a circle.. got on at newton but i fell asleep and woke up at raffles place. So i got off and went up the escalator to take the train towards pasir ris but i ended up at dhoby ghaut again. Realised i took the wrong side. Got off and took the train on the other side. zzz.

shes fine. shes fine. shes fine.

I HATE SKOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOLLLLLLLLLLLLLL I HATE LESSSONNNNNNNNNNNNSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

gasp i had suuuch a weiird dream okayyy...

it was about shooting club. We were having the training camp, at some lodge in a forested area. Our cabins were like hobbit holes. so.. it was elections time!! I dreamt about andy making his speech! And it began with him showing a video, which had himself in it, and everyone calling his name and chasing after him going andy andy andy andy! like crazy fans. And at one point in the video it showed him doing a back-flip like action and i commented andy's dam bendy! Then he was gonna start his speech but somehow the scene changed to me planning my speech. But somehow i dreamt about a poem instead! In my dream it was a really long and wholesome poem but i only remember the first two lines now...

Elections in the month of May!
Joannah and her team made it to this day!

okay.. it was a really weird dream and there were other things happening that i dont quite remember now, those are the Main most interesting bits...

ah yea yea yea. Apart from the fact that i feel once again drawn towards the Tolkien realm, other strange things have been happening to me. The thing is, i've been dreaming of getting myself cut and bloodied pretty frequently. Ok twice, not that frequent. But the two instances were close together...

The first was some accident. Some natural disaster that landed me in this place with glass shards all around. [i remember the lighting was a dark romantic orange, like after a fire.] The glass shards were stuck in the back of my hand, my palm and my arm. I was squeezing them out, and they just slipped out, like how you squeeze a plastic cup filled with water and the water just seeps out. Yea they slid out, and my hand was comparable to the likes of shredded paper. It was literally in sections. I couldnt lift my hand, because my hand wouldnt stay in one piece. My friends were trying to get me to stand but i couldnt because my hand was just too screwed up. They had to bandage it up by tying a cloth around it to keep the pieces together. And it was all bloody and gore. And fallen wood littered around the orange room..
I had this dream while sleeping at the atrium. Must have happened in a pretty short time. Or it could have been a half hour dream.

Now for the other one, happened just yesterday night/this morning. I forgot what the dream was about, but i remember that at one point, i was looking at koi in a pond, and the koi were all sliced up, they were split open all the way down their spines and there were horizontal slits across that line. They weren't in pieces though, they swam around in that top-split state. Like a slice of mango that you cut into cubes while preserving the presence of the skin and then flipping it such that the cubes open outwards. [I thought of this comparison in my dream]. And then the next moment, it appeared i was sitting on a high chair, beside this pond. I was holding a carving knife of some sort, and it pretty much doubled up and plunged itself deep into my thigh. What in the worldd right... Anyway there was blood flowing flowing flowing, and someone asked me what the hell that thing was doing in my leg and i was like i cant get it out, its just stuck there. And really it was stuck, like it had a life of its own and chose to stay there. I dont remember if the matter was resolved.

So, what could these dreams mean?

And so began the march of the lost and unknown...

Over the bridge and
Under the snow
Marching through earth
the dry leaves go
crackling under their feet
Hear them crying
The winds and the woods
are dying, dying.

Eyes wide open
but distant, forlorn.
Their fears had come true
the Curse had been born
It marked the beginning of
endless struggles with fate
Man ceased to live.
And the lands ceased to breathe.

Nowhere to go,
just marching through air
The plains before them lay
Barren.
Bare.

who am i deceiving
how does the world see me
a package ripped open
by my own stupidity.

The gap is too m u c h.

so today was quite a difffferent day. had to print 100 brochures so i brought 100 papers, and got some from william and xr. So during pe and break i went to bytes and printed like 80 copies, i hope i wasnt overkilling the printer man :/ then after sch printed another 20. printing that 20 took longer than even printing that 80. There were so many people printing stuff and they accidentally used some of myyy brochure paper to print their stuff!!! They returned it in blank papers though. Then had to staple the brochures together. XD was there to help but he kept running off to watch his friends play whatever computer game that i couldnt be bothered to keep walking over [which i was doing earlier] to say you can go help staple now. So i just stapled the rest after folding them into a booklet. AND also we were short of paper.

I was like saying theres 89 copies
XD: thats not enough.
me: yea we have to buy paper.
XD: *goes off to watch friends play*
me: *huh wth* goes and buys paper.
I came back and printed the rest.
XD comes along and says: where'd you get the paper from?
me thinking wth.: i bought it.

lame right. wth la.

rah.. anyway after that was supposed to go CDANS to help hang the banner. We left at 430. William forgot to bring the banner home yesterday so he was sewing at home, but when we got there he was there already. It was just me, XD and William. We carried lots of newater and target cards up to the range at cdans. Then there was some problem with the poles William brought for the banner. They were FAR too short!! He had to go buy new poles so XD and I counted cards while he went to buy the new poles. Good thing cdans had a SAW and we could saw the new poles to the right length. The banner went up eventually. Had to cut it at the top as usual, so that it could stretch over the cupboard. But, the paper tape behind the cloth was too obvious so XD had this awesome idea of just sticking a huge long piece of paper tape along the whole edge. It didnt turn out too bad. Looks like a border. and KAISHENG didnt paint the border!! sigh the banner looks so plain we should have pasted paper tape ALLL around it.

went home around 730 reached home around 850 lalala. the day is tmr!!

Ahh i like keep posting this in the wrong place Y_Y.

and so today huiwei wanted to go get her bag [finally.] ahh first we went to seoul garden [first time for me], becuz i had the vouchers from deal! So yea, free meal lolo. Was supposed to be treating huiwei, but huiwei felt rich and xiu rong felt poor!! So part of the voucher went to xiu
rong instead. quite nice luh, though not a lot of choice of food. [I think the desert part was nice]

yahh anyway we were happy and full after that [starving prior to this cuz xiu rong was making us wait for her] and we went to this toy store place that had stuff made of wood, and there was this box that was to be opened in a secret way. So i stood there for a while trying to open the box while xiu rong was trying to solve a horseshoe puzzle. The box is like cool la, you can hide stuff in it and people who dont know how wouldnt be able to open the box! its totally concealed. i managed to open the box eventually though, and so did xr, becuz it had been put through endless abuse by others who tried, so how to open it was quite obvious. didnt bother trying to solve the horseshoe though.

And off we went to heeren to find huiwei's bag. walkwalkwalkwalk. Walk here walk there [yea, this always happens when going out with huiwei] walkwwalkwalk. cannot find! ahhh, nevermind! go cine. walkwalkwalkwalkwalkwalk. oh oh xiu rong managed to buy her cloth food finally! yay for her. so continue walking. lalala. STILL CANNOT FIND. So we decided to go marina, since huiwei said she saw it there, [a few weeks ago!!] So we went there, and went to puma, and nike.. and STILL DONT HAVE!! By this time xr and i wanted to puke blood le. But heng! we stepped into royal sporting house. SUCH a BEEEG place. So i was like, so big!! better find sth arhrhhhahrhrah. and walking a few rounds later, we FINALLY. got sth. HENG man. by this time i and xr's feet were dying and we were like, yea yea nice, yea. JUST BUY THAT ONE LA. so we finally got her bag! yayay.

Then she also wanted to get slippers. But that one wasnt so bad. And somemore buy two!! and gave me the other half of each pair! lol. but so tired. sigh. everytime going out with huiwei is like around the world in 4 hours. whee

There was sports day today, i ran 4x100 for house and 4x400 for cca.

the 4x400 one was really epic okay..

its like at first we didnt have to run cuz we didnt even make the heats, but some teams pulled out and in the end we still got in??! and we were all prepared to not run Y_Y

wu duo didnt bring a shirt, and shujen was too tired, so we changed people, dragged ailin and verene to run C: ailin super pro, glad we got her to run.

we were in lane 8, which is quite a horrible lane cuz it always seems to be longer.

So anyway ailin started off quite good, we werent very far back, but then we started lagging O: by the time it was my turn [me fourth runner Y_Y cuz i lost scissors paper stone to sinhang [aiya dunno how to spell her name X:]] we were 7th!! gosh. rahhhh then my turn, then i think the ppl when they started they ran quite fast :/ so at the 200m mark i caught up with one person.. at 300m another person... then after that another person... 3 ppl!!! wahhaha!! but i was dying by that time, like reallyyyy dyingggg, i forced myself past that last person that i caught up with... then like a few steps away from the finish line my legs like wanted to give way!! rahh.. then i think i slowed down!!! then suddenly this blue shadow from nowhere just PUSHED past me!!! NOOH1!!!!!! then we got forth!!!! arhhhhgggg.... becuz i slowed down!!!! wth laa... it was SOOO close!!!

aiya nvm. i love the milo truck.

Aerius got 3rd overall C:

gosh. i so feel like dying! luckily i didnt go with hw and xr and js to kbox or i will just go there and choke and die on the air con. rah!!! my nose keeps running, it hates me!! its givin me a stupid headache grahh stupid! i wonder how much energy is required for every time you blow your nose man.. i think i've had an equivalent of running 2.4 already if you combine sneezing and blowing nose... and the weather is so hot and im sneezing! I'm so living on the wrong planet...

and doing bio really uses up a lot of pencil lead man... what briefly describe! their briefly is like sooo brief. it should just become a briewasp. ok make no sense. fly. wasp. ok wasp are bigger..

rahhhh, im wasting the resources of the earth!! tissue will soon be scarce! grah! someone please catch my nose for me, stop it from running...

im so bored i can probably be tricked into thinking rubbing an orange for long enough will make it catch fire.

whether or not with or without, wondering is the only way out.
.leaving me some time to think
thinking till im out of ink.

A
lone
ranger
drawing
pictures
in the sand.
He
held
the
branch
tightly
in his
bandaged hand.
Circles.
He
drew
circles
that went
round
and
round.
Like
wishing
hard
for
something
that
has
no
end.