Yay, stolen from xiu rong.

How to Play

1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense. No cheating.
4. With the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.
5. Name 5 people you've interacted with before this quiz

how are you feeling today?
alien ant farm: CALICO.
- Calico cats and calico dreams
That aint too real
Just make it real -

i suppose i am thinking bout how something aint real, and wanna make it real?

will you get far in life?
Fall out boy: THNKS FR TH MMRS
- Been looking forward to the future
But my eyesight is going bad
And this crystal ball
It's always cloudy except for
When you look into the past-

Gosh! Really sounds like i wont get far huh.

How will your friends see you?
The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus: FACE DOWN
-Face down in the dirt she says,
this doesn't hurt she says
I finally had enough.. -

face down??? my friends will see me face down???

Will you get married?
3 doors down: KRYPTONITE
-If I'm alive and well, will you be
There holding my hand
I'll keep you by my side with
My superhuman might
Kryptonite-

If i have superhuman might! But more like:
-I watched the world float to the dark
Side of the moon
I feel there is nothing I can do, yeah-

which means i probably wont get married.

what is your best friend's theme song?
sun yan zi: NI GUANG

i have no idea what the song means.

what is the story of your life?
jay chou: BU NENG SHUO DE MI MI

indeed my life has a lot of bu neng shuo de mi mis...

what was high school like?
kevin caldwell: PHANTOM OF THE OPERA
-In sleep he sang to me
In dreams he came
That voice which calls to me
And speaks my name
And do I dream again?
For now I find
The phantom of the opera is there,
Inside my mind-

Wow. must be funky. The only thing i can think of is prob in sch i spend more time daydreaming about certain someone instead of listening.

how can you get ahead in life?
Caedmons call: MOTHER INDIA
-There's a land where our shackles turn to diamonds
Where we trade in our rags for a royal crown
In that place, our oppressors hold no power
And the doors of the King are thrown wide-

By letting my shackles turn to diamonds.

whats the best thing bout your friends?
Creed: 6 FEET FROM THE EDGE
-Hold me now
I'm 6 feet from the edge
And I'm thinkin
Maybe 6 feet ain't so far down-

With them around, i wont be afraid of falling.

whats in store for this weekend?
Dashboard Confessional: VINDICATED
-Slight hope
dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption...-

Saying something about my monthly shoot clashing with chem project meeting?? There is hope for salvation!

Describe your grandparents
linkin park: WHAT IVE DONE
-I'll face myself
To cross out what i’ve become
Erase myself
And let go of what i’ve done-

Urmm.. they have erased themselves alright...

hows your life going?
savage garden: CRASH AND BURN
-And there has always been heartache and pain
And when its over you'll breathe again
You'll breath again-

Certainly is quite that way. My blog song!

what song will they play at your funeral
savage garden: TEARS OF PEARLS
-Is love really the tragedy the way you might describe?
Or would a thousand lovers still leave you cold inside?
Make you cry...
These tears of pearls

All these mixed emotions we keep
locked away like stolen pearls
Stolen pearl devotions we keep
locked away from all the world -

Well, there's a bit about crying... surely it would be nice to play this tragic song.

how does the world see you?
Gackt: REDEMPTION
-Your form which returns gently to heaven
What else can I do, besides avenge you?
I watched it for the longest time, until my tears dried up.-

They sees me as dead.

Will you have a happy life?
sean kingston: BEAUTIFUL GIRLS
-That's why it'll never work
You'll have me suicidal, suicidal?
When you say it's over-

Gosh. That doesnt sound like too much of a happy life does it..

Do people secretly lust after you?
def leppard: SLANG
-Sittin' dark getting taken 'cause I said
Something lewd in a low down accent
Yeah yeah yeah Kinda love those eyes
I wanna get down honey
But I ain't your guy-

Okkk!!?? What does that sound like to you....

How can you make yourself happy?
Energy: 爱失控
-放开手　
对爱不再有奢求-

By doing the above.

What should you do with your life?
jack ingram: LIPS OF AN ANGEL
-I never want to say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel-

Never say goodbye!

Will you ever have children?
james blunt: WISE MEN
-Look who's alone now,
It's not me. It's not me.
Those three Wise Men,
They've got a semi by the sea.
Got to ask yourself the question,
Where are you now?-

Hmm! I dont think i will have children, though it says its not me who will be lonely? Must be my future pet dog.

What song would you strip to?
Anberlin: PAPERTHIN HYMN
-When your only friends are hotel rooms
Hands are distant lullabies
If I could turn around I would tonight-

If my only friends were hotel rooms?!!?! I would be a SAD SAD kid.

What does your mum think of you?
Incubus: ANNA MOLLY
-I picture your face in the back of my eyes,
A fire in the attic a proof of the prize,
anna molly, anna molly, anna molly-

I'm certain she does think i am an anomaly.

What is your deep, dark secret?
Reel Big Fish: BROWN EYED GIRL
-In the misty morning fog with
Our hearts a thumpin' and you
My brown eyed girl,
You my brown eyed girl.-

I have brown eyes. Oooh. what a secret.

What is your mortal enemy’s theme song?
Breaking benjamin: UNTIL THE END
-I've lost my way
I've lost my way
But I will go on until the end
Living is, hard enough, without you ****ing up-

O: the person must really be my mortal enemy...

What’s your personality like?
Staind: SO FAR AWAY
-These are my words
That I’ve never said before
"I think I’m doing ok"
And this is the smile
That I’ve never shown before
Somebody shake me Cause I,
I must be sleeping -

Yah. Im full of pretence.

What song will be played at your wedding?
breaking benjamin: BREATH
-So sacrifice yourself
And let me have what's left
I know that I can find
The fire in your eyes
I'm going all the way
Get away please-

WA! not a very good wedding song huh! esp this part:

-I'm waiting
I'm praying
Realize
Start hating-

Okkkk.... 5 people i interacted with before this quiz: Huiwei, Xiu Rong, Kaiting, Ama and random friend

l-i-f-e.

life is fullof endings.

Little Rusty-Rustic-Reddish-Brown Walking Hood was told by her mother, one fine evening, to go visit her sick grandmother, gudzilla [who was norwegian] and take the obvious path in the woods to her house. Her mother warned her not to stop to pick any wild flowers[or tame flowers for that matter because flowers in the forest were always dangerous] lest she upset any forest spirits which were known to be quite vicious. But Little Rusty-Rustic-Reddish-Brown Walking Hood was an adolescent approaching the age-of-not-believing, thus it was natural she rebelled against her mother's wishes. As such, she bent down and plucked herself [and her grandmother] a sweet smelling blossom of the brightly-coloured kind that screamed touch me not. And Little Rusty-Rustic-Reddish-Brown Walking Hood was quite quite sure she did hear a scream.

The forest spirits, oh how mad they were. How very mad that they sent their Punisher, the werewolf on her tracks. It was evening, and approaching dark, and it would only take a moment and a while for the fullmoon to rise into the sky. The werewolf, in its human form, approached Little Rusty-Rustic-Reddish-Brown Walking Hood, who was now Little Rusty-Rustic-Reddish-Brown With-A-Few-Leaves-At-the-Bottom Walking Hood, and striked up a conversation with her.

"Where be you heading this fine evening with twelve, or was it thirteen stars in the sky?"

"I am to visit my dear grandmother who is so very old and so very all-knowing. Are you stalking me?"

The werewolf said he wasnt, and said he was just a very sociable fellow. Little Rusty-Rustic-Reddish-Brown With-A-Few-Leaves-At-the-Bottom Walking Hood nodded and said there were a tad many sociable fellows around now-a-days. The werewolf nodded and smiled, and said he was sure there were and by the way would she like to count the very many stars in the sky with him just for a moment and a while? Little Rusty-Rustic-Reddish-Brown With-A-Few-Leaves-At-the-Bottom Walking Hood thought that it would be okay, and so she sat on the fallen leaves and gazed through the canopy of the forest trees and counted stars with the werewolf. And the fullmoon came up.

The werewolf transformed, but Little Rusty-Rustic-Reddish-Brown With-A-Few-Leaves-At-the-Bottom Walking Hood was too busy counting stars to notice his spasmic movements in the transformation. She fell prey to his unforgiving jaws, and his mighty tongue lapped her up in one swift motion. And so she was not to be.

The werewolf now leapt away to the house of the grandmother, for under the orders of the forest spirits, he was to gobble up the youngest and the oldest in her family line, and cause the rest great grief. Little did he know that the old and all-knowing grandmother, was truely all-knowing, for she knew before it happened, that Little Rusty-Rustic-Reddish-Brown With-A-Few-Leaves-At-the-Bottom Walking Hood was going to be eaten by a werewolf. She couldnt stop the event from happening though, for there were no handphones at that time, and she was sick in bed. But when the werewolf arrived at her door, she was well prepared and ready in wait for vengence.

The werewolf leapt into the house through the window, but the grandmother, being Gudzilla, had her mouth opened far and wide to catch the wolf in his air-time. She crunched his bones in fury, mourning for the loss of her granddaughter, whos essence had been absorbed by the werewolf already and was unsavable.

Meanwhile, a hungry woodcutter was cutting wood nearby, when he heard the sounds of the crunches. He was reminded of a certain treat his mother used to reward him with, going by the name of Ringles. Or was it Tingles? It could even have been Pringles. He headed towards the direction of the crunches, and saw the grandmother crunching away, ferociously.He approached her, and as his stomach grumbled, he promptly swallowed her up. You see, he had been cutting wood all day long and was tired, hungry and couldnt care less. He went away, having eaten his fill, and whistled a tune that went something like:

Walking Hood spoiled the forest's mood
She had been pretty bad
By pulling out the plant's life roots
She made the forest mad

They sent the werewolf down on her
He tricked her with a lie
She counted stars that surrounded her
And he ate her, eye by eye

Her grandmother full of anger
Prepared a trap full-blown
The werewolf jumped through the window
And we know that he got owned

So the woodcutter, being hungry and all
Stopped by the house that was standing tall
Drawn by his stomach's hunger call
He ate the grandmother, werewolf, Walking Hood and all.

And that, my friends, is the story of Little Rusty-Rustic-Reddish-Brown With-A-Few-Leaves-At-the-Bottom Walking Hood.

i met with a squirrel today, it said howdy how's the weather. i said it was cold. it said i have a tail, you want one? I said i didnt and it went on its way, onto the road and into a tree.

ok. So that didnt happen. But i did indeed meet with a squirrel, in the morning, just outside the bookshop. it was coming my way, chubby cheeks and all. It was really close to me, and i wanted to catch it but i didnt want the squirrel to have death by human, so i decided to let it be. It skipped away, rather haltingly, onto the road and disappeared into the morning darkness.

And then, going home, when i was exiting the lift, a little dog of yorky kind poked its head into the opening doors and scared the daylights out of me [for i thought it was a giant rat]. It's owner had let it off the leash for a while and it decided to make a grand entrance into the lift, right into my path.

and those were the highlights of today.

Cosfest thing at Vivo.




















Near and L. There were four Ls, this is the nicest most L-like L! He's small btw. And his shirt has a ralph lauren brand on it!






















they decided to pose mourning for stitch.






















Only the sword is nice.

















Construction worker cosplayers.






















Sora! with a funny face.























The genshiken guy from NJ. He ran to pose at the wall! Then everyone started taking pictures of him.























Nicest pair there.

95 words

Speedtest

this thing is fun.

it has been decided.
i will run away to new zealand and live with my pet hedgehog and go whitewater rafting everyday.

yes. that will be it.

the smell of toast is intoxicating. it overwhelms me.

flickering colours,
click and buzz
all is fun but
all it does
is steal away your time till dawn
wont stop till the battle's won

goin at it
till its late
its more appealing
than the bed
virtual wars spark real life wars
on and on, slamming the doors

easing bordem
taking breaks
cant differentiate
what's real what's fake
Protect me from these dangers please
So i can live my life with ease

i had a dream again. It was another strange one, stranger than ever. This time it was of funerals.

It wasnt really mentioned explicitly that it was about funerals, but you could tell that it was, by the way everything was happening.

The first one, i entered a room. It was a huge room with high ceilings and wooden frames around the windows. The room had an orangey light to it. There were round wooden tables placed in regular arrangement and there were people sitting at it. The people weren't quite like people. There were some that looked like werewolves, and others like vampires. There were creatures, with sharp drippy teeth, and eyes that stalked you as you walked. Suddenly, something happened. Something happened that sparked a huge uproar in the room. The creatures started pouncing on each other, and ripping at each other's throats. They were overturning the tables and pulling off table cloths. And a man entered, supposedly a Grandfather, and he was got at at the throat, and he fell writhing to the ground. Someone was crying for him. I left the room.

I entered the next room. This one was small, and white, and it had curtains at the windows. It had many many pianos in it, arranged in rows, close together, with a narrow aisle between. The people sat at the pianos, as they would at tables. They sat at the pianos and watched the ceremony. Someone was at the front of the room, and he was being made to say that he would tell the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth, and the soul would earn its way into the grave. He was wearing this white gown, with a golden collar and a strip all the way down. He was wearing fake wings too. So he said he would tell the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth, and the procession took place. The coffin was carried along the aisle and turned right out of the room and out of the door.

That is all i remember. I do not understand the point of this dream.




Anyhows. I shall write about the movie we watched on Tuesday.

We, meaning JiaSheng, ZhuoChun, Zheyu, Huiwei, XR and Me met at cine on that fine little March showers afternoon at 12 to watch a movie that we hadnt decided was what. For one thing, we had to wait till everyone had arrived to decide. And for one thing, XR was more interested in fixing her com than coming to meet us!! So she arrived a full 20 minutes or so, late [probably forced out of the door by our relentless phone calls.]. The guys came really early, for some reason, and disappeared to fill their stomachs while i met huiwei at the mrt. And then we went to eat. And then xr came and she ate too. Then we went to decide on what movie to watch. I thought we were going to watch The Leap Years [since the whole point of going out to watch the movie that day was because they werent able to watch one on 29th feb thanks to me and xr], but it turned out that the guys had other ideas. So we were considering what movie to watch. Huiwei wanted to watch Sky of Love or something like that, but Jiasheng insisted that it wasnt nice since he watched it before. I wanted to watch water-horse, but Huiwei refused to watch it cuz she said it probably wasnt going to be nice [though she had no solid proof!]. And then, someone said Rule No. #1. It was a horror movie, so i was definitely for it, and so were all the guys, and so, we won by the majority vote! Yeaahh...

But we had to wait like 2 hours for the movie to start, so we split ways and met back again at 2.50pm. The Jia Sheng and Zheyu were playing a basketball game on an Xbox, while zhuochun went on his photographic ways exploring the streets.

Anyway the time came for the movie! Huiwei and Xiu Rong were totally regretting the choice [and also mentioning the fact that not like they even had much of a choice]. Ahaha. It was so exciting. So we went in and the guys filled up the seats inside and huiwei sat beside JiaSheng so she could torture him by pinching, and i sat beside her and xr beside me [though i was quite afraid she was going to be quite scary also]. Xr wanted the aisle so that she could be the first to run away. The seats were like so big, i think i could have slept in them.

So the movie started. Started off quite gory i think. The main character, a police guy, stopped this man for not buckling his seatbelt. The policeman discovered that the man had a dead girl in his boot at the same time, and that man came out of the car and shot him 5 times, with a maniacal grin. At the same time, again, the girl in the boot sat up, blood-covered and all, freaked the man out, and saved the policeman.

The policeman awakes at a hospital, and in his report he wrote that he saw the girl sitting up, though the girl had already been dead 3 hours. He gets sent to a different department, called miscellaneous affairs.

This miscellaneous affairs department is the one who goes after evil ghosts, and shoots possessed people to prevent the ghosts from being passed to more bodies. They cover up for all strange things that happen, to maintain the Rule no#1, which is that there is no such thing as ghosts. Rule no 2 and 3 go something like, dont let them touch you and i dont know what because i forgot. But supposedly with one touch, the ghost can spread to the next body like a virus, and what remains is just the empty shell of the person it was in before.

So the story is basically the policeman guy and his superior go chasing after this mad ghost, who keeps possessing girl after girl. Then there is a saddistic part where the ghost goes to a girls' school, and possesses many girls, then there are like 5 girls standing in a row, on the roof. They have their hair tied together in ponytails, and they are holding hands. And the one at the edge steps off, and whoosh! Down they go, like a broken kite, they fall to the floor and land in a clump of broken bones and bodies. A policewoman touches one of the girls, and wala. Possessed is she now. The policeman actually closes up upon the policewoman that got possessed, and he realises that the ghost is that of the man he stopped in the carpark, back for revenge. He almost got to shoot the policewoman and end the story when some other policeman came and stopped him cuz they didnt believe he was a policeman since he was in plain clothes. So the possessed policewoman got away and the story continues.

The ghost said that it was going after his wife, so he rushed home but he didnt find anything [or so we thought at first].

In the end, he and his superior go to this abandoned house to meet the ghost, who made an appointment with them. They say they will shoot anyone who comes in. But its the superior's wife that comes in first, and the superior wants to prove that she's not possessed so he dances with her. But at the end of the dance, she sticks her nails into his back and the ghost is passed onto him like a virus, and the policeman has no choice but to shoot his superior.

Ah hah! Then suddenly! They jump back to the scene where he rushed home to check on his wife. He actually sees the dead policewoman in the bathtub, and then his possessed wife possesses him! Then he goes to the office and makes the appointment by wiping his bloodied fingers on the picture of the abandoned house. Then he meets his superior there and shoots him.

The last part is quite saddistic. He goes home to his wife[or rather, the ghost goes home to the policeman's wife in the policeman's body] and does the couple-ly thing [while they continue flashing back], except that the wife is just an empty shell. When he's done, he's smoking and he puts out his cigarette on her back. And a tear falls from her eye. Ew.

The most scary thing about the show is actually that the music gets too loud sometimes, freaks people out. And the suspenseful moments come one after another, so Huiwei is like, what!! not again??! And XiuRong is hiding behind her bag most of the time. Other scary scenes are like, the hallucinations he has of the ghost popping out from the washing machine, which has a really awful messed up face, and his wife holding out the foetus all bloody and crap covered, and saying its a boy! in a creepy to the highest degree kind of voice, like she had too many biscuits and no water.

But hey! It was pretty nice actually. ahahaa. Except it doesnt quite make much sense! If ghosts passed through bodies so easily they would have taken over the world by now! [have they already?] But it was a rainy rainy day...

never fail to make the tears
well up in those eyes of mine
why make me face my greatest fears
when i can hide behind those blinds

you always say those kind of words
that strike me hard and from behind
unexpected, my mind is blurred
im tryin to read between the lines

say you'll stop once and for all
though the past holds stories long to tell
I'm the reason for your fall
But you're the one who dug the well

Finally, stop hoping now
I hope you'll keep your word
and keep it well.

stupid. stupid. me.

first time drawing tears. So if they dont look like, im sorry then.

hey this looks like fun! and i have nothing better to do! [i do, but im not doing whatever it is]
1. If I looked on your bed,what would I find?
A toufu, 2 big rabbits, 2 small rabbits, a giant hedgehog, an elephant, a round brown animal, a giant seal, a basket of more stuff toys, 2 pillows. A bedsheet. And maybe me too.

2. Do you go to the bathroom with the door open or closed? well, i have to open it to go to the bathroom.

3. Are your socks folded in your drawers, or just thrown in? rolled in

4. What made your day today? Unravel the code: 2188121710281824 [hah! who would ever bother -_-]

5. Are you a cuddler? Of little animals

6. Last group of people you hung out with? Rifle girls

7 . Something that happened today that made you angry? Missing my stop! And walking back in the rain :C

8. What were u doing before this survey? Talking to xiu rong

9. What will you be doing after this survey? talking to xiu rong

10. Marriage or living together? With who, my imaginary friend?

11. What are you wearing right now? Clothes

13. Does delabeling a beer bottle mean you are sexually frustrated? No, but i have no beer bottles to test anyway

14. Do you talk about your feelings or hide them? hide some, unless i cant take it

15. Is there something you regret? YEA.

16. First thing you do when you wake up? think about...

17. Last person you told you love them? my imaginary friend

18. Kiss with your eyes open or closed? Opened, if its in shock. Closed if its not

20. Last argument you got into? shall not talk about this since its over

21. Do you tend to rip the paper off water bottles? No, cuz they have cute labels, some of them

22.Whats one thing about the girl/boy you like? nice? i dunno, i cant decide. not like you usually know the reason why you like someone..

23. When you shut off your alarm clock, do you tend to fall back asleep? No, unfortunately

24. If you were given the chance to take care of a monkey for a weekend, would you? YES!!! THAT WOULD BE AWESOME COOL!

25 . What is the current advertisement on the side of the page? there's none

26. What are you looking forward to in the next few months? shooting happily

27. When will you turn 50? When i turn 50.

28. Are you ticklish? too ticklish

29. Where do you wish you were right now? somewhere with my imaginary friend, preferably on a star

30.What song are you currently listening to? i learnt from you thattt i do not crumble.. i learnt that strength is something you choose... all of the reasons to keep on believing, there's no question, that's a lesson, that i learn from YOU

31. Have you ever passed out from drinking? Unless its like after pt i dont think i will ever pass out from drinking

32. If you caught your significant other cheating on you what would you do? CRY, STAB MYSELF. STUFF MYSELF WITH BUENO.

33. What time did you wake up this morning? 7:11 its a store and more

34.Do you have any cousins? yea

35. What makes you laugh? my imaginary friend! Solves all problems. Actually almost everything can make me laugh.

36. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? XIU RONG, to ask her why she's late!!

37. What is the worst subject they teach in school? GC

38. Where do you plan on living when you grow up? in a mushroom. ok fine, so i cant. I dont know really.

39 . What was your dream this morning? Something that made me wake up late!!!

BAND CONCERT.

WAS super AWESOME. they played spirited away, princess mononoke, final fantasy melodies of life, incredibles, doraemon, sth sth yamato, pochahontas, dunno what fusion of disney songs. Anyway it was really super nice.

AND THEN THAT FUDI. stupid fuddy!!! keep bluffing me! Grah! But the tone he uses to say it is like so convincing!!

*Huiwei xr fudi and me waiting for bus after band concert. Suddenly, *

fuddy: "Ey, you know about the bio make up on monday"
me: "Huh??"
fuddy: "Monday got bio make up. She say very important one leh"
me: "Really meh?? Since when..."
fuddy: "She gonna go through the tutorial on enzymes"
me: "Enzymes got tutorial meh"
fuddy: "She gonna give out on that day"
me: "Oh. Really.. huhhh...really arh??"

fuddy: "I got another good news for you.

I bluff you one.""

GRAAHHHHH. FUDDY IS EVIL!! I gotta stop being so gullible man. Stop playing tricks on me! >:C second time i got tricked. I ALMOST KNEW IT WAS A TRICK. ALMOST.!!

I shall end with random line.
- i have a wall built up with you trapped behind, but i
Still have images of you flashing through my mind -

I shall write about the dream i had because it was such a perculiar dream. It makes me wonder if dreams are ever not perculiar because all the dreams i have are always so strange.

I only remember bits and pieces of it but i think it is enough to tell the gist of it.

There was a bunch of people, including me, and our purpose on this earth was to be sent to various places and eliminate unwanted creatures that were wrecking havoc. So we were sent to this particular island, which had a certain kind of monster that killed other animals [not for food, there was no mention of why the animals were killed]. So we looked about for the dead animals to gauge where the monsters were. There were pools of blood here and there, and most of the animals were dead crows. I remember staring at one of the bloodied lumps, and it became clear to me that it was a crow that was dead, bloodied, but standing upright. I got a little shock from that, in my dream and announced that the creatures were near because the blood was fresh.

I had this animal with me, it was my pet or something. I reckon it was a spirit because it flickered between being translucent and being opaque. It was a weasel-like sort of creature, but in my dream it was known as a Butam. And though that was not its name i started calling it that in my dream. It's ears were like a rabbit's but stuck together, so it was like fused into one ear, but you can still tell its 2 long rabbit ears, fused in the middle. It was white, with a long body, and a fox's tail. Small, and i could cuddle it, as i did in my dream.

Anyway, the group of us, yielding guns and revolvers went into this room, which had blue light and blue celophane windows, searching for the creatures. Dead animal bodies were littered around the room and there was blood here and there. It was dark-ish. The only thing i remember from here is examining dead animals.

I dont remember if we actually did catch the creatures, but when we left the room, we went out into the open to this desert-like place. And there was this stumpy tree, with no leaves, but it had many nests on it. The nests were like the size of plates and Butam ran towards the nests and looked in. In the nests there were more animals like Butam, but their ears were not fused, and they look like rabbits, but with fox-tails. There was also a nest with a cat and her babies in it. I touched one, and the mother cat ate it. It wasnt gross, the baby just disappeared. Then there was a narrative talking about how some were born with one eye, some were born with fused ears....

I remember that we all went back to the base and then there was announcement of another assignment...

yea. That was my dream. It felt like a movie. Could have been inspired by The Mist.

why. why is time passing again. Why.

I want time to stand still. The moment i let go.

before i am conscious again.

I wish i could be ignorant about this. A nothing that would feel nothing. Accomplished the former. Somehow i havent figured out how to do the next.

And then the stars hang in the sky like they did something wrong but they never did.
There was a rock that made my mind trip.

This is why.

- Cause obviously it's out of my league

And I know I never will be good enough for ... - mcfly - Obviously

Nothing much seems to have changed
since the time when you first came
And strongly took my hand in yours
and softly spoke my name.

Mysterious figure in the crowd
at the carnival you shout
my name and then i turn and see
you reveal your identity

T'was once when i received your care
I was down and you were there
Comfort in your words i found
a guardian angel from nowhere

Yet now i am to avoid your gaze
My eyes try not to see your face
I'd rather choose to live a lie
Than get you trapped here in this maze

What's on your mind im wondering
What is it that you're pondering
it may be worrying, but i know
that jokes are never genuine.

So leave you to your life i will,
Though you linger in my thoughts still
i hope that maybe day by day
the thoughts will slowly fade away.

Keep denying myself
And maybe it will come true
Though its not a truth
It's a lie that will come through
If i lie for long enough
To myself and survive this bluff
Deny.
deny.
Tell myself the truth's a lie
Make the lie a truth, just
deny.

i must write about sunday! since i havent, and since it was such a good day.

we had a class gathering and it was steamboat at lava's house. at first i went to vivo but it was too early so i went to xiu rong's house, wherein i met my new friend, stripey yellow cat[a larger sized bought-in-japan version of small yellow cat that i have]. yes it was sitting on the table innocently when i picked it up after which xiu rong told me that was for me. and then there was this tube of mini m&ms, and it was 3/4 empty. Xiu rong told me she had bought it for me initially but it couldnt fit in the wrapping so she ate it!! she ate it!! :O and she bought meiji milk for me, but realised it was coffee flavoured so she drank it!! yes she did! :S

anyway after that we went to meet everyone else at vivo and i saw one of my ex-classmates there too. got uber cute stufftoy and stamp thingy from kristy and minlu. then huiwei kept boasting about her giant rabbit that she bought although xiu rong insisted that hers was the pirated version of hers[xr's].

when we got to lava's house, i met my other new friends, giant yellow rabbit and giant tofuman. now i have 5 of the lengthy-limbed critters at home! gosh. huiwei didnt know i have a giant green rabbit! but nvm its so uber cute it doesnt matter how many there are. giant tofuman was given by the scholarly group of scholars!

we had steamboat and it was rather messy with food being flung left and right and random times where the cover of the pot comes off and one person-in-charge of each side of the table reaches out and grabs food for people on that side of the table. it was really squashy too with people sitting on half a chair with their legs randomly placed above and below but it was all funny and fun :D

zui qiu and his pet dog are so loving

then we went up to the rooftop and... there was a reaaaaaaaaaaaallllllllllyyyyy nice surprise!! Joyce called huiwei away. i wanted to follow but somehow i didnt. and then huiwei came out carrying a cake!! it was heart-shaped and dark chocolate and hazelnut flavoured!!! my fav flavours!~~ wa, she purposely went to find lehh... and it tasted. AWESOME. it tasted a bit alcohol-ish, but it could be the weird fruits inside [couldnt tell it was rather pitch dark.] then we lighted tealight candles and carried them around yay, coolest birthday ever.

lousy picture of awesome cake

yea went home after that carrying all my new friends :D

my old friends and new friends

we hold stardust in our hands

plus next day got SEVENTEEN kinder buenos man. jaw drop* so shocked.

anyway, thanks thanks thanks to everyone especially huiwei who purposely went to find a cake with BOTH my favourite flavours! for the awesomest birthday ever.

tealight candle '04'

start the day with C:




end the day with :CCCCC


how to have a C: and make it last?

C:

thank you everyone

sent gen off today :C she's gone to australia!! 21/27 of the 2K people turned up, it was like a class gathering :D how nice. Some people are like MONSTROUSLY tall now man... gosh, its seriously. shooting up. And im the shortest among everyone. hooray. lalala.

anyway, hope she has a good future there. farewellfarewell genevieve...

Ok, just returned home from talent time. It was awesome! Very very nice. The guy who came out first, the guest performer was sooo uber good with the jazz guitar. make you feel like a total loser failure. but nvm. After that came the solo singers. The best was sheena of course, her voice is so dam powerful. and she won for that category. then there was this Chester guy, who was the scary guy i taught how to shoot!! I got such a big shock when i saw it was him man... was like totally O_O *jaw drop* "thats the scary guy!!!!" His voice also dam good although he looks like a cartoon character, and he got second.
The bands were ok. Andy's band was the best, the rest were a bit messy at some point. The different instruments didnt seem to be very coherent with each other. And Andy's band won.
The group vocals about the same as solo, just with more people. So nothing much special either.
But watching the whole thing was really really nice. yay. ended up reaching home at around 1130 though :C sadness. Why cant i just teleport home...

White-winged angel shoot your arrow far
Let it fly deep into where the secrets are
Let it strike through the brittle glass, pumping so hard,
Let it strike at the moment when he's caught off-guard.
Let me try, letting go as i watch it soar
Hoping it will hit what it's going for,
Wonder if it'll ever get to make its way in
Why do i always seem to be missing him --

im so glad that when i run.


its fast.

There are monsters out there :'C

time to seal up the box, its already too late but what's done is done, just take the precautions from here. seal it. There will only be scars, endless scars and only they can tell of what's being hidden because they have made the slit and were able to look through the box and see. But as for others, only your imagination can tell. And they will only be plain guessing. the box is sealed. There's nothing more to say. wonder how many out there would wonder, would care?

its time to draw the line.
draw the lines.
draw many lines.
to prevent the secrets from spilling, let something else.

if you dont make the cut, try again.

i watched the mist today. Yay, a horror movie finally. but it was more gory than scary, and it was like the dreamcatcher. but anyway, if you dont wanna get it spoiled, then dont continue reading.

i warned you.

THE MIST based on the novella by STEPHEN KING
alright. david is the main character in this story, he's an artist and he has a son, Billy. The movie started out with him painting the gunslinger, from Stephen King's Dark Tower series. There's a storm and he abandons his painting to go hide in the basement[i think] with his wife and sun. A tree falls through the window and smashes the paintings. [the person in front of me jumped in her seat]

Next morning, the family go outside and they see the bad damage done, stuff smashed and so on. Their boathouse got crushed by a tree, which belongs to the guy next door, who is this black guy. Aparently David and this guy have something against each other because of some law suit they had last time, but i didnt quite catch it. anyway, david just wanted to say something about the tree crushing his boat house. They kinda became friendly with each other for a while and the black guy asked for a drive to town.

So David, that guy and Billy went to town in David's car. They went to this convenience store, called a convenience store for a good reason. There was no power and stuff, lots of people were there trying to stock up. Next thing you know, this guy runs in with blood flowing from his nose saying some Jon Lee guy got taken by the mist. There's a mist catching on at this moment, it tumbles through the air towards the convenience store. They rush to close the doors. This guy insists on not staying put and decides to run to his car. Just as the mist closes in, he gets lost in it and you hear like, his screaming. Then nothing. Then there is like this earthquake. Shake shake. Things fall from the shelves. [it's like trying to make the place look messy and chaotic.] Another woman wants to go home to her children. She asks if any man would accompany a lady home, but no one wants to so she steps out the store and goes through the mist. No screaming here.

They're talkin about switching off the generator or something. I dont know but anyway they have to go to the room at the back to do it, so david goes, and after he switches off the thing, he sees like, the metal blinds door [that thing that shops usually pull down when they close i dunno what its called] and its pulsating, liek there's something pushing it. There's a small slit at the bottom where mist is sneaking in through. David hears a sound. He goes outside to tell some worker people that he heard a sound, but they dont believe him. So they all go in. And then they wanna do something to some vehicle outside so this young chap volunteers. David keeps telling them not to but the stupid young chap asks him to shut the * up [cuz he wants to show off how pro he is.]. So they open the metal thing to let him go out. But mist covers the entire exit. The young chap stares at it. The old guys there laugh about how they dont see any boogie mans [or sth] Next thing they know, tentacles shoot out and cling onto the snotty young chap. They have mouths too so they kinda bite him, and their bites rip like this whole section of his skin off so you have a bloody mess of whatever with the fibres of skin hanging off the tantacles. And it bites again! So another patch of bloody mess there. [I dont know why they couldnt just close the metal door thing] David tries to save him, but in the end he gets taken. [Oh, then they finally press the switch to close the door] The old guys are remorseful but one gets punched in the face by David cuz he kept saying sorry too much.

So they were wondering how to tell the others. They tried telling the black man first but he accused them of trying to make a fool of him. They wanted to show him the evidence [David chopped a chunk of tentacle so there's the evidence there] But he refused to see it. dumass. They try to tell the rest of the people in the store, only a few agree to go see the tentacle. Unfortunately, when that group go in, one guy pokes the tentacle and it contracts and kinda deflates and releases a puddle of muck and then disintegrates. Hooray! There goes the evidence. The black guy carries on hollering about how he aint gonna get fooled. And then there's this woman who keeps preaching about how is this punishment from god.

A bunch of people decide to go out and try to do i dont know what and one of them is the black guy. He doesnt believe there's anything out there anyway so yea he goes out. Another guy gets a rope tied to him while he goes out. So they go out.. walk walk walk.. then suddenly the rope gets pulled by whatever's out there and David gets some bad rope burns. Someone throws him a cloth. They try to pull the guy back but all they get is blood on the rope.. and the lower half of his body.

Whee. then what happened hmmm... They covered the windows with dog food and fertilizers, but they only covered half the windows so its kinda pointless. At night, suddenly there's an attack of giant flies. Then there are these pterodactyl things that fly and try to grab the flies that land on the glass windows of the shop front. When they grab the flies, they kinda hit against the glass so finally, it broke. The flies flew in and one of them bit a girl. She got really swollen and gross around the neck and face. It was like, veiny and lumpy and just grotesque.

Then the pterodactyls entered. This guy who was trying to make a fire-mop got himself caught on fire instead so another problem there. One pterodactyl was taken down by fire while another was shot. twice.

Ok so.. the christian woman was preaching on how the bible said there would be like smoke over the temple or something or other and that they all had to stay inside and face judgement. Meanwhile, David and some other guys wanna go to the pharmacy beside the convenience store [which also has a bathroom btw] to get some meds for the dying burnt guy who wants to shoot himself. So they set off. They see a military guy who is caught in a web and hes apologising and saying its their fault i think. Then that guy explodes into a nest of golden spider-looking bugs that start crawling everywhere. Then there are more giant bugs everywhere that start attacking them so they decide to run. This pro old lady who went along set one on fire.

They return, with nothing i think, anyway, skip to the part where the woman now has a congregation. People who thought she was talking nonsense at first now believe her and they all think that they have to undergo punishment. One of the guys see David and a few other guys going into the room with the metal blinds. They're actually looking for the other military people who were in the store to ask them what this was all about and why the guy had to apologise. but the military people had hanged themselves. Then the guy who followed them dragged out the remaining military guy and started sayin that he was the one who caused this. the military guy admitted to saying that there was a project that the scientists were carrying out and they were trying to find a window to the other portals of the world, but it was not his fault at all. That preacher woman started spouting nonsense about how it is his fault and he is 'pointing the finger!' and they should all kill him. So they did. This man took a knife and stabbed him. Once. Again. Again. and then they carried him and threw him out of the store to be taken by the mist monsters. Humans are really the monsters in this movie, rather than those out there.

David and the more sane people want to escape. But the preacher woman found out. She was waiting for them with a knife and there were more people with knives that were surrounding them and preventing them from leaving. She was saying that they should not go against god's will and that they should be killed! She said she proved herself to be a vassal of god. But one of the sane guys shot her. And the people in the cinema clapped. Shot her in the abdomen and in the forehead. The people with knives dropped them and David and his party ran out the store to his car. Of course on the way there more got taken by huge monsters, some with great pincers. So there were left with 5 of them that made it to the car. David, his son, the old lady, a young lady and an old man. All the variations of people.

They drove and drove and drove. Drove back to David's home where they saw that his wife had been caught in a web through the hole where the window had broken. Then they continued on and there was this giant monster with a tentacle-ly head and uber long legs, like a giant daddy-long-legs that walked past them. It was like the thing in star wars but i dont know what its called. So anyway they drive till there's no more gas. Then they decide to shoot themselves. But there are only 4 bullets, for 5 people. Whoohoo. David shoots everyone but himself. He keeps screaming, and then he goes out the car and calls for the monsters to take him. Buuuuutt instead, a tank comes. The mist clears. Everything is fine now. POOR DAVID. He just killed his own son and stuff and the next second, everything clears up. A truck with people drive past and on it there's the woman who left the store earlier, the one who asked for a man to accompany a lady. So poor david has to live with the guilt forever now or kill himself.

And that's like, the end! Ok, in my summary it just sounds quite stupid but its quite nice still, the movie, its creepy and gory. Maybe you should just go watch it if you wanna know really, the whole thing, cuz i might have left out quite a bit. Another way is, go read the book. But the book ends differently so yea, this is how the movie is like.

its really sad... sometimes when you really want something.. but you cant get it... you can get it but you cant becuz it might seem youre just trying too hard.. so you dont want to try get it but want it to get to you... like that would ever happen.

why does life have to be so wrong for some?

"Ever had the feeling, you thought you're awake but it turns out you're dreaming?"

what a sleepy day it was. On the train back, standing, i think i almost fell asleep. alighted at raffles place instead of city hall [becuz somehow that moment where the train stopped at city hall did not take place in my consciousness]. And then at raffles place i almost took the train towards jurong east :/ instead of towards pasir ris... luckily the train towards pasir ris came first so i turned and looked at it... and saw that i was gonna take the wrong train... zzz


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heart beating so hard
without even knowing it
Shown what was felt inside
without even showing it
Supposed to have stopped but it's
growing it's growing it's
without any thought, its just not gonna stop.
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mini kinder buenos so cute right. TOO BAD CANT EAT LE. SICK. DIE.

Why don’t you smile as much as before
Be the happy girl that you know you are
You still have your friends around you and
You know love still surrounds you,
Can you pick yourself up again?
In life we still have much to gain
Memories, experiences
Overcoming the dangers
Learning different lessons
Together with your friends
Though that which has passed left a scar on your heart
And things don’t seem to fit
If there’s still love somewhere to find
You don’t need that thing to seal it
Please don’t be so sad
Though you feel your loss is bad
Please don’t be so sad...
There’s more to life than that

For... 你自己应该知道啦hor.

C:

song change: evil angel by breaking benjamin

- we're all really messed up now arent we?
so messed up.
sorry for messing up your life. it wont happen again.
oh, is that what's worrying you? -

today for zhang training all our positions were changed and its super weird. i am totally not stable and i told her that but she said to just try so im just gonna try. And after shooting my knuckles had these bumps, like mosquito bites! really look like mosquito bites. Like those kind that you scratch and will become weird ovally bumps, white-er in contrast to the red skin around it. ah but now its gone, now its just red. Anyway i shot rather horribly. And im not sure how to stand also since she keeps pushing the top of my right leg back. I cant really replicate the action unless she pushes me into place. So i dunno, that's probably why i cant shoot properly today.

la-la-la-la. what a demoralising last night, what a demoralising to-day. The only thing good last night is being able to see many many stars from the kitchen window! Whoo! How often does that happen?? Not very often ok. And the only good thing to-day was seeing many many stars in the sky, when it was dark, leaving for school.

shyt. tmr all the subjects i have in one day. even pe. pia -ng.

oh yes! Heng joannah saved me today by treating me and xr ice cream! If not i would have really DIED from hunger after training. Like really. So, THANK YOU JOANNAH.

Im gonna swing myself off the ceiling fan
Out the window to imagination land
Where shadows creep
Hiding wicked things
And flowers grow in sand

Where I’ll walk the path that has no end
Has no end, no it has no end
Crickets on my heel
They skip
Into the ground I blend

Out from the jug flows mush, flows muck
Dragging my feet I feel I’m stuck
Lamas gallop in the
distant sand
Im still on the path that has no end

Withering, I see, they are withering for me
Towards the ground they bend
The flowers in the sand
won’t give
But still, they cannot stand

It’s dark that’s why
Everything will die
But there’ll be no one to cry

In this land its just me
It’s so dark, I cant see
I’ll just walk that path
For eternity.

This popped up after i was telling XR about my plans to swing myself out the window from the ceiling fan, amidst my attempts to do chem.

i still have to take chinese i still have to take chinese i still have to take chinese i still have to take chinese i still have to take chinese i still have to take chinese i still have to take chinese i still have to take chinese i still have to take chinese i still have to take chinese i still have to take chinese i still have to take chinese i still have to take chinese i still have to take chinese i still have to take chinese i still have to take chinese i still have to take chinese i still have to take chinese i still have to take chinese shyt. i suck.


me-pok.

when all else fails, write a poem.

I know its an impossible dream
I never said I had to be with him
Just seeing him smile is enough for me
just seeing him always, forever, happy.

I could be the one aching deep inside
But it doesnt even matter if i have to hide
Just seeing him smile is enough for me
just seeing him always, forever, happy.

One day he'll find the girl that's right for him
One day he'll meet the girl, the one of his dreams
But its enough for me, just to see him smile
enough, even if its just for a while.

Though you think its gonna move me
You're wrong, its not that easy
Just cause you say you wont give up
Just cause you say you miss me

Stop whispering sweet-nothings
I wont fall for flattery
Youre just freakin pissing me off
Cuz you think you own me, that's enough
Got a problem with who i talk to
Even said i lied to you
What the hell is your dam problem, sir?
Go get yourself a counsellor

You sure enjoy spoiling my day
I'm not even sure i can be friends with you
You wouldnt even have treated me that way
If your friendship, love, whatever shyt, was true.

"one will never get tired of looking at the face they love." -ai yori aoi

Me, Huiwei, XR, Jumping in the field! We were facing the front but when we jumped we all turned towards the back. Whee. Taken by ZhuoChun the pro.

A stupid but true poem about talking to XR at 1:01am this morning.

Was talking to you at one-oh-one
Taking to you, wait, im not done
But you took so long to give me a reply
I decided to just end it with a simple bye-bye
You were supposed to help me stop my madness right then
Put my crazy nonsense to a stop, an end
But you were more interested in fixing your web cam
Left with no one to talk to, life's just boring, oh damn.
But its more like, im just afraid to open any convos
The person might just think im a big nuisance, oh nos.

[And also they might be more interested in their web cams]
ok it sounds so dumb.

wow. today was like the most awesome dance party ever. i remember in ip1 we were all so stony and didnt wanna do anything. But today everyone was like crazy!! Especially jeremy. Totally mad! And then our whole class went on stage and started doing weird stuff! We even sat there and played animal concentration and tuki tuki. Yay, our class was so super awesome fun today, great to have a class like that C: yay for our class!

war games was also quite the madness. Jeremy kept attacking me! So i kept attacking him [with water bombs.] The worst was when he suddenly came from the front and just burst the whole packet on me!! And everyone was like jeremy chi dou fu!!! It was so sudden i dont even know what happened. Just dam wet after that.. We decided to bomb each other instead of the ogls, so much more fun! Whee... Then we all stood in a circle, as a class, close together. Then someone stood in the middle and threw the bomb high high high in the air! Then we just see who it landed on. Everyone was staring at us :/ But it was fun.

Today is like the most fun day of all orientation... becuz we were together as a class! yayy

SIAN. today was such a SIAN day. lynna and i were like trying our best to be enthu [but failed.] lynna kept making screamy noises to herself.. Yea, we were split up into other orientation groups.. so my group had me, LYNNA, JEREMY, DUC CHINH, MINLU. Wa. what a wonderful combi man. Jeremy and duc chinh are really inseparable... but they werent around today.

We joined in for the og bonding thing, but after that we ran away and had mass dance with the class [as usual i partnered huiwei the not-great] so much more fun. Jiasheng dance so enthu-ly until he looks mad.

During House session Lynna and I were really serious about learning the cheers! Really lor. can you believe it? Ok...no nvm... anyway, it was fun. Lynna is so full of crap. She's mad.

Basketball after school was a killer... uber tiring. Running around all day. My ankles are so suan. Zzzt. At least we learnt some stuff? Like how to shoot properly... [as you know, we kind of like using the two hands way...] So sleeeepy. Because as usual, the night before i couldnt sleep, again. yea. Like, for a long long time until i think i must have fallen asleep at 4 plus cuz the last time i checked the clock it was 3 + and after that i had a dream of throwing food at someone to catch. Like throwing slices of ham. I dunno, i vaguely remember that, whatever it is about...

ok.. i better fall asleep tonight. Im so sleepy. [wait, i was sleepy yesterday too...]

If you were a zombie
What kind would you be?
A jumping one, a crawling one or both, whoowhee
Would you feed on human brains
And leave on your clothes, the bloodstains
If youre a full-fledged zombie
There would be no pains.

ok that is total crap.
goodbye world.

ended up training on thursday instead. shot 105 shots without stopping [and without realising -_-] my arm is like. suan like shyt [cuz i grip too tightly?] the skin between my thumb and index finger is rotting.

friday cca dayyy, the range was sooo crowded. Teach people until mouth so dry zzzt and most of the time they never listen also -_- at the end of it, taking down the banners! Fuunn... when i pulled the string the whole banner flew down upon us... covered nicole, xr and i in banner, so fun. That was like the most exciting event of the day. Yea. It was that boring. And then i thought i lost my keys!! Turns out they were in the car... so laame...

the end, goodbye farewell lalala.

And so i went to bed at 2300hours yesterday night. Reasonable timing yea? I closed my eyes. I think i was thinking about stuff from bridge to terabithia. And then i decided to check the clock. I hadnt fallen asleep yet since i lay in bed. It was 0110hours. o-k-a-y.... so i continued lying there, and rolling about. Could hear my sis talking on the phone. And then i checked the clock again. I still hadnt fallen asleep, not even for a few seconds. It was 0210hours. Right. So i closed my eyes and tried sleeping again. But i didnt. And the time became 0230h then 0255h then 03 something... and at 042ohours, i still hadnt slept a wink. What in the world was happening? I gave up trying to sleep at 0445h and went to eat breakfast.

Ok, maybe i was thinking about stuff. But even when i wasnt really thinking, but sincerely trying to sleep, i couldnt. It's like i forgot how to sleep. I have no idea why but my ability to sleep seems to be getting worse and worse. Actually for the past few days i have been taking longer and longer to sleep. 1 hour to 2 hours to 3 hours. And now i dont even sleep at all. Wow. Im like becoming a full-fledged zombie.

Anyway orientation was lame and boring. Since it was all talks and stuff, even after school was club talk until 6. Started feeling drowsy at 12pm so the whole day was just a drowsy day... Tomorrow there's duty to teach people from 5-7. Gosh. I better fall asleep tonight or else i dont know how im gonna survive tomorrow. Already now im on the brink of fainting. Why am i still here? Im trying to get into the nj website but its not working... zzz cant check timetable...

oh. its like not even up yet. ok. time to sleep then.. try to anyway.

Dont fret if it wasnt what you thought it would be, but rather just accept that it was meant to be.

War of hearts II

You entered without permission

Dont you know that that's intrusion

Hurry up, give me the reason

'fore i make my own conclusions

Cant you knock before you enter

Pain in growing in the center

Where all of the heartstrings rest

The center of a person's chest