- we're all really messed up now arent we?
so messed up.
sorry for messing up your life. it wont happen again.
oh, is that what's worrying you? -

today for zhang training all our positions were changed and its super weird. i am totally not stable and i told her that but she said to just try so im just gonna try. And after shooting my knuckles had these bumps, like mosquito bites! really look like mosquito bites. Like those kind that you scratch and will become weird ovally bumps, white-er in contrast to the red skin around it. ah but now its gone, now its just red. Anyway i shot rather horribly. And im not sure how to stand also since she keeps pushing the top of my right leg back. I cant really replicate the action unless she pushes me into place. So i dunno, that's probably why i cant shoot properly today.

la-la-la-la. what a demoralising last night, what a demoralising to-day. The only thing good last night is being able to see many many stars from the kitchen window! Whoo! How often does that happen?? Not very often ok. And the only good thing to-day was seeing many many stars in the sky, when it was dark, leaving for school.

shyt. tmr all the subjects i have in one day. even pe. pia -ng.

oh yes! Heng joannah saved me today by treating me and xr ice cream! If not i would have really DIED from hunger after training. Like really. So, THANK YOU JOANNAH.