Random fun thing

The BBC believes most people will have read only 6 of the 100 books listed here. Instructions: Bold those books you’ve read in their entirety, italicize the ones you started but didn’t finish or read an excerpt (or those that you read the kids’ version of).

1 Pride and Prejudice – Jane Austen

2 The Lord of the Rings – JRR Tolkien (i even read the poems lor)

3 Jane Eyre – Charlotte Bronte (fav book when kid, no idea why)

4 Harry Potter series – JK Rowling (never. going. near.)

5 To Kill a Mockingbird – Harper Lee (becuz of school)

6 The Bible (must have read excerpts somewhere along going to christian schools for 6 years?)

8 Nineteen Eighty Four – George Orwell

9 His Dark Materials – Philip Pullman

10 Great Expectations – Charles Dickens (forced.)

11 Little Women – Louisa M Alcott (so long ago i don't even remember what its about)

12 Tess of the D’Urbervilles – Thomas Hardy (reminds me of hound of the baskervilles)

13 Catch 22 – Joseph Heller

14 Complete Works of Shakespeare (I'll go mad before i complete the complete works)

15 Rebecca – Daphne Du Maurier

16 The Hobbit – JRR Tolkien

17 Birdsong – Sebastian Faulks

18 Catcher in the Rye – JD Salinger

19 The Time Traveller’s Wife – Audrey Niffenegger

20 Middlemarch – George Eliot

21 Gone With The Wind – Margaret Mitchell

22 The Great Gatsby – F Scott Fitzgerald

23 Bleak House – Charles Dickens

24 War and Peace – Leo Tolstoy

25 The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy – Douglas Adams

26 Brideshead Revisited – Evelyn Waugh

27 Crime and Punishment – Fyodor Dostoyevsky

28 Grapes of Wrath – John Steinbeck

29 Alice in Wonderland – Lewis Carroll (scarily thick book of the old)

30 The Wind in the Willows – Kenneth Grahame (frigtening frogs and badgers. scene of the lake haunts me)

31 Anna Karenina – Leo Tolstoy

32 David Copperfield – Charles Dickens (thought it was about the magician :X)

33 Chronicles of Narnia – CS Lewis (more childhood stories)

34 Emma – Jane Austen

35 Persuasion – Jane Austen

36 The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe – CS Lewis (thanks to dad's magical childhood reads)

37 The Kite Runner – Khaled Hosseini

38 Captain Corelli’s Mandolin – Louis De Berniere

39 Winnie the Pooh – AA Milne (thanks to niewtums for snitching it from her sch lib which was gonna throw away their old books!! and giving it to me as a birthday present)

41 Animal Farm – George Orwell (forced by school)

42 The Da Vinci Code – Dan Brown (cuz i couldnt watch the movie)

43 One Hundred Years of Solitude – Gabriel Garcia Marquez

44 A Prayer for Owen Meaney – John Irving

45 The Woman in White – Wilkie Collins

46 Anne of Green Gables – LM Montgomery

47 Far From The Madding Crowd – Thomas Hardy

48 The Handmaid’s Tale – Margaret Atwood

49 Lord of the Flies – William Golding

50 Atonement – Ian McEwan (watched movie counted?)

51 Life of Pi – Yann Martel

52 Dune – Frank Herbert

53 Cold Comfort Farm – Stella Gibbons

54 Sense and Sensibility – Jane Austen

55 A Suitable Boy – Vikram Seth

56 The Shadow of the Wind – Carlos Ruiz Zafon

57 A Tale Of Two Cities – Charles Dickens

58 Brave New World – Aldous Huxley

59 The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time – Mark Haddon (awesome)

60 Love In The Time Of Cholera – Gabriel Garcia Marquez

61 Of Mice and Men – John Steinbeck

62 Lolita – Vladimir Nabokov

63 The Secret History – Donna Tartt

64 The Lovely Bones – Alice Sebold (again watched movie counted?)

65 Count of Monte Cristo – Alexandre Dumas

66 On The Road – Jack Kerouac

67 Jude the Obscure – Thomas Hardy

68 Bridget Jones’s Diary – Helen Fielding

69 Midnight’s Children – Salman Rushdie

70 Moby Dick – Herman Melville

71 Oliver Twist – Charles Dickens

72 Dracula – Bram Stoker

73 The Secret Garden – Frances Hodgson Burnett (wow i just mentioned this to honeybun recently)

74 Notes From A Small Island – Bill Bryson (only read notes from an even smaller island... which is more relevant!)

75 Ulysses – James Joyce

76 The Bell Jar – Sylvia Plath

77 Swallows and Amazons – Arthur Ransome

78 Germinal – Emile Zola

79 Vanity Fair – William Makepeace Thackeray

80 Possession – AS Byatt

81 A Christmas Carol – Charles Dickens

82 Cloud Atlas – David Mitchell

83 The Color Purple – Alice Walker

84 The Remains of the Day – Kazuo Ishiguro

85 Madame Bovary – Gustave Flaubert

86 A Fine Balance – Rohinton Mistry

87 Charlotte’s Web – EB White (childhood book)

88 The Five People You Meet In Heaven – Mitch Albom

89 Adventures of Sherlock Holmes – Sir Arthur Conan Doyle (iphone book)

90 The Faraway Tree Collection – Enid Blyton (must have read some of this)

91 Heart of Darkness – Joseph Conrad

92 The Little Prince – Antoine De Saint-Exupery (fav book now)

93 The Wasp Factory – Iain Banks

94 Watership Down – Richard Adams (attracted by bunnies on the cover)

95 A Confederacy of Dunces – John Kennedy Toole

96 A Town Like Alice – Nevil Shute

97 The Three Musketeers – Alexandre Dumas

98 Hamlet – William Shakespeare

99 Charlie and the Chocolate Factory – Roald Dahl (who won't read this??)

100 Les Miserables – Victor Hugo

Yay! I've read 18 of them. A very meaningful number for me. And considering i hate reading!! And started reading late. i guess its not bad? Though most of the people i know would have read like, twice of what i did -.- Many of the books are right in the bookshelf at home and i have glanced at them but never thought of picking them up or even flipping through them otherwise i would have more italics! I'm just not such a big reader :C I'm trying to improve though, because my vocab is sad and minimal... and my general knowledge? Can be concentrated into one pocky stick. And not the giant kind.

The ones in grey are those i think i want to try reading. And cuz they either have very cute thus appealing titles, are books for children, or I can easily find.

Must. Read. More!

yay yay its new years day

New year was grape! I had a great time with the company of i guess the weirdest but funniest and most entertaining bunch of people i know, and needless to say, my hunnybunny.

I met honeybun for lunch before meeting the rest of the gang and we weren't supposed to eat much but ended up eating macs and it was way too filling... ops. I guess that might have contributed just a little to my negative feelings towards the place we ate at later on. But only juuustt a littleee.... because i really don't think that place was any good! Elaborations below.

the cute crockery may be their saving grace...

and the wallpaper...

It was a japanese buffet place, MOMOYA(cute name, i had high hopes), somewhere in Changi, but it was a buffet where you had to order what you wanted, not the take-whatever-you-want on-your-plate kind of buffet (which i prefer) and the ordering went a little weirdly cuz they put serial numbers for the food, but they don't actually know what serial numbers are for what food :/ They require us to read out the names, which i think was quite lame. So nevermind, let's not be too picky shall we?

cute!

i added a fin to it. jonsung poked the eyes lol

So we ordered sashimi. And well the guys seemed to enjoy it but i thought the maguro was terrible compared to kiseki's. Kiseki's maguro sashimi is just absolutely awesome, and i mean because it has a totally homogenous consistency so it just feels nice and fresh and not squishy and weird. Momoya's maguro sashimi and squishy and chewy.. weird. And i had to discard a part of it i couldnt chew. I don't like sashimi precisely because it tastes weird most of the time, only kiseki makes me want to eat it. So i only ate one piece and was done.

look! the wasabi is a bird and wants to fly away.... now that, was not purposely sculpted!

smoku salmon salada

hi im weird.

The tofu, was just WEIRD. The tofu skin was a layer of melted gummybears wrapped around a block of plain old tofu. Not crispy at all though its under the AGEMONO (fried stuffs) section :C And the sauce didnt do nuthin' to help. Sakae's tofu is way 100% absolutely positively better... The zaru soba, for such a long wait (10minutes??), kiseki's one(instant!) beats it hands down... kiseki's dipping sauce tastes nicer too.

the really soft and chewy soft shell crab handroll...

The tempura was probably the only thing i liked and don't have anything negative to say about. (and sadly only have a blurry photo of that i cant be bothered to put up) Oh and the green tea. Everyone else seemed to love what they were eating though! Good for them! So they ate their fill and i was kinda full to begin with so i didn't have to eat much.

kimchi. not bad! started a very entertaining convo lol.

i dont eat chawanmushi so i have no idea if it was nice. but it always looks cute

and so they ate their fill.

I played monopoly deal for the first time! And was greatly confused at the start but finally understood it later on (kept doing stupid moves too but hey I still won 1 round! And summore won from Joe, the Guy Who Kept Winning. yessssss.. i stole his property wahahhahaha). It's a fun game! But it seems to end really fast, like in 5 turns or something. Or maybe it just felt fast cuz it was fun? And we also saw 2 other groups of people playing it! How cool is that.

We had to move to a strategic position to see fireworks when it was nearing 12 so off we went. It was an experience like never before i must say. Since my new year chinatown visits, i've never had such close contact with such a large bulk of the population in a long time and it sure wasnt pleasant. People were irritating, people were irritable, people were pushy, people were pushed, they were noisy, high, people were just doing whatever they wanted to get their way! And there were SO MANY PEOPLE. And we squeezed! (And were squeezed along) And had a train system so we wouldnt lose each other and i gradually felt the air getting thinner and it was getting harder to breathe and oh my god the smell.........

okay, we finally burst into the open, out of the rampaging crowd, a great boost of energy flooded through our veins and we ran! Oh how we ran to escape from all the fury of the world!! okayokay i'll stop. We ran because it was getting close to the time. And so we proceeded on until we reached a spot below a palm tree that did not sway in the wind sadly. It was such a hot night, the air was so saturated from people's breath i think that's why rain could not fall.

So we waited.

Jonsung n EW started doing a countdown in the middle of the silent crowd and it was.. indescribable? And they did it 3 times!! Gosh, they were so high no one could do anything about it. They shouted at the top of their lungs without a care in the world but at the 3rd attempt, the sky burst into lights as they ended the count! Wala! Good timing there!

Here, some lousy photos of fireworks cuz im too short and my camera is sadly, lousy for this...

bwlaaaaghh. that's what it looks like. fire monster puked.

fttpptt. pouf.

And this one looks like...

this.

Going home was the WORST. i almost got killed by a van according to Joe (i don't know what i was doing actually but i didnt feel a single drop of danger as the van zoomed past me 0.1cm away). Squeeeeezing to get into the MRT... Bian tai people staring at you for god knows why and i swear i was literally carried along for 1 second!!! It was the ultimate man. Those (insert what kind of people you would imagine it to be) were SO inconsiderate and kept squeezing and jumping over the fences like they would die if they didnt get to the mrt faster?? I don't understand why they have to do that. come on man. And some retards pushing from the back non-stop until my body is going further than my legs and i'm like oh shyt im gonna lose balance soon but thankfully some shouting helped to slow things down. The poor lady on duty holding the sign was practically voiceless. Her voice was gone. Like pooff! Gone. And yet she still had to yell to keep everyone under control.. oh man poor lady..

Once we got into the mrt station, the coast was clear and we were freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeedd... liberated!!! i couldnt have been more relieved...

We retired to honeybun's house and i have no idea if the others slept but i didnt much and am dead tired now.

My camera, lousy night mode, but flash is even scarier.

I dreamed a dream..

Yesterday I cried out in my sleep! It was quite a creepy cry I must say, would have scared the shyt out of anyone who was awake then, or other light sleepers like me. The cool thing is since I'm such a light sleeper, I wake up whenever I start talking or crying out in my sleep so I always know when it happens, and what exactly it sounded like. Like when you tell other people hey, you were talking in your sleep! They would say really? What did I say! But my response would be I know! I called someone an idiot(yea I did that in my sleep once).

So anyway the cry sounded like a puppy getting whacked or how I imagine a puppy would sound like getting whacked, but it was true fear and desperation I felt in my dream, although the circumstances were not very extreme. It was simply me being upset with honbun for being cold earlier(in the dream) then hiding in the room n being unable to lock myself in, I cried out when he opened the door. Yea. Simple as that. I don't know what I was so fearful of, but it was just the thought of my efforts being in vain! I guess. Cuz I actually had a hard time closing my room door (as in real life, the door slightly does not fit) and he so easily opening it scared me. Somehow.

So that resulted in me waking up at 6:45am, cutting short my troubled sleep. (already couldn't fall asleep and still must wake up halfway -.-) so I decided to go back to sleep! Since it was still early. Little did I know...

I was taking part in a triathlon. I had to run to a swimming pool, swim across it, then cycle back to the starting line. Funny how I managed to do it. Usually in my dreams, my movement is dragged like crazy and I just can't run, I slime my way along. But in this dream I was running and swimming fine(cool!). After the triathlon, I went back to the chalet where all the dunman people were and there were two rooms were everyone was randomly separated into. My hunnybun was there and he said hm, so you didn't put us in the same room. And proceeded to watch tv and ignore me! I felt really sad, I didn't really know what to do. And I just woke up cuz the feeling were overwhelming and turned real.

I dunno why my dreams are so depressing. I'm not even upset or anything in reality. Ok a bit. But nothing to do with the contents of my dream! And I have so many dreams I can write a book about all my dreams and it will be thicker than the lord of the rings.

Colour in the shades of Grey

the parting of the veil inside my mind

reveal to me what memories transcend the sands of time.

I went to run because i felt like running was a good way to throw everything painful away, kind of because its painful trying to run after a long time of not running that you're more bothered by that instead. Along the way i met some bright orange fungi growing on the wooden parts of the makeshift path that would eventually lead to east coast park. They looked really exotic because i didn't expect to see anything brightly coloured in this sad, grey world. And it kinda reflected what exactly i just wrote. The wood was grey, and the fungi was the only colour on it. Colour in the shades of grey. I havent seen any brightly coloured fungi in real life before so it was quite a nice distraction. But i didnt have a camera with me so i didnt take any photos and just plucked one off google images. If they are still there a couple of days later(which i highly doubt since they come and go like fleeting memories), i must have them down on film. Anyway they deserve a little rhyme dedicated to them for being so special:

The Orange Fungi Its Name I Do Not Know

i thought i saw a glimpse of bright

orange huddled in the dark

shadows darting side to side

walking through the lonely park

cautiously did i approach

the orange speckled dots on wood

wonder crept across my face

these discs were not from outer space

they were nothing more than those

things you won't let near your nose

not a plant nor animal

rulers only in their world

and yet so strongly they held me

a fatal curiousity

i couldnt take my eyes away

as night came and engulfed the day

so lost was i in thought and awe

the light of day i never saw.

okayokay towards the end it just becomes nonsensical. heck care.

Right at this moment.

The loneliest moment of my life?

Okay I decided not to be so vengeful towards life. Yeayea my mood changes super fast.

On a lighter note, last night I dreamt I got married! It's one of the more interesting dreams I've bothered to remember recently (yea can choose whether to rmbr or not cool right) since my brain has been stale and not doing much freeflow. Anyway, I dreamt I was getting married to none other than my hunnybunny of course, otherwise it would be outrageous. It took place in one of the dunman classrooms, bigger than actual of course cuz dreams pull things out of proportion. And at the start I was running around looking for a dhs uniform?? I dunno why. But the dhs girls were there and discussing stuff like whether to wear sports shoes etc. I rmbr running through long long corridors that had wooden railings, nothing like dhs actually but that's just where my brain stated it to be. I was just looking for any spare uniform. No way am I getting married in dunman uniform in real life??

When I managed to find something to wear, I met back with the dhs girls and we went outside of school to walk around randomly? I forgot what happened here.

Anyway the procession itself was just like a church wedding, marching down an aisle with people on both sides. And it was dunman and nj people. I think the whole of 2K was there cuz there were specific faces I saw. And the walls were pinkish beige and there were flower petals falling from the ceiling. And everyone was clapping.

It was all just like a really happy affair and I woke up towards the end but just went back to sleep to continue the dream and it did continue, but those parts I don't remember anymore. I only clearly remember the scene where everyone was clapping.

In reality I don't think I will have a pink wedding.. Certainly won't be holding the actual procession at dhs. Probably will invite most ppl I saw in the dream, will not wear dhs or nj unifom or whatever school uniform as a wedding gown of course!! It's just not something to be worn on such a special day, when you used to wear it everyday and probably treat it like shyt too. There won't be pink walls but the flower petals sound nice...

My brain is imploding and I was supposed to go sleep several hours ago but stupid module bidding has ruined my life forever and ever. and will continue to do so until i get out of here!!! this evil place!!! its ruining my life!! but also crucial to it!! why is life so contradicting??

Bid points are soaring sky high and my allocated modules timetable sucks and clashes with everything under the sun. I HATE BIDDING. it's frustrating. grrr.

i need a pet bunny now.

See? If i had this in front of me, i wouldnt be half as pissed off.

yay! outing today with huiwei and xiurong was fun! so happy to be able to see them again after such a long time. it's been months or something. huiwei is now on the quest to becoming invisible and xiurong is advancing in technology as usual.

i must remember to take measurements later based on huiwei's documentary.

I think i spent too much money. But i couldn't care less cuz i had a good day.

Sadly im back home, facing my com screen again and soon to be looking through modules AGAIN. i cant stand it, why is it so marfan.

Bon voyage or non?

Stay tuned to find out!

Sleeplessness is Killing me

WHY.

WHY is the hot water not hot water?

WHHY.

On this cold post-christmas night, might i not have a cup of warm milo to tide me through?

How far deeper am i falling into this sleepless insanity?

Tribute to Christmas

Christmas bells and candy bars

baubles, angels, shiny stars

singing, laughing, ripping wrapping,

smell of turkey, children clapping,

glitter, sparkles, snowflakes, lights

shimmer, glaze and pretty sights

paper, metal, glass or plastic

music, magic, so fantastic,

Christmas cheer is in the air,

Confetti flying everywhere

everyone is having fun

while i am having none.

Actually the last two lines are just cuz they rhyme.

I just finished watching survivor Nicaragua and I'm super happy cuz a non-villanous person won! I'm super hungry now.

I haven't been making any clay stuff lately cuz I haven't got any inspiration to run on and planning modules and timetable is such a torture, everytime i'm done with it I feel like I've done a truckload of work and just wanna slack the rest of the time away. Which is what i'm doing now. Slacking~

Pet society had a silly glitch, they put the sale item as 6 coins instead of 600, which they corrected it to later, so I bought like a million of them and resold it and earned like 100k. Yay. Too bad they realised their mistake.

Christmas was uneventful for me. I'm only writing cuz I slept so much today i dunno when I'll ever be able to sleep again. I slept 5 hours in th afternoon, had a bad dream and woke up.

And I'm so hungry.

and my counter doesnt work anymore! have to put a new one and start from last i remembered what i saw which was a really long time ago...

Ughyggygh!! I can't sleep! It's 3am and I'm still not sleeping, I'm really turning into a zombie. Anyway I just decided to write a post cuz I dunno what else to do at this unearthly hour. It seems that recently i only write when I have a sudden burst of anger or inspiration otherwise this place is pretty much dead. I wonder who actually still reads this. Lol.

Whatever it's still fun so I shall continue writing.

I wish I could switch off my brain at certain times, especially when I'm left to my own thoughts, they really start running all over the place and spreading like baked cherries, and then sometimes there are angry thoughts about some idiot and I get so pissed off just thinking about stupid incidents and stupid me for letting them go on for such a long time and stupid me for letting the best things pass me by and taking all the pain and horror in between. It's over now but I still get haunted by incidents that piss me off or are really saddening. At these times I wish i could switch off and be done with it! Like now! Dude I wanna sleep but my mind is running and running and the other mind is thinking of something else at the same time! Yea I think my left and right brain think different things cuz I can feel thoughts on the left and thoughts on the right and it's so weird you can FEEL thinking. I don't do double thinking so well these days cuz I don't use my brain much.

Anyway I just wanna switch off and go sleep but here I am cuz my brain is overflowing I'm pouring out some crap here with no punctuations even. Okay there's one. Argg. Stop laming around go sleeeeepp!!

Bedok point is open yay! Going to explore tomorrow whee!

I CANT STAND IT!!! my house is worse than those on renovaid and NOBODY is going to help us!!! ARGGGHHH i cant even breathe in this cave. it's a dungeon. Theres an OVEN in the living room!!! ARGHGHGHAGHHH. MY ROOM HAS NO MORE WINDOW. the boxes are piled SKY HIGH and KISSING THE CEILING!! The air coming into my room comes through a hole i can measure with a ruler.

I wish i could just throw everything away and burn it in a huge bonfire and everyone will start all over.

I made a new blog for my miniatures. Yay. yesyes exams were over a long long time ago! actually just over a week ago. BUT IT FEELS LIKE ITS BEEN SO LOONGGG.. and ive been doing what ive been wanting to do all the time!!

YES. Make clay stuff! And ive been making them like crazy but only a tiny fraction of a corner of a crease of a scrap of a slip of abandoned clay is worthwhile showcasing. Because i still have a looongg loonnggg way to go to going somewhere with this. BUT i will not give in! rahahahaa i have so much time to spare now i must get something done!!

First post presents... TEMPURA!! yea yea yea after eating it at kiseki where it was so awesomely good i just had to make tiny versions of them. Now i can stare at them for a long time and reminisce and imagine dipping them in sauce.. and savouring the crispyness and eating even the tails.. and..

HUNGRY ALREADY?? okay la. my spinglish doesnt make it tempting enough. but go see it anyway? pleeeeeeeeeeeease.

entice you with kiseki food with cheesy fuzzy border.

Tempura did not take centre stage in the photos but it is really tasty!

ok la up to you.
http://mini-munchies.blogspot.com/ <---- go here see~

Yea im supposed to be going to sleep soon but i'm not really sleepy and im quite hyped up about studying geog now so i won't sleep just yet!

And i just feel like writing this cuz i havent for a long time and its always annoying cuz the whole post will run through my head, everything i want to say and all, while im not at the com and by the time i get to the com, i dont bother with it anymore and anyway most of the stuff i wanted to say fades away.

It always works like that somehow. I always want to do the thing that i cant do at the moment the most and then when i can do it i'm barely into it. Okay maybe not this time, since i really got down to typing im doing it properly.

But its the exam period and what;s the number one thing i wanna do? (other than seeing honeybun which goes without saying so doesnt count)

MAKE CLAY STUFF.

i know i know. i actually do have chances to do it but when i sit down with the bitlets and scraps laid all around me and my quivering rusty penknife in my hand, i dont know what to do. It's like all my inspiration flies away in a wink of a skink.

But now im really hyped up about it! I think about it all dayyy. In between reading about monsoons and wind patterns and chemical reactions and mushrooms. I keep thinking about whats the next thing im gonna try ONCE THE EXAMS ARE OVER. And eveerything is spoilt by that reminder, ONCE THE EXAMS ARE OVER. once the exams are over, will i still have the same desire?

THESE EXAMS BETTER BE OVER FAST. whether im ready or not. Im ready for it to be over.
NOW!

今日はいそがしいですね！
Chemistry はあまりおもしくないです。
Chemistryがきらいです。
どうしてChemistryおべんきょうしたしか。
わかりません。

今私はChemistryのレクチャがあります。
いろいろのreactionおならいますから、むずかしいです。
わたしはわかりません。

I HATE ANTS.

DOES THEIR POPULATION REALLY NEEEEEEED TO BE THAAAT HUGE???

come on! keystone species or otherwise! there's just TOO MANY of them!!

i need to get an anteater.

I had a series of dreams last night

1. I was brought to a haunted house where my sister was and she was normal at first but gradually became possessed. There was a part where the person who brought me here was trying to make me go into the kitchen but somehow I knew the kitchen had all the spirits so I acted normal trying to divert the course of action to another location. Then I looked into the bedroom and saw my sis sitting on the bed, her back facing me. She was holding an umbrella and her hair was tied in two long flowing ponytails and her hair was black and she was rocking back and forth. I was so upset I jumped onto her and yelled and screamed at the spirits to let her go but then I think I died cuz I woke up.

2. I had to submit something to the lab and there were two ways in but I didn't wanna take the lift for some reason I cannot fathom. So I entered by the door on the 4th story but the place for submission was on the 1st. I had to cross over a lot of things scattered on the floor and there were two lab ppl there telling me where to go. When I had to go downstairs they said there wasn't a stair, I had to go down through a hole in the ground. I didn't think it a problem until I was down the hole and there wasn't a ladder. There was a cloth that I had to pull ina certain way to support my going down. I suceeded initially but then I slipped and there was a long way to falling and I fell, and gasped as I woke up.

3. There was a civilization of strange creatures that were like gremlins but there were also normal animals like beavers and they were part of a game my brother played but I only found that out later in the dream. I was watching them live. They were having a power struggle, the evil guy seemed to be winning. A gremlin like creature was somehow bound to each leader and if the leader wouldn't let them
go they were bound forever. This particular gremlin was bound to an evil leader and he was trying to escape, but failed and was facin his doom. The other gremlins tried to help but they didn't succeed either because the evil was too much for them to bear. Then I saw a flashback scene where the gremlin was agreeing to be bound with the evil leader because he lost faith in the good one and thus this was all really his fault and no one could really save him. It ended with my brother seeing the creatures and exclaiming hey it's Torr! Which was apparently the name of the game. And I saw a poster of it and there was White powdery stuff which could be smudged about to change the setting of the picture which was the Torr characters at the bottom under a deep blue cloudless sky. I smudged the White powder into clouds that spelt 'hello' and hoped my brother would notice.

4. There was a house warming at a huge White house but i don't know who's house it was. I didn't stay there very long becuase I went for dinner with Lyrad n Js and his sister whom Ive never even met in real life and it was at a restaurant with orange lights and we sat at a round table in a corner and we ate too much and js's sister wanted to take a photo but only with me and not the guys and she was very happy with the photo, she gave me a high five. I woke up with a stomachache. From something I ate in a dream. How weird is that? And the stomachache faded away by itsel without me doing anything.

5. Somewhere in one of my dreams I ate a
lot of pizza but I don't rememer which dream
it was though I think it was the Torr one.

And that sums up my night of 29th October, or otherwise my morning of the 30th. The first dream woke me at 4+am. The first two dreams should be reversed for the order to be correct.

Im swallowing back the lump in my throat
really trying not to feel anything
counter it by deeply breathing
breathing... And breathing...
But still the lights still keep on dimming
the ceiling is a lake above me
quivering... And quivering
In my eyes there's something brimming...
The scale is clearly tipping...
There's never really a balance
when there's too much feeling...

Every time i use my tongue to touch the central incisors on the lower half of my jaw i feel like a rodent.

do you feel that way too?

こんばんは！

きのういそがしいですから、すこしねました。それはたいへんでした。
今日の午後よくねました！クラスへいきませんでした。
わるいですね。

しかし、そのだいじょうぶ。

あしたがんばって！

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my first attempt at a japanese blog post to practice my jap. unfortunately its so bad i cant express much other than the general idea of too much homework, no time, no sleep.

heres a translation:
Good evening!

I was busy yesterday so i slept little. it was tiring.
this afternoon i slept a lot! I didnt go for a class.
bad aint it.

but its okay.

better luck tmr!

Yea thats the end. i bet there are some inaccuracies here and there but nvm. when i learn more i will know haha. As for now i can only manage this primary school sounding talk! Thou shalt work hard!!

This was on the trees outside my house today! And my house meaning in a HDB estate, seen from the 8th floor, not some cool jungle private housing kind of house. It's a white bellied sea eagle juvenile! Identified by my dad of course, no way i would know just by looking at it fly past me. It just flew past our window and landed on a tree, so it was about the size of the nail on your little finger and my dad said, eh! theres a white bellied sea eagle outside! its not supposed to be here but its there! And he went to grab the binoculars and i was thinking, how in the world do you even see what bird it is. so we looked at it through the binoculars and it was coool. It was beeeg. You know, small in a far away sense but big in a, ah, you know what i mean. An eagle! On an HDB tree! And he said its a juvenile, well but, it looks grown up to me.

But the grown up one looks like this:

Fit and Feisty. So clearly theres a BEEG diff. And it explains the name anw. An inexperienced numbthumb like me wouldnt know.

Sadly we dont have any pro cameras :C so we couldnt take a picture of it... Arg. I really want a pro camera now. Miss capturing all the good stuff.

A Story of a little girl
Lonely in her own dark world
Only shadows she can see
Nothing here is ever real
Everything just lies still.

Memories just become dreams
nothing's ever as it seems...

Halloween at Night Safari (again!) 2010

Yes! Night safari halloween again! This year it was chinese horror theme or sth cuz there were chinese character-ed signs and more chinese ghosts than last last year. And there was a GUI HOUSE. what the lame name man! It was literally written as that on the signboard. but it looked quite funky. There wasnt a gui house the last time i went though and i expected it to be super scary so i was super frightened to go in! But i did anyway because honey bunches was there and we went in a group of 3 with an indian guy who was very enthu. First there was this creepy woman who FOLLOWED US and STEPPED ON MY SHOE! and freaked me out of course. Thank goodness i didnt see her face or i might have died right there and then. According to honey bunches the make up was really scary. The indian guy made sound effects everytime he whipped open the curtains to the next room! But it seemed like nothing jumped out at us. I think. Not sure cuz i wasnt really looking hah. There was a guy cleaning blood off the floor also but he didnt jump at us either. And in the room of mummies i raelly thought someone was gonna jump out! But no one did. So the whole time i was just scaring myself and squealing to feel better. It really does make you feel better! Oh! But a guy did pop out of the wall saying "want some companyyy?~?~?!~" in a creepy growl and shocked us all.lol.

gui house concluded very fast and it was on to tram! Yay the tram was quite awesome. the aminals were really closeee. And the stag! Huge!~ and the hippos! gargantuan! and the buffalos! really dam big la. See on tv never look that big. The scary portion of the tram wasnt very scary! not as scary as the last time with the 'hell' theme where people were being tortured on stakes and stuff. The scaring people didnt touch us like 2 years ago and didnt climb onto the tram like they did last time! So it wasnt so hard on the heart.

And the forest giants trail was quite terrifying for me. -.- stupid little girl popped out from the bushes with a sad ghost wail and i almost died and collided with some zoo helper guy. And whats his name carrying 2 buckets of whatsit made me almost slip down a slippery bridge cuz he was approaching all of a sudden -.- and i saw corpse bride! that was cool. oh. but i don't remember seeing any animals cept for those in the glass enclosures.

after the trail we went to watch the creatures of the night show and that was pretty cool too. a wolf! and it howled! how awesome is that. the rest were quite typical look how smart this animal is performances but the cute pakistan american kid volunteer was quite unforgettable with his cool true blue american accent "i just knew it!" which 5-7 year old singaporean kid says that?

night safari has mee goreng for $15 man! entrance fee $40 not enough to make you cough blood arh! sugarcane $8. omg!

anyway after that was midnight macs and sweet sweet sleep~

There's just too much in this strange world
that i don't understand as nothin but a girl
who wonders what there is to believe
and sometimes wonders why do i live?

there're so many places i havent seen
and even more places i've been in my dreams
sometimes im so lost i don't know what's real
sometimes in my dreams, i can even feel

some people look like they love their life
and some people just cant stand their wife
some people tell you don't trust a soul
and you'll never understand even till you grow old

when it comes the time to wither into ash
there won't be time to know truth from trash
so i'd rather just believe what i feel, what i see
and through that i know

you're what's real to me.