look there are 4, so zhun.

Ants.

Ants have become a part of my life. They eat with me, do homework with me, read books with me, go to school with me, use the com with me, even crawl up and down the bathroom walls [nto with me this time though]. But ants are not my friends. NO.

I hate it when they drown themselves in the water jug or in a bowl of soup, were they hypnotized by the pied piper or something? Or have they lost their queen and become so aimless in life that they have to take their own?

even if i see them everywhere
even if they're crawling right through my hair

I dont care what, my view still stands

Ants, ants, ants are not my friends!

it's been sometime now. [the last thing i wrote was on 19th july and was the 219th post. 19 19!] i shall write something. Like for example my dream, again!

Again, i dont remember what the dream was about, only scenes in the dream. So i remember i needed to get to somewhere which was the 50th storey of a building, to save someone. But there were only 2 lifts, one went straight to the 50th storey, the other went straight to the 100th storey. I didnt know that at first, but i was rushing for time, so i just went into the lift that opened first. There was a girl in it and i saw the buttons on the lift and there was only 1 and 100. So i exclaimed this lift goes all the way to 100?? And the girl said, yes it does and laughed shrilly. The lift shot up and i was beginning to feel that feet on air feeling and i foresaw that i was gonna get freaked out by the time the lift reached the 100 storey. [It's like sitting in a cable car, its one of those kind of lifts that protrude out and have transparent windows, not hdb flat lift. And yea i have a fear of cable cars, usually sit on the floor when i ride one.] I dont remember if i ever made it up.

But i know the next dream was like, we went to thailand. We, being me, xiu rong, huiwei [i think there were others but i dont rmbr]. And i wanted to go to the toilet and so did they, so we were all searching for a toilet but the place was so obscure that the nearest toilet was at a place that we passed by earlier that looked quite run down and stuff, dark blue tiles that looked more like blue algae than blue paint. Actually there was a toilet where we were, but that toilet had no walls between the cubicle -.- So we went to the one with the dark blue tiles, which ALSO had no walls between the cubicles. But it had curtains instead! So it was 20cents to get in [though it should have been in baht] And at first i gave a 10c but it was wrong so i gave a 20c then the man asked me if i had one LARGE 50c coin, and it was really large, like, there was actually an image of it like the size of a pizza. I had one, for some reason, so i gave that instead. In return I got my house key, a 20c coin and a tiny silver fake sword. I dont know what that combi of things mean. So i went into the toilet. AND for some horrendous reason unspoken, i dropped my stuff into the dam toilet bowl! Meaning that i forgot i was ever holding them, so i dropped them into the toilet bowl some way or another. I looked into the dark blue ceramic toilet bowl and could see each of the items. I was just about to summon my greatest courage to pick them out when the toilet bowl became a some sort of treasure box instead. It was full of fake guns, like those decorative ones you place around the house, with designs on them. There was even one made of a thin sheet of metal, cut out into the shape of a long rifle, and with flowery patterns cut into its body, so it looked like a cake cutter. At this point i was already about to wake up. And i did, cuz i had to go for piano. And i DID have to go to the toilet too..

Ah, so those were my dreams for this morning.

As for any epic occurances in the week, well there was ONE. And the whole world knows about it and saw it but i must still write about it since they only saw it and didnt feel it.

Well, we had a house session on wednesday, and at first we were all quite skeptic and unenthu about it cuz well, its a house session. It started off with boring cheering, with a cheer that had no rhythm or rhyme whatsoever. But later on we were made to go to the field and make the letters of AERIUS. 04 did the letter U and it was TINY at first cuz some guys ran away to play bball. We got them fetched back and our U became more reasonable. Then chiansiang, feeling quite inadequate commented quite loudly that the class beside us, their S dam big leh. LOL. Me and huiwei burst out laughing man... he didnt even realise the implication of the way he said it until then. haha. Then he tried to correct it but failed. It just sounded like, well, what it sounded like no matter how he said it. lol. Anyway this part of the house session was quite cool since we never had anything like it before.

After that there was inter class capt's ball. SO, at first we had no class to play with! So we were monkey-ing around on our own, until the OGLs fetched a class to play with us. And we took a glance. WA!! ALL GUYS!!?? And one LARGE canoeist to boot. So we were like, OMG. And started acting dam enthu [about losing] and having great class spirit. We thought we were gonna die, maybe thats why we were being so enthu, you know, treasure the last moments of your life. BUT THEN, the guys from that class s01, which was my og group, were actually being quite slack cuz they UNDERESTIMATED US wahahaha. So they started off quite slack, but slowly as the game moved on, daniel started spreading his wings and propelling himself like 5feet off the ground, and chiansiang ran and slid about until the friction was going to melt the soles of his shoes, and our class was everywhere like ants on a battlefield and those guys were like, they're everywhere!

Being everywhere all the time, there must be moments when one accidentally overlaps the coordinates that the other is standing in. SO. Guy from other class has the ball. Guy from another class is going to receive it. Ball leaves Guy's hand. I run to intercept, daniel runs to intercept [from the entirely opposite direction]. I doubt we ever saw each other [i never saw him coming] I have no idea where the ball went, becuz i had a HEAD ON COLLISION with daniel!! We both collapsed to the floor under the force of the collision, and my head was totally ringing and i was seeing the stars, the sun and the moon. He hit the left side of my head and like a pendulum thingy the pain shot over to the right side, so my whole head was having a headache. As for daniel, i hit him in the chin [lol hit chinh's chin.] So he was saying that he got the hairpin shape on his chin. After i got hit and thrown to the floor, i jumped up and was like DANIEL ITS YOU!!! raaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhh and there was a moment of confusion and then the game continued on. The headache went away after a while. And we also won the captain's ball game! Yay, got free food.

Anyway its not the first time something like that has happened to me. The first time was during Dunman Orientation, where there was captain's ball too. I was running to intercept, and so was Anthony, in the exact opposite direction. Yea so we collided, and Anthony, being made of stone, didnt even budge, but i was the one thrown to the floor -.- The effect was generally the same.

I shall not intercept in such a manner anymore. > <

ok this has been long enough so i shall end here! byebye.

I shall first write about my dreamS before i do other stuff.

The first dream i cant remember at all what it was about, only who was involved, so i shall not talk about it.

The second and third dream, however, is slightly clearer, though not that clear either. So in my second dream, i dreamt that i was watching The Dark Knight [yet i havent even watched it] and it was taking place in this castle. On the inside it had orangey light but on the outside it was dark with creatures flying about and stuff. So the characters, there were quite many: there was a woman vampire slayer, a woman shapeshifter, wizard, little boy with magic powers, random kindly girl, and a boy who looked like Sora. Some of them were princes of random imaginary lands. So i just kept dreaming them returning from their duties nightly, covered in blood and stuff and talking about who they had slain and how it went, like normal people.

Then i think in the middle i was interrupted by my own alarm clock. The dream switched into like a final fantasy dream. The boy really was Sora [even if Sora is not exactly from final fantasy], and the little boy was a little Sora. The other characters were like acting in a show, there was this pale woman with purple hair and slitty eyes who was supposed to act throwing a shoe out of the window. She really did drop the shoe and then had to climb out of the window to pick it back. Then i forgot what happened, but little Sora did something wrong and Big Sora refused to bother about little Sora, which made little Sora immensely sad. Little Sora went to look in all the other rooms to look for other people but everyone was sleeping. So little Sora went to the kitchen window and started watching the kids playing in the sand downstairs. The parent was being awed at his kid's ability to draw a new final fantasy weapon in the sand, which was a shoe with chains here and there. Little Sora just watched. Then another character, the kindly girl, came into the kitchen and tried talking to little Sora, but little Sora kept bursting into tears and crying and crying [and man i could feel his pain too while having the dream] because Big Sora wouldnt talk to him and maybe wouldnt ever see him again. After everyone had come down to dinner, Big Sora still didnt come down. Little Sora, sad and dejected, i suspect planned to disappear somewhere.

But i was too awake at this time to let the dream continue smoothly by itself so thats the end.

Please dont starve your kids.

Cucumber and bones for dinner!!??

So dizzy with hunger to be greeted by that is the worst.

Feel like we're living in poverty.

oh the horror.

so, i had this dream. In the dream, i decided to watch the end of evangelion, since xiu rong kept asking me to watch it. So i turned on the tv. There it was showing. But not quite it. :X



The blond girl was walking through a yellow walled hospital. Everyone was just doing their own stuff, like watching tv, wheeling stuff around etc. Joannah was there to but i forgot what she said to the girl. Suddenly, there was a werewolf, and it tore through the hallway and ripped everyone apart so there was the camera on the jaws of the werewolf swiping side to side with dismembered arms and legs in its jaws.

The girl ran away, out of the hospital, into the streets. There were like people who were like diseased, and covered in blood and moaning in pain crawling around. Newspapers creeped along the ground and paper flew about randomly in the wind. There was like a disease breakout. Everyone was dying. But the girl hadnt got it yet. There was this guy who made it out too, so they decided to escape together. They went into a safehouse, where they found this child. Creepy child with pale skin and black hair that was straight and eyes that were blank. They took her along, and went to see the council.



So turns out this girl and the guy were supposed to be trying to eradicate the city of the disease and the monsters. So they were telling the council fellow that chocolate will do the job.



"Chocolate will make it right." the girl said.

"Good plan." council guy said.



But somehow. actually chocolates will make the monsters more excited and crazy.



At this point in the show, i looked at my sis who was watching the show with me and said, "this is such a gross show." I looked at the clock and thought to myself. Ok i have training at 630pm.



So i continued watching the show. The girl, the guy and the creepy child went out of the council house and they met a woman. She had a baby with her and it was wrapped in a cloak. The woman needed to take two carriages to get to the safehouse. But the carriages were filled with monsters and werewolves and people were getting ripped up inside. So the guy told the woman to take the cloak and bring the child in. The woman was reluctant at first but in the end she put on the cloak and carried the child into the carriage. When she came out the first time, the child was gone, she was still alive. So the guy said, "good plan?"



But when she went into the second carriage, she came out and her face turned to the camera and her eyes were wide in shock and fear and her face was covered in blood and she looked so traumatised. The skin on her left arm was coming off and in her madness, she ripped it off herself. It came off in one whole piece. She went mad and chased after the blond girl. Like, she growled like a werewolf and became one, and pounded after the girl.



The blond girl ran back to the hospital, where everything had become dead and papers just flew around. She ran until the end of the hospital where there was like this operation room and there was a monster standing in front of the door. The blond girl ducked, and the woman who became a werewolf jumped over the girl and crashed into the glass panes of the operation room. Another werewolf flew out of the monster and chased after the blond girl. It caught her and ripped her apart.



Yea she died. And the creepy child got taken too. No idea what happened to the guy.



The show ended and i went to sleep and woke up at 930++ And i was like SHYT!! I MISSED TRAINING!! and went to my mom and say why you nvr wake me up for training??



Then i wake up for real...



Yea, so that was my dream :/ So vivid.










This is a slipshod drawing of the main characters in my dream. Didnt bother to colour the clothes also wahaha.

Yea, creepy kid, blond girl and guy.

im so so so so so so so so so uber uber uber uber sleepy right now...

Had a wrong number call from someone just now. Weird person, called wrongly then still call again.

This is how it went:

Stranger: Hello!!

Me: Huh.

stranger: you are ariel[cant hear properly who she asking for also] right??

Me: No.

stranger: DUN LIE LA!! I KNOW YOURE AVERIL

Me: Uh..

stranger: YOU KNOW THERE WAS THIS GUY CALLED EDWIN...

Me: Uh UH uh, i think you got the wrong number..

Stranger: oh. shyt.

*stranger hangs up*

???? Crazy, tell you wrong person liao dont believe -.- Should have just let her continue talking, she sounded so excited.

My head so heavy.. i really wanna sleep right now...

The only marks i know are my lit marks. And i havent got any papers back at all! Deprived me. Mrs Poon wont let kt take my chem paper -_- maybe i got a single digit mark. oh well 90% failed, maybe i shouldnt feel so bad. But oh i do. kev pls save me..

What if i get some crappy paper back on tues? Hope it wont make me emo on wednesday... Oh dont tell me they are giving out lit section B paper on wednesday -_- wont get my paper again then...

Left hand getting more and more painful. But the pain feels like part of the action :/ Important pain. I havent posted about shooting for a long time here.

I keep shooting nice grouping[97-99] and lousy single shots[96- 1 8, 2 9s]. Keep shooting 8. But they were due to me trying to twist my body, which is bad for me.

Tmr will be a scary start to the day. O why doth this task befall unto me?

Hope zhang doesnt do anything funny to me. And even if she does, i shall ignore it [as long as its not that important.]

This post is utterly random. I feel a lack of things to say. I feel an emptiness <-- this is such an oxymoron. How do you even feel emptiness if its empty. But honestly i dont give a lamb...

Oh well, after training i went home today, and did bio and did math and it was 1115. Havent done homework for sometime now. Just doing all the stuff that's due. I feel sleepy everyday but dont really want to end the day so soon. But then again, what am i prolonging each day for... for worthless crap like this? Really whats the point..

the nights are pretty quiet.

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yay! no more common tests for meee...

anyway since i have barred myself from the com for a week, i shall write about how the week went.

On sunday, to start off, my nose was running like a cheetah [oh wait this is kinda a wrong comparison since cheetah's lack stamina but my nose sure ran like a marathon runner]. Just kept running and running the whole day non stop. I used up sooo much tissue. Lazy to keep walking to the dustbin to throw tissue away so i just had a plastic bag beside me and it was fulll of tissue. This was the only day in the whole holiday i studied more than 4 hours [cuz on other days i kept falling asleep], since the studying was just annotating of Great Expectations and i had to finish it or be doomed.

Monday however, my nose didnt run anymore. Went for KI paper, which was pretty slack. My handwriting was so NICE and BIG for section A but small and crappy for section C cuz i forgot to write bigger to be able to gauge how many words to write. And also because i wasnt sure what to write... supposed to assess the argument, but didnt have many points to say about it.

Tuesday was chem and lit. Chem, a total disaster. A sure fail. Even heard this guy say wa study like never study like that, sure fail lo. But it wasnt supposed to be hard, i just really suck at chem... probably getting 30 or so out of 100.

Lit was alright. I liked the poem. About a jaguar. Didnt bother reading the other poem. My handwriting for lit was soooo spaced out it was like one-finger spacing between the letters man. Because during one of the lectures it was mentioned that average handwriting is 8 words per line, so i tried doing that but it still ended up around 12 words a line. M y w o r d s l o o k e d l i k e t h i s. Really! Wrote around 1200 worth of crapping for each.

Mathh on wednesdayyyy.. my first 3 hour paper of the common test. Ahhh the paper wasnt hard.. i made some stupid careless mistakes.. that cost A LOT of marks!! eek. I cant live up to those GREAT EXPECTATIONS!! > <>

Anyway i celebrated the end of my exam with a Burger King Milo.

Yay. What a not so epic week. But i had epic dreams. I forgot the actual content but my dream this morning was sweeny todd-esque. It had a guy that looked like johnny depp in it, with the eye shadow and mascara and pale complexion and black skinny clothings get up kind. Also had a girl character, similar, but with rags and layers of plaid and cloth with picha-ded[this is not a real word] ends with threads handing down and coarse and common boots[too much lit]. Messy hair. They really looked like characters from a crooked fairy tale. Then there was a part where i dreamt i had a hamster. And since in real life i didnt feed no hamster, in my dream i was like SHYT! I DIDNT FEED THE HAMSTER! so i went and took it out. There were two of them, but one hamster had a tail like a mouse.. i took it to the kitchen sink at home, to bathe it!! Rubbed green apple soap on its back.. remember seeing it almost fall into the sea [though there was no sea] But it slowly stiffened and died.. Yes it did. And its tail was swollen because i didnt feed it!! What is this ominous foreboding?? Ok, dont wanna think so much. Better do the bio quiz on km..

sigh... i need a new brain. wish i could buy one from a roadside stall. i wonder if brains have emotions without a heart.

This is from my heart. When you say that what exactly is it thats from your heart? Are feelings from the heart? I think the only feeling in a heart is when you get a heartattack. That sour feeling you get when its a so called heartache, feels more like a stomach malfunction. Or an expiring rib cage. I really am talking crap though, so dont take any of these to heart? C; what a pun... Take it to the brain man..

Was so hungry after pt today, but xr didnt wanna go with me to satisfy my mcflurry craving so i got one from bedok interchange. It went down like a thin, dried snowflake. I felt like i hadnt even tasted it and it was gone. I couldnt taste it, it just kept going down my throat. And just felt cold.

food food food food food....

im so packed with things on thurs from 8-1 and friday from 8-3. maybe i will faint and die? ahh, they wont let me off so easy...

say what you need to say.. say what you need to say... say what you need to say... the john mayer song playing right now keeps saying that. even if your hands are shakin.. He thinks its so easy. And your faith is broken...

say what you need to say... say what you need to say... blah blah blah you know what line comes next...

wow the pencil just stopped short.

Right there.

Couldnt get it to touch the paper. My inspiration wont spill out. But anyway the ideas in my head could just be some consolation prize. If you get what i mean. But i bet you dont. ahaha.

shyt. no inspiration.

nvm. Moosic music music.
i gotta pick me up when im downnn.. i dont know when i got bitter.. love is surely better when its gone...

yay i have worked my primitive brain today. Math math math math. I still dont feel fulfilled though, only cuz i still think i havent learnt anything more. Whoohoo! I wanna live in my primitive world with my primitive mind, and only know the most primitive thing.

The most primitive thoughts could still keep a person alive no?

bloody hell la all you idiot people in the world please just get sucked up by a large vacuum cleaner and disposed off into another universe please.

i hate this dam pollution.

why are some people in this world so evil and act smart!! and scheming!!!

like mr high!!!
grrrr so pissing off. this kind of crappy unhelpful uncooperative unreasonable unwanted people should just be shot right in the eyeball!!

walaoZ. Think we wanna use your car on purpose think your car very nice meh?!?! Got transformer sticker doesnt mean is really transformer okay!!! Got no car then dont use your car la! Not like youre the only human bean with a CAR. Obviously we will be able to find other people with cars AND other people who are MUCH MORE helpful and understanding.

HMPH. dont want to fetch dont fetch la! Dont have to say tell the others not to help us fetch it also right. So toot. use your brain a bit la... who is so dumb to take public transport to carry 6kg when you have car?? Like who will go carry a bag on a stick and trudge your way to the next village when you have trains.

pampered what pampered lor. You think the whole world wanna take advantage of you, so ego for what.

do you like my strawberry tartlet?

Baked on election day.

haha. its mayonnaise surrounding chilli sauce. I made it to dip my fries. Nice right?

yay im back to the real worldd.

uh. whats the real world.. my world is just shooting and study shooting and study. It has always been this real. The camp just felt like going to another planet but still doing the same thing. Back to my own planet now. The planet where maybe i can fall asleep.

I like to twist and turn in bed. I just cant lie there and fall asleep. :C This is like gonna be detrimental lor. I keep turning from this side, that side, facing this direction, that direction. Sometimes when i really cant sleep i just sit up.

Wow if i had to share a bed with someone i think i'll irritate someone to the ends of the earth okay. [Like i used to kick my sis all the time by accident without knowing.]

How to not move at all and just lie there and fall asleep? My body is acting out my turbulent mind. And then there are the dreams, that make me feel like i never slept. Oh i keep dreaming about scenes in the shooting range.

sigh. i need to sleep. Haha <-- this laughter is out of place.

Shall we run from this world?
Touch the nightsky filled with pearls.
In your eyes burning bright,
there's a secret we hold tight, as we
escape with our masks,
Rendezvous in the Night.
Climb our way to the stars, oh if we could
Reach those heights,
swing back and forth on threads of cloud,
shout our worries, lost in doubt.
Blink the tears out from our eyes,
for the Moon's our alibi.
We could be so alone, but
We could feel so alive.
You and me, just slumbering in the other's company,
Freed from the world's mess and misery,
Finally.

ha.

ARISTAL 2008

























'I' am taller than xr

failed attempt at making this look combined

Prelude.

chinese dance first

Indian dance

Another chinese dance

creepy malay dance

chinese dance with cloud and topless guys

malay dance with umbrellas

indian dance

indian dance again

chinese dance

indian dance
[daniel leftmost purple guy]

finale dance

Dam crowded stage and THE END.

whee i am stoning.

benchua: who?

me: myself

lalala.