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yay! no more common tests for meee...

anyway since i have barred myself from the com for a week, i shall write about how the week went.

On sunday, to start off, my nose was running like a cheetah [oh wait this is kinda a wrong comparison since cheetah's lack stamina but my nose sure ran like a marathon runner]. Just kept running and running the whole day non stop. I used up sooo much tissue. Lazy to keep walking to the dustbin to throw tissue away so i just had a plastic bag beside me and it was fulll of tissue. This was the only day in the whole holiday i studied more than 4 hours [cuz on other days i kept falling asleep], since the studying was just annotating of Great Expectations and i had to finish it or be doomed.

Monday however, my nose didnt run anymore. Went for KI paper, which was pretty slack. My handwriting was so NICE and BIG for section A but small and crappy for section C cuz i forgot to write bigger to be able to gauge how many words to write. And also because i wasnt sure what to write... supposed to assess the argument, but didnt have many points to say about it.

Tuesday was chem and lit. Chem, a total disaster. A sure fail. Even heard this guy say wa study like never study like that, sure fail lo. But it wasnt supposed to be hard, i just really suck at chem... probably getting 30 or so out of 100.

Lit was alright. I liked the poem. About a jaguar. Didnt bother reading the other poem. My handwriting for lit was soooo spaced out it was like one-finger spacing between the letters man. Because during one of the lectures it was mentioned that average handwriting is 8 words per line, so i tried doing that but it still ended up around 12 words a line. M y w o r d s l o o k e d l i k e t h i s. Really! Wrote around 1200 worth of crapping for each.

Mathh on wednesdayyyy.. my first 3 hour paper of the common test. Ahhh the paper wasnt hard.. i made some stupid careless mistakes.. that cost A LOT of marks!! eek. I cant live up to those GREAT EXPECTATIONS!! > <>

Anyway i celebrated the end of my exam with a Burger King Milo.

Yay. What a not so epic week. But i had epic dreams. I forgot the actual content but my dream this morning was sweeny todd-esque. It had a guy that looked like johnny depp in it, with the eye shadow and mascara and pale complexion and black skinny clothings get up kind. Also had a girl character, similar, but with rags and layers of plaid and cloth with picha-ded[this is not a real word] ends with threads handing down and coarse and common boots[too much lit]. Messy hair. They really looked like characters from a crooked fairy tale. Then there was a part where i dreamt i had a hamster. And since in real life i didnt feed no hamster, in my dream i was like SHYT! I DIDNT FEED THE HAMSTER! so i went and took it out. There were two of them, but one hamster had a tail like a mouse.. i took it to the kitchen sink at home, to bathe it!! Rubbed green apple soap on its back.. remember seeing it almost fall into the sea [though there was no sea] But it slowly stiffened and died.. Yes it did. And its tail was swollen because i didnt feed it!! What is this ominous foreboding?? Ok, dont wanna think so much. Better do the bio quiz on km..

sigh... i need a new brain. wish i could buy one from a roadside stall. i wonder if brains have emotions without a heart.

This is from my heart. When you say that what exactly is it thats from your heart? Are feelings from the heart? I think the only feeling in a heart is when you get a heartattack. That sour feeling you get when its a so called heartache, feels more like a stomach malfunction. Or an expiring rib cage. I really am talking crap though, so dont take any of these to heart? C; what a pun... Take it to the brain man..

Was so hungry after pt today, but xr didnt wanna go with me to satisfy my mcflurry craving so i got one from bedok interchange. It went down like a thin, dried snowflake. I felt like i hadnt even tasted it and it was gone. I couldnt taste it, it just kept going down my throat. And just felt cold.

food food food food food....

im so packed with things on thurs from 8-1 and friday from 8-3. maybe i will faint and die? ahh, they wont let me off so easy...

say what you need to say.. say what you need to say... say what you need to say... the john mayer song playing right now keeps saying that. even if your hands are shakin.. He thinks its so easy. And your faith is broken...

say what you need to say... say what you need to say... blah blah blah you know what line comes next...

wow the pencil just stopped short.

Right there.

Couldnt get it to touch the paper. My inspiration wont spill out. But anyway the ideas in my head could just be some consolation prize. If you get what i mean. But i bet you dont. ahaha.

shyt. no inspiration.

nvm. Moosic music music.
i gotta pick me up when im downnn.. i dont know when i got bitter.. love is surely better when its gone...

yay i have worked my primitive brain today. Math math math math. I still dont feel fulfilled though, only cuz i still think i havent learnt anything more. Whoohoo! I wanna live in my primitive world with my primitive mind, and only know the most primitive thing.

The most primitive thoughts could still keep a person alive no?

bloody hell la all you idiot people in the world please just get sucked up by a large vacuum cleaner and disposed off into another universe please.

i hate this dam pollution.

why are some people in this world so evil and act smart!! and scheming!!!

like mr high!!!
grrrr so pissing off. this kind of crappy unhelpful uncooperative unreasonable unwanted people should just be shot right in the eyeball!!

walaoZ. Think we wanna use your car on purpose think your car very nice meh?!?! Got transformer sticker doesnt mean is really transformer okay!!! Got no car then dont use your car la! Not like youre the only human bean with a CAR. Obviously we will be able to find other people with cars AND other people who are MUCH MORE helpful and understanding.

HMPH. dont want to fetch dont fetch la! Dont have to say tell the others not to help us fetch it also right. So toot. use your brain a bit la... who is so dumb to take public transport to carry 6kg when you have car?? Like who will go carry a bag on a stick and trudge your way to the next village when you have trains.

pampered what pampered lor. You think the whole world wanna take advantage of you, so ego for what.

do you like my strawberry tartlet?

Baked on election day.

haha. its mayonnaise surrounding chilli sauce. I made it to dip my fries. Nice right?

yay im back to the real worldd.

uh. whats the real world.. my world is just shooting and study shooting and study. It has always been this real. The camp just felt like going to another planet but still doing the same thing. Back to my own planet now. The planet where maybe i can fall asleep.

I like to twist and turn in bed. I just cant lie there and fall asleep. :C This is like gonna be detrimental lor. I keep turning from this side, that side, facing this direction, that direction. Sometimes when i really cant sleep i just sit up.

Wow if i had to share a bed with someone i think i'll irritate someone to the ends of the earth okay. [Like i used to kick my sis all the time by accident without knowing.]

How to not move at all and just lie there and fall asleep? My body is acting out my turbulent mind. And then there are the dreams, that make me feel like i never slept. Oh i keep dreaming about scenes in the shooting range.

sigh. i need to sleep. Haha <-- this laughter is out of place.

Shall we run from this world?
Touch the nightsky filled with pearls.
In your eyes burning bright,
there's a secret we hold tight, as we
escape with our masks,
Rendezvous in the Night.
Climb our way to the stars, oh if we could
Reach those heights,
swing back and forth on threads of cloud,
shout our worries, lost in doubt.
Blink the tears out from our eyes,
for the Moon's our alibi.
We could be so alone, but
We could feel so alive.
You and me, just slumbering in the other's company,
Freed from the world's mess and misery,
Finally.

ha.

ARISTAL 2008

























'I' am taller than xr

failed attempt at making this look combined

Prelude.

chinese dance first

Indian dance

Another chinese dance

creepy malay dance

chinese dance with cloud and topless guys

malay dance with umbrellas

indian dance

indian dance again

chinese dance

indian dance
[daniel leftmost purple guy]

finale dance

Dam crowded stage and THE END.

whee i am stoning.

benchua: who?

me: myself

lalala.

This town is old
the people have sold
their minds for gold
and even the bold
have all lost hold
of sanity in this town so cold.

just for the sake of rhymes.

today i woke up late so got my dad to fetch me to sch. almost got involved in accident. didnt see how it happened. only looked up cuz felt jerky brake and screeching. 3cars in front of us crashed. we were next in line but dad braked in time. no one died.

today i took the train and went in a circle.. got on at newton but i fell asleep and woke up at raffles place. So i got off and went up the escalator to take the train towards pasir ris but i ended up at dhoby ghaut again. Realised i took the wrong side. Got off and took the train on the other side. zzz.

shes fine. shes fine. shes fine.

I HATE SKOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOLLLLLLLLLLLLLL I HATE LESSSONNNNNNNNNNNNSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

gasp i had suuuch a weiird dream okayyy...

it was about shooting club. We were having the training camp, at some lodge in a forested area. Our cabins were like hobbit holes. so.. it was elections time!! I dreamt about andy making his speech! And it began with him showing a video, which had himself in it, and everyone calling his name and chasing after him going andy andy andy andy! like crazy fans. And at one point in the video it showed him doing a back-flip like action and i commented andy's dam bendy! Then he was gonna start his speech but somehow the scene changed to me planning my speech. But somehow i dreamt about a poem instead! In my dream it was a really long and wholesome poem but i only remember the first two lines now...

Elections in the month of May!
Joannah and her team made it to this day!

okay.. it was a really weird dream and there were other things happening that i dont quite remember now, those are the Main most interesting bits...

ah yea yea yea. Apart from the fact that i feel once again drawn towards the Tolkien realm, other strange things have been happening to me. The thing is, i've been dreaming of getting myself cut and bloodied pretty frequently. Ok twice, not that frequent. But the two instances were close together...

The first was some accident. Some natural disaster that landed me in this place with glass shards all around. [i remember the lighting was a dark romantic orange, like after a fire.] The glass shards were stuck in the back of my hand, my palm and my arm. I was squeezing them out, and they just slipped out, like how you squeeze a plastic cup filled with water and the water just seeps out. Yea they slid out, and my hand was comparable to the likes of shredded paper. It was literally in sections. I couldnt lift my hand, because my hand wouldnt stay in one piece. My friends were trying to get me to stand but i couldnt because my hand was just too screwed up. They had to bandage it up by tying a cloth around it to keep the pieces together. And it was all bloody and gore. And fallen wood littered around the orange room..
I had this dream while sleeping at the atrium. Must have happened in a pretty short time. Or it could have been a half hour dream.

Now for the other one, happened just yesterday night/this morning. I forgot what the dream was about, but i remember that at one point, i was looking at koi in a pond, and the koi were all sliced up, they were split open all the way down their spines and there were horizontal slits across that line. They weren't in pieces though, they swam around in that top-split state. Like a slice of mango that you cut into cubes while preserving the presence of the skin and then flipping it such that the cubes open outwards. [I thought of this comparison in my dream]. And then the next moment, it appeared i was sitting on a high chair, beside this pond. I was holding a carving knife of some sort, and it pretty much doubled up and plunged itself deep into my thigh. What in the worldd right... Anyway there was blood flowing flowing flowing, and someone asked me what the hell that thing was doing in my leg and i was like i cant get it out, its just stuck there. And really it was stuck, like it had a life of its own and chose to stay there. I dont remember if the matter was resolved.

So, what could these dreams mean?

And so began the march of the lost and unknown...

Over the bridge and
Under the snow
Marching through earth
the dry leaves go
crackling under their feet
Hear them crying
The winds and the woods
are dying, dying.

Eyes wide open
but distant, forlorn.
Their fears had come true
the Curse had been born
It marked the beginning of
endless struggles with fate
Man ceased to live.
And the lands ceased to breathe.

Nowhere to go,
just marching through air
The plains before them lay
Barren.
Bare.