.growing.

up.

tall.

fat.

normally.

I didn't! sighh... i realised after comparing health booklets with huiwei and kristy that i grew extremely little. Like some malnutritioned kid. i grew only 10cm from Pri4...

I was 1.42m in Pri4, that's pretty tall righhtt... Kristy was 1.44m. Huiwei was a miniscule... 1.20m. Yes, extremely tiny. But guess what! She grew like, 32cm since then to a grand total of 1.52cm!! As for me... i grew a measly 10cm. Kristy, being a normal person as well, grew like, 28cm to a wondercrump height of 1.72m that she is now.. I can't believe i grew so littleee.... Huiwei was like the weight of a leaf last time man. Oh well, i guess its quite possible since she was so small.i never had a growth spurt. Huiwei, on the other hand, was 1.35m in Pri6 and shot up to 1.50m in sec 2 i think. As for me, i grew from 1.42m[p4]... to 1.47m[p5]... to 1.50m[p6].. to 1.51m[sec1]... to 1.52m[sec2]... and just... STOPPED. Siannn...

The graph in the health book makes it even more demoralising! There's like a green region for normal people, and orange regions for those too tall or too short. These slant upwards gradually as the age increases. At the start, i marked my height for 10 years old at the 1.42 mark and it was like, somewhere near the center of the green region, which meant i was a normal person. The mark was also near the center for 12 years old, at 1.50m... However, since it was pretty much stagnant from there, the straight line that followed travelled right nicely into the orange region below the green region at 16 years old... arg... how saddenening.

[Oh well, but huiwei was in the orange region like right from the start haha.]

We can now conclude that Kristy is one of the most normal people around. zzz...

.stuffs.

.Huiwei asked me to update so i shall post about CDANS. CDANS was disappointing!

I made a horrible, huge, dumb, impossible-but-it-happened mistake... I... STOOD IN THE WRONG POSITIONING! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH. Walao, that's like the dumbest mistake la. People usually using common sense will obviously lean left to rest their elbow on their hip. But I! was so busy changing my feet here and there.. that i ended up leaning right!!? So retarded man. So for my first 20 shots i aimed soo hard but i couldn't get it right. Yet after i realised it at the 32nd shot, suddenly aiming somewhat there would get me the 10. So reetaarded... Well.. at least i made this mistake that i never expected to make. Better than making this mistake during nationals... so my grand total was... 371. Yes. Incredulously crappy. 93 87 95 96. It is clear, by the 8 point jump where i realised my mistake.

Why couldn't training be exchanged with the real competition! Mann... i shot like 2 7s within a series. Oh well. Its overrrrrrrrrrrr...

Good luck to kristy and her drama crew!

Yay. The banner took form a few days ago, and now its got the heading! It looks ok so far. The outlining of the words with papertape was darn backbreaking. Must thank all the rifle girls+weilin+kaisheng +jiapei, regardless of critisism, suggestions, or helping to stick the papertape, or spraypainting.

Can't wait for it to be completed!

..

Sian. I shot 97-92!-96-96. With 25 10s, 13 9s, 1 8, and 1.... SIX! A SIX! wth... And i don't even know why it was a SIX cuz i didn't even shake.

Bleh.

I kept shooting towards the right at first. So i kept moving my position, but it didn't change a thing. In the end somehow my shots turned out alright although my sighting cards were horrible.
Then Julie helped me move my trigger back and suddenly i could shoot properly again, although i occassionally had violent jerks.

Career Seminar today. Took a bunch of notebooks and highlighters and pens.

When your only friends are hotel rooms
Hands are distant lullabies
If I could turn around I would tonight
These roads never seemed so long
Since your paper heart stopped beating leaving me suddenly alone
Will daybreak ever come?

Who's gonna call on Sunday morning?
Who's gonna drive you home?
I just want one more chance
To put my arms in fragile hands
I thought you said forever
Over and over
A sleepless night becomes bitter oblivion
These thoughts run through my head
Over and over
Complains of violins become my only friends

August evenings
Bring solemn warnings
To remember to kiss the ones you love goodbye
You never know what temporal days may bring
So Laugh, love, live free, and sing
When life is in discord
Praise ye the Lord

Who's gonna call on Sunday morning?
Who's gonna drive you home?
I just want one more chance
To put my arms in fragile hands
I thought you said forever
Over and over
A sleepless night becomes bitter oblivion
These thoughts run through my head
Over and over
Complaints of Violins become my only friends
I thought you said forever
Over and over
A sleepless night becomes bitter oblivion
These thoughts run through my head
Over and over
Complaints of Violins become my only friends
I thought you said forever
Over and over (And over and over)

These thoughts run through my head

I'm addicted to this. Paperthin Hymn by Anberlin___

..

GOOD LUCK TO HUIWEI AND ALL HER SYF BUDDIES!

GOGOGOGOGOGOGOGOGOGOGOGOGOGO
GOGOGOGOGOGOOGOGOGOGOGOGO

.-.

At the end of the world where the lions weep...

they made us too smart too quick too many...

Singapore should have weeping lion statues like those in AI. AI is a nice show.

//.Come away, O human child
To the waters and the wild
With a faery, hand in hand,
For the world's more full of weeping than you can understand//

.welovebabyanimals!.

Baby animals rule the world! Ok maybe they don't. But nvm

Relations of huiwei















Puma cub!

A pair of quokkas which are i dunno whats but they're cute

Huiwei's good friend

shaped like Jamie aka breadface aka cononut head aka yezitou aka char siew bao aka anything else spherical

no xr its not a duck. Baby quail

.dream.

oh yea. I just read xiu rong's blog and it mentioned something about strange dream, yeaa, so i shall write about my strange dream that i had on Friday morning...

So in this dream, i moved into a motel thingie, and i went to mini toons with huiwei [i think this is from too much stress finding her pressie]. And somehow the whole story changed to this random person in a hospital-like place. But it was really huge. With like, hundreds of windows. And the place was watched over by this woman[of which her identity i do not know]. She didn't allow anyone to enter and she surveyed the place and had this army that guarded all the exits. So the random person was watching her from the trees and from that point of view i could see the woman between the leaves and branches, wearing this bright pinkish purplish dress[must be the present stress]. A stark contrast to the whiteness of the hospital-like place. So this random person decided to try escape or something. So he[i think it was someone from prison break cuz i happened to watch schmits of the show the night before] went down the stairs really quickly while in my dream, my eyes followed like some camera filming the whole thing like it was some epic movie. Unfortunately, he met with an army of those guards. However, i don't know what happened, but apparently they were all robots. He knocked over them and they fell, deactivating. The whole army just... unplugged. They fell over each other, stiff, eyes open, expressionless. The random guy ran past them, continuing down the stairs.
He somehow got outside. And i think by this time that strange woman was alerted so she had ordered people to go after the random guy. So the random guy went back into the hospital-like place and pretended to go for a bath[for hentai ppl like xr's info, no he didn't actually bathe which means there wasn't anything hentai] He took his bathing stuff and... in my dream i didn't know where the bathroom was. It was an unfamiliar place afterall. My dreamcamera was looking left and right at the long endless corridors, with walls tinted light blue. Because i didn't know which way to go, neither did the random guy. Although this was just a dream, i could feel the sense of urgency and anxiousness. The need to find somewhere to hide, or cover up. The random guy just turned in a random direction and walked quickly to the end. There was a room at the end. He entered it. Just as he was about to pretend nothing happened, a cop entered. Wearing the brown cop uniform. The cop was pointing a gun at the random guy.
This part is really weird. Somehow the guy knew that by forcing me to wake up, the dream would disappear and he would not get shot. And that's exactly what happened. I was forcing my eyes to open. Forcing the dream to be stopped. The cop was protesting, shouting, 'don't try that', 'noo!!', but eventually my eyes pulled open, although there was a strong resisting force, and the dreamscape disappeared. And the guy didn't get shot. And i was awake.

Strange.

.black&white.

i wonder what the world would look like painted in white and black, when we can't see the iridescent oil puddles on the floor or a dish of milk split into an opalescent spectre of colours.[is that even possible?]
But still, if everything was just black and white some things would be made easier, like choices. We won't have to spend so much time choosing the right things to match each other because everything would be complementing in a world where the colours complement each other. [And i wouldn't have to look so hard for a pink --------- for huiwei] Then again, you may say that without other colours, people start picking based on shades. Grey. All kinds of grey. Dark grey is no longer just black. Light grey is no longer white. There's a billion in betweens from black to white. Choosing just got harder.

Why do things in this world have to be so complicated.

But is there even another world where things were so much easier?

I can't wonder more.

Could people be born out of trees?

I don't have much insight on the world. Don't really wish to be affected by its private afflictions. Yet because we live in it, we can't help but get involved. Living in a problem all on its own. Avoiding newspapers and tabloids can't keep you in the shadows. Going out is enough to make you vulnerable.

It's so impossible to stay hidden.

This post was entirely random.

.newlayout.

*** I just realised that it actually fits. It just doesn't on my com. But it does on others. Whyyyyyyyyy...

yay new layout. I don't know why it doesn't fit although its supposed to cuz the size is supposed to be big enough, and i made a larger version yet it doesn't seem to have expanded much so nvm, leave it as it is i guess. Lalala.

.hentaism displayed.

She turns. She looks. It's not the strange whiteness of the walls that attracts her, or the fact that its a place she is forbidden to enter. Not the mirrors.. not the sinks... It's something else... something there.. standing within those walls... it's... HIM.

And that's the story of one of XR's displays of hentaism. [Prob can guess where she was looking at lol]

And huiwei got violated by Xiu rong!!
Xr: Huiwei why your shorts like so big
Huiwei: This is the smallest liao
Xr: What's inside? *And at the same time flips up huiwei's shorts. Realises she has unconsciously[or consciously] committed an act of hentaism in the bright open day light! Quickly lets go, apologising profusely*
*Huiwei is so shocked, she cannot speak but suddenly turns and yell and scream and whack up XR like she has just been r- violated. Which she was*
Desiree and Kristy[onlookers]: O_O OMG XIU RONG. WHAT WERE YOU THINKING???
Only XR wonders what's inside shorts man.

Lynna's venus flytrap is so cute and nice. But its so small! If only it were bigger. Like at least big enough to eat cockroaches.

And yea as XR mentioned on her blog. I was using a lightness lane today, unfortunately, and i couldnt really see a dam shyt . Eventually i went to Niao's lane cuz he was done. But the lane spoilt at his last shot so i had to manually swing the target card forward. And finally we decided that since XR was only allowed to dry fire, she should just take the spoilt lane since she didn't need to draw back so hooray, everything was settled after that. My groupings were total shyt. But i shot a 97 for final ten. I think its because i hugged my gun really closely for the last 10 shots + a few shots before that and it seemed to work a bit with preventing me from swaying. So yayy. nicely baked.

.zz.

bleh. internal monthly today:
i shot 93 94 96 95. with 4 8s[walaosomany]14 9s and 22 10s. 378. Strangely enough, although i shot so many crappy 8s today, my score was still higher than safra monthly[95+95+93+95=377]... in which i shot no 8s. Which means i must have shot helluva lot of 9s. Which it felt like anyway. Anywayy.. actually i thought i would get an even crappier score cuz i haven't trained for one week[cuz of the crappy booking system thing + being sick] and also my sighting was quite horrible. My shots were like.. High.[i think it was something to do with my positioning] So i tried to change my positioning here and there[+make sure the gun butt was totally on my shoulder cuz daxiang and niao both said it was kinda high] and somehow some shots turned normal.
Along the way suddenly, the shots would go high again and i have no idea why actually. Which is why its so bleh. Don't know why some of the shots will fly somewhere else. Actually i was pretty sure of some of the shots but mann.. when i actually fired. I think i moved or something.. So the shot went totally off.. oh well.. and no overall improvement still!!! Gotta train more mann...
i am so lousy now man.zzz.

So after that! I had to torment myself even more!! [Huiwei better be thankful for this] For the sake of Huiwei the 'Great' i had to look at so much pink stuff today which is soo sad cuz i never usually look at pink stuff[cuz i don't like it la] and mann.. this is like the first time i looked at so much pink stuff its so.. W.E.I.R.D. And most of the pink stuff was like associated with pigs [No wonder huiwei resembles one haha] So well, i submerged myself in the world of pink objects and tried to see what was so nice about them...
Huiwei needs a pink revamping! Her pink things count is dropping. Which is baad. Because huiwei is a pink person and associated with piglets. Therefore she must stay pink. yeah. So i shall give her lots of pink stuff for her birthday and up her pink things count again!
So i did all that looking at pink stuff really fast cuz i had to rush home.. thankfully the places didn't let me down. I found a bunch of huiwei stuff that at least, didn't irk me so much that i couldn't bear to touch it. Luckily its pastel pink that she likes, which i don't mind as much, rather than h..h... pink. Which is sick lar. To me that is. Good for you if you like it.

Oh man. This is like a real post lar. So cool. Wa lao i used the word pink 15 times.

Since this is like, a real post! I feel like mentioning xiu rong and kristy in it. Yay. Kristy didn't come to class on thursday[same with me] and friday. So we both didn't take the MI test. Unfortunately, on friday Mrs Tan wasn't there for the tutorial so i didn't ask about retaking the test. Huiwei said maybe we won't take the test at all O_O. Oh well. We'll see. Xiu Rong... don't be negative. And rmbr! Don't say SsIiiAAaaannNnnN after lousy shots ok. Totally kills the next shot mann. yea yea yea. okok i shall stop here. Farewell.

:::

*sis approaches

sis says: every evening, munmun shuts herself up in a corner in front of her laptop and sings emo songs, together with an emo expression on her face... and even a black shirt to go along! and ninja gloves!

*walks away after that

-_____________-


//.i will love you until my dying day. come what may.

i hate green apples. They are SOUR and taste BAD

Today someone really pissed a whole lot of people off mannn. I could just say the name since we all know who it is but nvm.. what the hell.. Just writing your name there when you haven't even got a group yet. What's your problem man?? Still want us to split up OUR group just so that you can have your way?? We formed our group already why the hell would we split up just cuz of you??

What the hell do we owe you anyway.

And acting like you're so pitiful always talking in that irritating tone of voice. Can you like, change to some new tactic or something cuz that one is really getting boring.

Making things difficult for everyone just so that you will get what you want. What you have SYF, well so does the rest of half of the class.. And still pretending to be nice at the end by saying what, draw lots la draw lots la... We already said OK. As long as we even had a spot to write our group down, FINE, go ahead and do that question lar!! Wa lao, stop following people around can. Its dam creepy lar. And we were already contented that we even had somewhere to write down our group becuz earlier on becuz of people like YOU we didn't even have anywhere to go?? And we were a fully formed group unlike you?? And when you FINALLY got your group you still dare to claim that you guys wrote your group there first. Like, wth? In the first place you just simply wrote your name there with no group at all?? We could have just rubbed off your name and just wrote down our group lar. What's your problem??? Godielar.

Still say, fine la if that's what you want, or whatever. YEA, THAT'S WHAT WE WANT MANNN...good that you're fine with it. And yea. You wanna talk to us but we already gave up talking to you because we tried and you won't listen so there's no point talking. So you're happy now right anyway, you got what you wanted in the end? Yea well, good for you. So why don't you just shuddup and stop acting kindly like a bloody hypocrite and stop following people around.

GO AWAY!

oh man. this is like the first time i bao-ed in class and really shoot back at someone straight in the face. Chao bu shuang.

oh yea, if you're unhappy with this, too bad. Blogs are for people to express what they have to say, especially when they're really mad and have no better way to express it like, punching the wall or something. so too bad.

//.wreckage of the heart.

.blank.

Poor xiu rong got abused by kristy today i heard. mann, kristy.. shouldn't be so violent to your peng yous you knoww! I won't niao you so much so you BETTER NOT NIAO ME OK. [since its not even true unlike..!!!] It's dam annoying yea i know.. and i never niao you that bad what!!! Why you say i niao people until very bad one.. just cuz i walked past... wa. i said i didn't see anything lar -_- and i purposely walk in front so you guys can be out of my sight... zzzzzzz... haiz. people are weird when they like someone mann.. especially in front of that person.. *points to rtj

ok. that's all bleh.

//.open your eyes and look this way, tell me girl, about your day.

huiwei's theory

today i put my phone on my stomach and guess what huiwei said!

Later you get stomach cancer.

:/ welcome to the world of huiwei. where birds and beavers have no tails and ducks have no beaks.

haiz.

.random.

.why does the name keep ringing in my head, although all i have for that name is hate.

that doesn't imply anything i just thought of it.

Anyway. Some people are really annoying man. I don't even know them and they keep niaoing me. Like wts. That's the only thing they have to say. Stupid. Irritating. I feel like stabbing them. But i can't. Damn. Wa lao.. I wish they would stop la.. oh well.

Today was quite a fun day [other than becuz of some people] but nvm, it was still fun because xiu rong managed to find something nice and we saw many many ducks. And so we rambled around in circles and found a nice place to complete Kristy's secret mission and then we were off and back to our humblyabodes. yay.

ok im really bad at writing in a blog so well, yeaaa, maybe read xiu rong's or kristy's for more information!

2007 first day

Time passed really fast
The new year was here
She realised she lost a lot of things
Within one year
2006, her specs, her wallet, her pet and
Something else she held so close, so dear
Oh well
Most of the time things don't go your way
Instead of improving herself
She wasted everyday
Didn't know the extent of the damage done
Until she saw the sun
Didn't seem to shine as bright as the one
She knew before
But fine, she'll get over it
One day
when it all ends
She'll stop this pretence
Get ahead with her life
Get out of the hive
Get a move on
So for now
So long.

so tyco!

17 i think

Ya- hoho, we exchanged Christmas presents today! [Huiwei, Kristy and I]

All our pressents :D
Huiwei's nice handwriting
Inside Huiwei's box

Cute thing that Kristy gave me.. its a.. turtle i think. And the cute blue pigs from Taiwan and KINDER BUENO! Wow, everybody gives me kinder bueno ahaha. I bet Xiu Rong won't cuz she thinks its not hua suan .. and the box! With a DUCK on it! Xiu Rong will like it! ahahaha...

See Xiu Rong, i got a bigger one and same price summore, more hua suan! hahaha!!!

And my sister's mouse

16

What's a family anyway... are we called a family just because we are related by blood? Or is there something more to being a family. What does it mean when we can't seem to communicate or even be around when we are supposed to be...

How is one supposed to hide it when all one can do is pretend that its all normal and act like nothing happened...

And to make it worse, someone has to say things that make you annoyed because those things are all wrong...

Hey daxiang when you ask don't your mom and dad look happy together. i wonder why i can't picture it.