Training camp was wonderful. On the first day, I got poked by a nail. It felt great. We also shot mock competition and i got a lame score. We watched meet the robinsons for the inspirational movie and it was pretty nice. The main point of it was to celebrate failure and keep moving forward. But i didnt really like it cuz it was a 3D animation show and i dont really like watching that kind but prefer real people acting.

The next day, we trained first, then had Lee PT. It was awesomely painful. By the end of it we were all crumbling to the ground and holding the wall for support while going down the stairs. We went to do senior's farewell video after that since we were too crumbly to train again but after lunch, we had to train again. I think our shots were all horrigible compared to the morning. After training, Nicole and i went to celebrate some failure by shooting hoops. We suceeded. After that we had to go for road run + 20min on the track. Jiapei was filming us suffering together.
At night, seniors fred and yi xiu[i think] gave us a talk of their experiences and then we had to learn the club mission: To develop NJ shooters into leaders with passion, marksmen with perserverence and sportsmen with integrity in the journey of self discovery. Lee tested two people and they got it wrong and we had to do 2 x 10 times of his horrendous squatting and getting up exercise...

Then we had dinner while hearing another two seniors talk, Sarah and i dunno the name of the other one. After that was to labrador park for mental training. We had to make the railing disappear so that we could see the whole sea. I managed it but i kept wondering how our brains were able to perceive what was behind the railings since they are supposedly blocked. So as the railings disappear, how come the pattern of the waves still can be formed.. I wonder if we can use this to look through walls. At one point, 1/2 of xiu rong disappeared diagonally, which was quite scary cuz she faded off very fast but shot back into view the moment i noticed. After the exercise my eyeballs were thouroughly strained.

The last day was nothing much. We shot mock com again and then final 10. I shot the same score as i did for the first day for the mock com and final 10 i shot 101 point something.. but without all the point-somethings to save me it would have only been 96. I didnt improve at all and i have no idea why Im shooting how Im shooting cuz sometimes the shots just have their own life and go where they want to although i seemingly aimed at the same spot.
A few of us also helped to neaten up the range after that. It felt like quite a great accomplishment because the range really looked much nicer after the packing and everything. And there were many many xiao qiangs with long legs and feelers [wonder why its pronounced fee-lers and not feel-ers since they are used for feel-ing and is that not the reason they are called feel-ers?] crawling around that got shot by sprays of xiao qiang killers. And one died right outside the range door.

Chalky is very annoying. But not as annoying as jeremy, who is VERY VERY ANNOYING. His mouth should rot so all his teeth sink into his gums and he becomes disfigured and his throat gets clogged with fallen out teeth so he cant shyt through his mouth anymore like he was doing the whole camp and polluting the world. DIE JEREMY, DIE!

Sometimes I have memories
Memories from the deep
But none of these are memories
That I want to keep

Take away these memories
Etched deep inside my heart
Cuz one by one these memories
Are tearing me apart

Please believe, these memories
Are nothing that I want
Don’t know how to get rid of them
Somehow I just cant

Someone please just set me free
Free from all anxiety
Cuz now all that I can see
Are these dreaded memories
Don’t know if you should even be a friend
Just know I wont be deceived again…

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Today on the mrt something scary happened. I was standing there, innocently, when suddenly this woman gripped my shoulder. I looked at her, she looked at me. She glared at me. [or maybe i just thought she was, but in truth it was actually a worried look i think] I thought she just needed something to hold on to so i didnt say anything. But she kept gripping. And she gripped harder. Then her whole arm snaked over to my other shoulder. I tensed. "Move forward" she whispered "The man behind is unwell".

Wa lau.

Say so la! I thought wth are you trying to do man -_- yes. she was just telling me to move forward, but she had her arms around my shoulders man. I didnt say anything the whole time, just wide-eyed, puzzled and then hit with realisation, relaxed.

The man was unwell. yup he was. He was huffing like a i dunno what. Like a dragon about to breathe fire? And when people got near him he put his hand up and glared really scarily.

And so that was my adventure for today..
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I had actually wanted to post about something else, but maybe not today.

oh yea i will not rot at home like someone said i would! i will do a lot of things...

training... armoury keys disappeared! searched for it/waited around for 2 hours...

then they reappeared!! :/ we were almost going home already...

so train train train train.. for 2 and a half hours.. but i fell asleep halfway :/ in the suit. zzz so sleepy.. my shots deteriorated very fast.. oh well.. something wrong with my elbow placing... then got blueblack on my hip -_- so pain. dunno come from where.

after that went to eat kfc with xiu rong! so long never eat yay

then.. bought something for mo mo ren as christmas present... and then i realised it was 5 o clock liao! then gotta fly home.. reached home at 540.. left house at 6 for... OBS dinner!

OBS dinner was fun, we ate at sakae, but the instructors both didnt turn up :C so sad. but we had fun eating. the buffet people had to pay $28 each! The non-buffet people, me, jolene, shu jen, davina, christine, jocelyn and amanda made up a grand total of $90, so much more worth it. and we were super full after that too.

after that went to arcade and played air hockey thing. That was super exciting too. I played with jolene against wen loong and matthew. They so violent, of course win right... > <>

then the buffet people came along and they also played a bit and then we all went home happy C: the end.

yay! today was so funn... lynna's birthday outing! there was fudi chiansiang zichao me huiwei kristy and of course lynna. charbi was there earlier but had to go for french.. so first we had to wait for chiansai and huiwei so fudi lynna zi chao and me went to play pool first. charbi joined in halfway. super lame la, cuz i dunno how to play -_- so anyhow play. then all the tyco shots dam fun C: charbi also very pro at tyco-ing

so after chiansai and huiwei came along, we went to eat. Fudi was supposed to treat lynna so she refused to eat at food court or macs or kfc or subway... so we went to cafe cartel, just to make fudi pay more -_- we ate alot... so full after that.. i shared chicken stew and fish and chips with kristy and i also had a funny drink with hard ice cream in it. Huiwei had a mango one and i had a passion one. very weird tasting... like milky soda. We also gave lynna her birthday present... a bikini that huiwei chose :/

after eating we went to play arcade! I never play at arcade usually cuz i will waste a lot of money, but today was super fun! me and huiwei tried playing the throw basketball game, and failed miserably cuz we both couldnt even see the ring of the net and it was dark too... then fudi and chiansai were quite pro! [since both ex-bballers whattt...] after that i cant remember what we did, i think we left, to go to another arcade.

so we went to another arcade, this time with the basketball game again! and this one was higher so we could actually see the net! and had no ceiling so less restriction, plus there were lights around so it was brighter. Super fun, i played with chiansai and fudi played with huiwei. Then chiansai fudi and zi chao and kristy and huiwei also played detona. Then we also played some smashing buttons game which made our hands super pain but also very fun la cuz everyone could play together! But i was like super lousy cuz of a spoilt button so i died very fast -_-

after arcade we went back to play pool again. i teamed with chiansai kristy and we won cuz lynna hit the 8 ball in! yay! aiya.. but i also hit the 8 ball in.. [together with the ball i was aiming for!!] so we also lost becuz of that -_- play play play..

after that, dinner! we went all the way to outram to some hawker center to eat cuz lynna wanted to go there and said it was nice. We had claypot rice and a veggie and tofu dish. it was all pretty nice . Super full after that..

then of course, we went home! yay fun fun day.. xiu rong missed out :X

Outward Bound Singapore
7-day course
5th - 11th november 2007
Destination... PULAU UBIN! [feel the excitement.]

22 of us happy people and not so happy people had to go for 7 day obs at the end of the year since we missed the mid-year one due to ccas and germany trip and other reasons, so we met at the atrium at 0700h to take a bus to pulau ubin.
When we got there, gideon talked to us about stuff like introduction and all that, and then we were introduced to our instructors, cindy and mauricette. Our two watches were NEHRU and ELIZABETH CHOY.

Nehru[SEMANGAT.CINDY]:
Xiu Rong
Chuyun
Davina
Saniah
Eugene
Matthew
Geraldine
Shu Jen
Christine
Bee Him
Diana

Elizabeth[ENDEAVOUR.MAURICETTE]:
Desiree
Jolene
Jocelyn
Amanda
Rachel
Wen Loong
Zile
JiaSheng
Tiffany
Gillian
Sherlene

Day 1
I was separated from xiu rong!! and left alone with jiasheng -_- and other random people that i never really talked to... other than tiff of course. So it started out quite lonely. We had to do some activity where we had to walk around the place and look for checkpoints and it was in pairs, so i paired up with Jiasheng and we went searching around. Met xiu rong along the way. This activity was nothing much, just to get us warmed up i think.
Afternoon, we went kayaking to the other obs camp on pulau ubin to do our jetty jump. I kayaked with sherlene and jiasheng and it was pretty ok. I think Jiasheng was giving most of the power though XD. Jetty jump was not so bad. Jolene and I were the last to go and when i walked on the plank it was ok, until i reached the end of the plank, where i threw myself off before i could think of being scared cuz my legs were starting to shake. It was a looong drop down and i wondered how come i hadn't reached yet.. and then splash! All the shyt water goes into your nose and mouth.. wa lao eh. dam disgusting taste. > <

then at night we had to learn how to read maps because of a small little expedition the next day. zzz

Day 2
So the next day we had to go for our expedition to find checkpoints with little black signs with alphabets on them. I grouped with sherlene jolene and diana and we got lost. -_- We went climbing up a rock wall and coming back down to the same pathway that we climbed up... We didnt know where we were supposed to go although we tried to follow the map.. it looked weird :(.. so we tried to go into the forest instead, where we followed the path until it disappeared. We walked on and got lost > < . So we decided to turn back. Since we didnt know where we were at all cuz everywhere was just trees... and grass and spider webs, we just anyhow walked. Somehow, by some miracle, we found a sign! Except that they didnt even put which checkpoint it was... and it was so tiny and hidden on the dam tree! so we still didnt know where we were, but we were glad we found at least one checkpoint [out of 4 assigned to us, out of 21 in total] so we continued our way back... higher... and higher... and higher... until we realised we were like staring at the top of the super high flying fox! Shocking man. Then we had to climb all the way down and decided to follow the sea and we finally managed to find back the path and got out of the dam forest... all shytty and crappy with our shirts full of mud and spider webs.. When we went back to the room we were the only group that were so covered in shyt > <> <
That was the main activity of the day cuz after that we had to go pack our stuff for our sailing expedition!!

Day 3
Sailing! We were introduced to our cutter, Endeavour! Nehru got semangat, which means spirit in malay. and endeavour, well, means endevour! We were taught how to hoist the sails and all that. There are 3 sails in total, the sail at the back's name sounds like me-son, but i have no idea how to spell it. Then the middle big one is called the main sail and the one at the bow is called the jip! I was in charge of the jip so i had fun hoisting it up with other people also in charge of the jip. Clipping it onto the metal cable thing was painful though, cuz the stupid clip was so hard to press, together with the dam wind that kept anyhow blowing the sail.
Before leaving we had to pack a lot of stuff, and carry all the necessary things for the cutter, like one 10kg anchor and one 5kg anchor, and a box of rope together with this lighting diamond thing to make us detectable by radars. We had lots of rations like rice and lots of can food, instant noodles, biscuits and so on.
Finally when everything was done, we could go out to sea! Cuz we couldnt possibly push the whole cutter out, it was like driven into a sea by a truck on the structure with wheels, then we took a little speedboat to it. We climbed on and had to rooww ourselves away from the jetty. ROWING!! Like a kayak! Super strenuous man... Finally, we could hoist the colours~ After hoisting the sails that we were in charge of, we all had to help out hoisting the main sail, cuz its super heavy and big and goes across the whole center of the cutter.
So yay hip hip hurray we hoisted it [though a bit slowly] and started sailing! whee! sail sail sail. we sailed to the other camp where we did our jetty jump earlier, and had our dinner there. Instant noodles and apples. Jolene kept drinking all the soup and eating apples only -_- left me to eat the noodles.. then couldnt finish of course.. i saw a wild boar yay! [We had to go in an avon to get to the campsite from the boat and jiasheng and zile paddled us all the way!]

Day 4
Shall not be too long winded now [how appropriate], we sailed off again, to our reeeaalll campsite, at sembawang! We had to take down and pull up the main sail a few times because of the random wind, which was tiring.. but we learnt to do it faster and faster, and we also sang miracles! and then the wind really came! dam pro la... XD

We also played and practised a bit of our jives and tacks. I was the person pulling one of the sides of the jip ropes and that was dam hard la. Feel like youre gonna fly off the boat cuz the wind is pushing against the jip sail and you have to hold on to the rope so that it doesnt lost the bubble shape. so the rope is like giving you a slimming session...

When we reached the campsite, Jolene, Sherlene and I helped to set up tents together with the guys while the other girls went to cook food. Food was dam nice that day! Jolene and I shared instant noodles. Plain flavoured. But we were trying to open the can of mushrooms so we poured mushroom essence into the soup too, then there were baby sausages and then we poured a can of curry chicken in as well. Super nice!! We finished the whole thing unlike the night before and had cups of orange flavoured isotonic drink. It was raining while we were eating, and we saw fireworks from malaysia too. That was dam nice.

After that we slept in our tents, mine consisting of gillian, sherlene and jolene and me. It was dam hot in the tents at first but in the middle of the night it started raining and the whole tent shook like crazy and we were swinging about like a blade of grass. Then my tent had to wake up for sentry duty at 4 and go outside and shiver in the cold to watch the cutters. In the middle of the night jill was like waving her arms around like some possessed thing, dam scary. I had to push them away cuz i was sleeping beside her. And she was tapping her fingers on Jolenes legs... :b like a hentai...

Day 5
The race "home"! A race between Semangat and Endeavour!! Guess who won?? Endeavour of course! Everyone was singing like crazy all the way home and we were so bent on winning we rowed all the way back from Sembawang to our camp on pulau ubin, and sailed at the same time. This time we sailed with minimal help from Mauricette. I gave up rowing halfway and went to do the pulling of the jip sails instead so everytime we did a tack or jive i had to release one side of the jip rope and pull the other while two other people had to dip the main sail, like flip it over to the other side so that we would turn the whole cutter like 90 degrees or something. We chiong-ded like mad cuz at first we were first, then second, then first again and semangat started slacking halfway, they stopped rowing, so we just continued on to finish the race and win! yayyy...

After that we had to wash all the stuff on the boat like the ropes, and take down the sails and wash them as well and so on. Then we sat down to eat the remainder rations together. The mad wen loong actually made a peanut butter mountain 5cm tall and 10cm across on top of a natural or nature valley bar and ate the whole thing. And felt like dying after that. Jolene ate a spoonful of peanut butter and strawberry jam and 3/4 pack of prunes while the rest of us ate normal stuff like spreading peanut butter on biscuits. Jolene also drank one cup of isotonic drink, one milo and one ovaltine at one go. During dinner she drank like 6 cups of sarsi. After that she lao sai-ded many many times.

We were super tired and had the rest of the afternoon to ourselves so we went to do our own stuff like bathe!! Since we hadnt bathed for 2 days... and then sleep some of course..

Day 6
It's still not over!! Another small expedition! This time, kayaking around half of pulau ubin through a mangrove. It was the same route that i went last year though, yet totally different. We had to set off early so that we wouldnt miss the high tide and get stuck in the stupid mud bank [like we did last year] We got lost once or twice but other than that, we were great and were done in 4 and a half hours! The tide was so high, the last time we had to climb over the whole wall of mud, but this time we could just slide our kayak over the little bump of mud. of course i was dumb enough to forget it was a mud wall, so i flew over the other side while pushing the kayak across the mud wall halfway, and plopped into the shyt water... then i had to climb back onto the kayak. Jiasheng and i came out to push while Sherlene stayed inside cuz she cant get back onto the kayak... > <>

After that, washing the kayaks was fun too, had to get all the shyt mud off though, by rubbing and rubbing. Then bathe and meet up with instructors again... and we had to do a... MUSICAL!

The musical was dam crap la. It started out with us being segregated into our classes at first then having to be separated into different watches. Rachel and Eugene did solo start of somthing new, then everyone joined in to show how we started to accept the whole thing about being separated.
After that was the jetty jump scene, where jiasheng and zile did some titanic you jump i jump thing and then everyone started singing and humming the titanic song while the rest of the guys did stupid poses while pretending to jump. It was dam funny la all so gay... > <
Then after that was the trekking scene where the guys kept knocking into us trees and how when you walk in front and push the branch away it swings back into the face of the person behind, which swaying like retarded rag dolls, we sang the lion sleeps tonight and then did a wavy arm parting to introduce... the spiders!! So the spiderman song came along! And matthew, wen loong and zile made up the spider, they did really gay wavy arm actions which was dam hilarious and dam entertaining.
Next was high elements, where the guys acted as really really daaam gay belayers [especially zile who was waving his butt from one side to the other while pretending to pull the rope] and the rest of us sang i believe i can fly [but changed to we believe you can climb] as diana pretended to be scared of climbing. Then she did a solo of i believe i can climb. Sounded so opra.
Then finally we had the sailing one where matthew said, theres no wind. and zile goes OOOOOOWH MAI GOED [oh my god ] in his china boy way which sounds dam funny. And the rest of us did kallang wave at the side while the rest sang miracles i think, and then we ended off.. with everyone being happy together at the end with the song, we're all in this together.

the end!

of the musical.

and then we had new guests halfway so we had to do the front part for them again. But it was nice! We churned the whole thing out in about 3 hours or so? yea.. so at least it went pretty well :D

Day 7
The final day!! They still wouldnt let us off!! We had to do a stupid scary trapeze jump which i totally couldnt do!! I wanted to grab the bar but i couldnt even push off the platform -_- since it was so small.. and i didnt dare to jump at the same time.. so when i jumped [after a long while] i panicked... and so i didnt really reach for the dam bar but grabbed onto the stupid rope holding on to me instead, where i got ropeburns from -_-
So i didnt even touch the bar. NOOOOOOOOOOHHHHH..... but it was really really scary... wa lao eh. So far away and so slanted some more.. i tried to picture a platform below me but totally failed -.- oh well. tiao-ing lou is not for me, at least now i know...

The guys all managed to grab on and hold, although zile, who was the first to go, was dam scared and stayed up there for 10 minutes crouching in a ball and crying out to the world that its dam scary. It was really dam scary anyway. The other girls didnt manage to grab hold of the bar, but some touched it, some slipped off and others just didnt even reach for it [like me.] arhhg.g. im quite regretful. But i didnt even want to jump off at all anyway... couldnt take it like jetty jump....

after that, souvenir shopping! yay, our whole watch got the same shirt yay. Then i got a notebook too which is really nice, the cover is a drawing done by one of the instructors.

then.. home! home! home!!! yayyy!!

will miss everyone.. but we have sushi buffet on tuesday together yay! so not so bad. it was fun although it was lonely at first.. but after that it really ended up all right.

A lot of funny stuff happened along the way like imitating diana lol.. dam funny la... and we had a zile cheer which went like. When i say zile you sayyyy!! OWH MAI GOED!

Oh yea, and Jia Sheng totally flew off the plank of the jetty jump. Like, flew.

*and oh yea.. the me-son thing is actually mizzon..
for more information, do tune in to xiu rong's blog to read about what heerr watch experienced!

bye bye. [aiyo. so long this post.]

Curious Cases; Dangerous people:
Xiu Rong.
Height: slightly more than 3/4 the height of your average door
Colour: Unidentified
Number of fingers: More than enough for her evil needs
Thoughts: Censored

It doesnt matter how old you are, as long as you look relatively pleasant.. stay away!! Or face the consequences of your carelessness... This xiu rong thingy has a certain scary way of stalking people... looking into their contacts and flipping through folders containing their life stories which she has collected over the years. [no wonder she needs to swing about in her house cuz its too cluttered with files]

teachers, students, strangers, friends... doesnt matter. Xiu Rong will have them all.

-this is a product of bordem-

In memory of Mr. Sanders

2005 - 2007

The pixies of the old folk lore
Dance like fire, under stars
Their songs and voices drown in wind
To reach those that have traveled far
Their melodies leap to the sky
Etched in every scar and cry
Which burn our mortal hands that bleed
From sorrow between every heartbeat.

Forest Fanfare

Creepers
Clashing swords spark
Streaks of lightning
Heavens mourn for this
War we're fighting
Drawing blood, taking
Lives of the innocents
How can we prove to this world
Our innocence?
Drops of dew roll off
Blades of green
As we flick
As we slash
Through the thickets unseen
In the dark, We will creep
Guilty lives, We will seek
Spare some thought
For our souls
Growing old, growing cold
See us shrivel
See us rot
As we entangle in ourselves
Tryin'a reach for the sun
She's the heavenly one
But we can't
Were we sinners in our past lives before?
We will reap, what we sow
We're unable to grow
Grow to reach
Grow to touch
Any warmth
From our precious
Ancestor
Above.

On our own
And we will always be a restriction
Even to the ones we love
Alas,
On our own
We could bring nothing but pain
We're a shame
To our kind
Yet we can never find
Better ways to survive
Stay ahead
Stay alive
Gotta keep up our drive
They will see
Where our hearts
Get their strife!

Trees
Why should we listen
To those that strangle us,
That torture us,
Take food from us
and grip us tight
This time, its War!
We'll use our might,
Our strength, our height
To break them creepers
We'll be their soul reapers
For the last time
They'll draw their breath from us
We're in charge
Let us march
To our victory ahead!
See the lights
Shine on no plant
But those of our stead
Indeed we are a stride
Not to beat
We are one,
One combined
Makes us stronger
With our minds
In unison of thought
Bent on one final goal
To claim back the souls
Of the ones
We have lost
To those creepers,
Lives they have cost.

Flowers
In between,
Where to stand?
To which side
Should we bend?
All this fighting,
All this war,
All because of a flaw
In understanding other's needs
When we grew from our seeds
Didn't know it would lead
Eventually to commotion
As our lifestyles clashed
Now, hear the thunder crash
Upon Earth, reprimanding
What are we thinking?
We're always so demanding
Look at us,
We are fair
With our colours
Drawing stares,
And our sugar lips
Sweet, we're a treat
To the insects we meet
Yet still caught
In between
Need to choose
Like we're held
By a noose
Either way
We, innocents will stand to
Lose.

End.
Save us all
Save us please
For our nature
Makes us fight
We cant change
We cant cease
We're just trying to survive
Help us learn
Help us see
We can live
We can be
Strong as one
Before this war
Steals our mothers
Fathers, daughters and sons
Let us see the truth in living
Together, we'll keep on believing.

Just am
Nobody
To you.
Can only pretend
Use my act to defend
What's inside
That's leaking out
Something to hide
And to cry about
Things you dont see
You think they're ok
Maybe there's chance of recovery one day.
When? When? When will it come?
Will I, to darkness, before that, succumb?
Freeing you now
From clutches of this
Feeling you thought that you couldnt resist
Now as i see it
You'd rather be free
Free from the clutches,
The clutches of me.

So wont ask for more
I did say before
No more irritation
Like an infected sore
No more noise
Like children's toys
No more restrictions
No more convictions
Nothing.
I'll say no more.

In the end
All these words
I say to myself
Cuz not like you'll see anyway.
Wish my life ended today.

vivre pour celui qu'on aime

live for the one you love?


why?

Don't look at me
I'm just not there
What do you see?
Look everywhere
I dont exist
Im just a pause,
A moment,
In that life of yours
Cant help feeling unneeded
Unimportant.
Pointless.
Why am i lurking
In the shadows still?
Wish i could just
Disappear.
Dont know if im still one
Worth waiting for
Throw me a coin
Watch it touch the floor
Head says breathe
Tail says no more ---

Watch them fall
They fall many
They fall hard
It's not blood.
Watch them flow
They flow hard
They flow many
C'reach a yard
Like meteor showers
They flow bright
They only flow
Deep in the night
Out of sight
You cant see
They fall hard
They fall many.

its making me pressurized
cant see things
as you see them
in your eyes...

pain.

all im feeling is pain.

these feelings supressed.

will maybe keep me safe for one day.

tomorrow might change.

but probably not.

hearts cant stay the same.

after too long.

they're sure to go insane.

blame it on myself.

for choosing it to be this way.

cant believe in nothing.

cant believe in something.

cant believe in everything.

cant believe in anything.

cant be me.

cant be myself.

dont know who i am.

tell me where to run.

tell me where to hide.

but dont tell me to believe.

in myself.

in you.

in anyone.

LIES LIES LIES LIES

Trying to keep up but i'm lost in LIES.
Trying to breathe but im choking on LIES.
They tell nothing but LIES.
They are nothing but LIES.
This whole life. It's a bloody LIE.

PROMISES are all LIES.

its better not to believe in LIES,
and hold on to empty hope.

just want to STAB STAB STAB STAB something now.
I feel like exploding. Just want to Die right now.

I dont even know why its feeling so bad.
why the blardy hell do i feel so lousy.
maybe im just mad.
maybe its just for this moment.
yea.
hope it passes soon.
or is it because its been going on too long?

jiasheng says:
wads that monkey???
.shyt by any other name. .is still shyt. says:
what monkey?
.shyt by any other name. .is still shyt. says:
my dp arh
.shyt by any other name. .is still shyt. says:
its my pet monkey
jiasheng sent 9/17/2007 8:38 PM:
ah??
jiasheng sent 9/17/2007 8:38 PM:
really ah?
.shyt by any other name. .is still shyt. says:
yea!
jiasheng says:
u keep it in ur house??
.shyt by any other name. .is still shyt. says:
no la i send it to the zoo
jiasheng says:
ahhhh????
jiasheng says:
im confused..
jiasheng says:
why its ur pet monkey?? u buy it??
.shyt by any other name. .is still shyt. says:
yea
jiasheng sent 9/17/2007 8:42 PM:
monkey can buy one ah??
.shyt by any other name. .is still shyt. says:
no la catch one
.shyt by any other name. .is still shyt. says:
it was running around
.shyt by any other name. .is still shyt. says:
so we catch it and send it to the zoo
jiasheng says:
how long u keep it??
.shyt by any other name. .is still shyt. says:
like 1 day only la
.shyt by any other name. .is still shyt. says:
cannot keep this kind of stuff what
jiasheng says:
haha
jiasheng says:
why cannot ~ so funny little monkey~~~
jiasheng says:
not hard to feed wad
.shyt by any other name. .is still shyt. says:
no la, they dont allow people to keep monkeys in the house la aiyo
jiasheng sent 9/17/2007 8:47 PM:
chey~~~~ one day u cannot call it pet la~
.shyt by any other name. .is still shyt. says:
ey still counted ok
jiasheng says:
one day pet~~~

cool right lol

pizza hut is nice nice nice nice nice nice nice

and i dunno what homework we have to do.

help.

other than chem proj, geog essay, mi proj, physics thing, chinese testpapers, chem w/s, study bio what other homework is thereeeeeeeeee...

is there math?

he would never hear you cry
even to the point where your tears run dry
red eyes red hands red feet red knives
even some husbands can forget their wives
what makes you think that he won't forget you
just because you feel that this love is true
pain can never be mistaken
in the eyes of the heart broken
breathe while you can
this is soon gonna end...

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say hello to my new layout.

i finished the last kinder bueno today.

my sister made me a small wallet thing. uh. but i had to pay her for the materials. the inside is hedgehog cloth and the outside is elephant cloth. she bought the cloth from overseas.





















love pigeons.

flooded school








fudi penguin attack








clones








act cute clones

















someone outside the staff room. guess who.








eating
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furious eating
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nothing

...

again and again..

and again..

and again.

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if there were two ways to go and a river..

which way to go?

just go to the river and jump in..

and maybe feel better..

how to pretend..

everything from inside spilling out..

sucking it back in...

its hard..

but its not a choice...

its an instinct.

so often been done..

theres no need to think anymore..

when will it stop?

it wont..

cuz it cant anymore..

mixing up the feelings
inside
sour
bitter
makes a taste
of...

blood in our hands.

. 夏祭り. Japanese Summer Festival 2007 .

game stalls



















balloon yoyos









bal loon inside balloon yoyo ^










fishing for balloons ^









candy tang yuan thing








food stalls

fishing for goldfish ^
















stressed goldfish ^

pokemon mask ^

















portrait drawing ^

bags of goldfish hung on statue







sausage

i realised that im quite accident prone recently.

first: last monday xr supposedly tripped me during PE bball [although i thought i felt some force on my back]. Anyway i knew i was gonna fall but i didnt wanna scrape my knee so i stopped myself from skidding when i fell and took all the force on one knee.so yea it changed to a different colour everyday.

second: thursday PT capt ball. The moment i got the ball, some mad ravaging creature came crashing down on me. I dont actually know what happened but the nxt moment, the ball was gone and i felt this pain in my finger. So i looked at it, and it was bleeding. So i was wondering, why is it bleeding above the nail and below the nail. So i went to wash it and realised my nail got cracked down to the center and in addition to that, the ravaging monster scratched a piece of skin off the same finger near the nail. sigh. such violence.

third: played some bball after school. Supposed to be a calm and conserved game between me, nicole and ai lin. Unfortunately, strange monstrous creatures came along and decided to play a match. When hanq had the ball, i thought he was gonna pass it to nicole since he was on her team, so i didnt expect it when it came flying into my face. BISH. felt like someone punched me man. i have no idea what he meant to do. maybe its some secret tactic? argg..

yea.

Let's start with the better things in life:











Cute dogs




And then the not so nice things:










Se face.

Fudi advertising for diapers.







Se face doing weird stuff.











CS when he heard about nike burgers.

xiurong gave me a purple/grey/blue knee today Y_Y.

she owes me a boiled egg.

rahhhh... pain...




training today was super crap!

Wake to greet the early morn
Come sweeping through the clouds adorned
With silver lace and white surface
The angels blow their crystal horns
Wake dreamers from their silent nights
Realization bites. From great heights
The eagle cries, "hold on, hold on."
For when its bleak theres hope in hoping
But we try coping and we confuse
Come mellow sounds from winter bells
And sorrows bleed profuse.



walawala.