Random Post of a Random Random Thing

Today, i wanted to eat chicken rice cuz honey also ate that. And the chicken rice that i was eating came with a soup. And the soup was steaming. But it wasn't hot. Isnt that strange? It was even less than warm. Like, semi-warm, almost cold, barely hot. But it was still steaming. How, why, when, does that happen?

This world is indeed intriguing.

After using bodyshop's rainforest hair moisture butter, i feel like i have just sprung out of the soil and sprouted leaves.

Ah. the smell of nature.

busy life

on the way going home from honeybunches' house~

After returning on the 6th, started working at red mango again on the 8th! sad life man. but hey! just got my pay! but then I went to bodyshop, and now I'm semi-poor again. but it's okay! definitely have enough to survive till the next pay! cept need to put aside amounts to pay back mami for sponsoring my trip in advance! and then save again for visit Niew round 2! what a busy life, I already have a future plan! for, my fun future.. ignoring the serious part of it.

I need a financial manager!!

things to do in the near future: charge camera, post more holiday photos! whee~

BACK FROM PARIS!!/ NETHERLANDS!!

will post about it soon.

in the meantime. i have HIVES on one arm. and i have no idea why. They look gross.

ugh.

City of Love

Off to Paris in a few hours!!!

and recover well honeybunches of oats!!

Finally

I have finally replaced the layout with something i randomly drew today!

whoohoo.

The Merlion Hotel

Exams finally ended and holidays have come around and I've finally done something holiday-like.

One of my sister's friends booked the Merlion hotel for a night and invited a bunch of us to go down and experience it! So we went there at night and this is what the entrance looks like:

So it's basically this red box built around the Merlion's head.

The tiny little balcony in the hotel has an awesome waterfront view. But actually it probably looks equally awesome from outside the room. We managed to watch the laser show, which was quite pathetic. Zap here Zap there twirl around a bit :/ Musical fountain better. The music was quite soft also, like when i was on pulau ubin for OBS and hearing party music coming from Malaysia in the dead of the night kind of soft.

But the deco inside the room was nice. I like this clock. Like so rustic. And the table is a mirror.

And then the Chinese horses.

And i think this is supposed to be the designer's name. So he put himself on the toilet floor so that one can honor him in the peaceful moments of bathtime.

This is half the room. The wallpaper actually leaves much to be desired. There's sir stamford raffles with really serious wrinkles, chinese boats and temples in red outlines on a maroon background... It's like he was doing an ancient China theme.

This is what we had for dinner. Despite all the interesting decorations available for our inspection and wonderment, being in the room was pretty boring, because there was no TV, or any other form of entertainment and no one brought the usual cards and such. So we talked, ate, and played with the house cat....

Like this.

And this.

We fed it too.

I merely stood on its tail.

And then i was urged to jump off onto the bed...

But anyway, this is the whole crew perched all over the mercat.

And this is a very strange looking, merlion plushie. It looks like an old folk.

And this, is the scene from The Ring.

So anyway the hotel is like a temporary structure so they will tear it down soon, so i'm quite glad that i got the chance to enter this interesting place and touch the Merlion and climb all over it even. Prior to this i hadnt ever even come near this Merlion.

Oh, and the floor boards can be pretty scary cuz if you have one bad tempered guy stamping all over the ground the whole room shakes like the slight tremors from a nearby earthquake.

So thus was a fun evening.

Unfortunately, a tragedy occurred where my sis left her phone in the cab but that will be a story for another day.

red manGO!

starting work starting work~

Someday - Celtic Woman

Someday, when we are wiser
When the world's older
When we have learned
I pray someday we may yet
Live to live and let live

Someday, life will be fairer
Need will be rarer
And greed will not pay
Godspeed, this bright millenia
On it's way, let it come someday

Someday our fight will be won, and
We'll stand in the sun, in
That bright afternoon
'Til then, on days when the sun
Is gone, we'll hang on
If we wish upon the moon

There are some days, dark and bitter
Seems we haven't got a prayer
But a prayer for something better
Is the one thing we all share

Someday, when we are wiser
When the whole world is older
When we have love
And I pray someday we may yet
Live to live and one day, someday
Someday life will be fairer
Need will be rarer
And greed will not pay

Godspeed this bright millenia
Let it come
If we wish upon the moon

One day, someday....soon

Modelling

No, the other kind.

It's when i learn from seeing others' examples. I think that's what opens up my mind the most. The world is not so grey and gloomy. People are not always materialistic and cold and depressed(okay maybe this one isnt so accurate). People can be nice and friendly and happy!

I feel a renewed sense of hope!

I don't want to eat hostel food though. That remains hopeless.

I'm so tired i don't even have energy to use the com.. noooooohhh

Lifespan development part II

more rants.

Infancy and Childhood

Sense of self: This must have began before i said my first word since i remember that scene well. Supposedly around 18months.

By age 2 we start to understand performance standards, have guilt and shame.

We develop emotional competence, emotional regulation. Our initial emotions come from social referencing, seeing how adults express their emotions to guide our own.

personality development: infant temperament(tends to persist throughout life. 1. easy baby 2. difficult baby 3. slow to warm up baby) I think i was a difficult baby. Mother says i cry the moment the sky turns dark. My behavioural inhibition was prob high. this persists into childhood.

Erickson's psychosocial theory states that personality develops through confronting a series of 8 steps.

Social development and attachment:

newborns are predisposed to react to people, esp those communicating with them. They can have periodicity or burst-pause behaviour, which creates their prelinguistic conversations.

Attachment: strong emotional bond develops between child and primary caregiver(sensitive period). Stages- indiscriminate, discriminate, specific, goal corrected and lessoning. As the stages progress, 2 kinds of anxiety emerges- stranger and separation

Types: anxious, anxious-avoidant, securely attached.

Attachment across lifespan is when children develop an internal working model of attachment based on parents. Adult attachment types: autonomous, dismissive, enmeshed, unresolved.

Attachment deprivation: affects social relationships later on in life.

Styles of parenting: authoritative(best kind), authoritarian, indulgent, neglectful.

Moral development: types of moral thinking (pre-conventional- anticipated punishments or rewards, conventional-societal laws, post conventional-taking individual rights into consideration)

Conscience: restrains ppl from socially destructive behaviours

Emotional social dev in adolescence: IDENTITY identify diffusion, foreclosure, moratorium, identity achievement. I think i am in foreclosure. committed to a set of values but not yet exp identity crisis

In adulthood: isolation vs intimacy, generativity vs stagnation, integrity vs despair

In oldage: death and dying stages(denial, anger, bargaining, depression, acceptance)

Training Psychology

Well actually no. I just spent my 1 hour train ride studying psychology notes thus the title. And im just gonna ramble on whatever i remember what i wrote so it's gonna be incoherent and nonsensical.

Lifespan development, Physical and Cognitive:

research designs: sequential(combination), longitudinal(same ppl at diff ages), cross-sectional(diff age groups, same time)

Issues: Stability vs Instability, Continuity vs discontinuity, Nurture vs Nature, Critical and sensitive periods

Pre-Natal Development: 3 stages (Germinal, embryonic, foetal), teratogens

Infancy and Childhood: Newborn (reflexes and learning, sensory capabilities, visual habituation, perceptual development-perceptual narrowing, localize touch sensations)

Physical development: Motor development (cephalocaudal trajectory, proximodistal trajectory)

Brain (vital portions first then frontal lobe)

Environment and Cultural issues(enriched better, physical touch, biology limits environment influence)

Cognitive development: Piaget's stage model (sensorimotor, pre-operational, concrete operational, formal operational), young infant's understanding of physical world(violation of expectation expt), Vygotsky's approach(development driven by biological and sociocultural imput.)

Info processing approaches: theory of the mind, STM LTM, Information search strategies, processing speed and attention span, memory language and metacognition

Adolescence: puberty, brain restructuring neural circuits, egocentrism(personal fable, imaginary audience), formal operational thinking

Adulthood: lower answering for more accuracy, growth of wisdom(knowledge about human nature and social r/s, decision making strategies, handling conflicts)

Aiya okay la. I didnt actually pull this all out from memory, otherwise don't need to study liao lor! Kept referring. BAD BAD BAD!! OFF TO MEMORISE MORE!!!

Dream Speak

I decided to write the small part of the dream i had this morning which i remember. sadly i only remember that small part.

It's kind of freaky.

I dreamt that everyone of us, who was there in a class, had to drink a spoonful of blood from another person. And you could only drink one spoonful from a certain one person, no more. But it wasn't so gross cuz the blood really looked just like ribena. It wasn't thick or bright red like how i imagine fresh blood would be, but it was watery and diluted and darker, though i'm pretty sure in my dream it was intended to have come straight from the person without any processing.

Unfortunately i don't remember what it was for!!

Arg. Should have tried to remember just when i woke up before it all faded away into dusty dizzy nothingness of the morning.

What would Freud have to say about this snapshot of a dream?

Born a Petite

just randomly realised that born a petite sounds like bonappetite. a nice play on words since i am exactly such.

okay bye

Accompanying Accomplishments

yay! just spent 4 hours and 20minutes summarising ONE chapter of the psychology textbook. Hooray! What an achievement! That's 4.5minutes per page and it seems long but when i was doing i felt like i was going as fast as i could already. scribbling away in ants handwriting, resisting all the temptations to sleep or wander off into another realm!

But on a sadder note, that's merely one chapter. And i dont even know if i can remember most of the stuff i scribbled. But nvm, that's a problem for later.

Yesterday i did two chapters with the great encouragement of my honeybunches of oats and also a funny encounter with a kid in the library, whose mother sent him over to see the "studying jiejie". So strange! So random! The mother just asked him to come over and so he did, and i really wanted to poke him in the stomach, so i did, and then he poked himself and laughed! So funny was he. Then i showed him how to cap and uncap a pen which he thoroughly enjoyed, and gave him paper to scribble all over, but he reached for my textbook and my notes sometimes. And when his mother called him away to stop disturbing me anymore, he was super sad! He went and emoed with his face in her leg! So she let him come back and he scribbled more and finally when he started drawing on the table his mother hurriedly swept him away to go walk around outside.

So with cheerful goodbyes, we parted company. He looked especially cute cuz he had fallen down in the morning, according to his mother, and his lip was swollen a little so he had a constant pout. It's not sadistic or anything but he really looked like a little duckling.

I also ate the blueberry pancakes KFC breakfast and it was very very nice! Yes it was very very ex as well, but at least they didnt just give like 3 blueberries in the pancakes or sth. The blueberries were evenly interspersed throughout the pancakes and the scrambled egg was really tasty and soft and delightful and sunshine yellow. I probably need to eat macs scrambled eggs and kfc scrambled eggs to compare for sure which is better, but for now i shall shallowly claim KFC's is better cuz their pancakes are awesome.

Yesterday i also got another hat for keeping warm in paris and a scarf, hopefully that will also be helpful. Yes, it was a day of many accomplishments and happy memories that one shall keep for a long long time and forever after.

Now is a much earned slacking time which i shall spend planning a paris packing list!

C:

The Sem will soon End

The semester is coming to an end.

I just got back a CA mark today and it was perfectly acceptable to me, i had already expected that mark since out of the two 10-mark questions, i only knew 1 for sure! In fact, i got higher than what i expected to get so i was happy enough! Plus those noisy chirping guys sitting behind me had around the same marks, it wasnt hard to amass from the amount of tweetering pouring out their beaks, so i felt better that they werent just talking cuz they were smart.

BUT. When prof went through the question that only 5/200 people got correct, a dark veil fell over the happy parts of my mind, i tripped and toppled head first into the abyss of SAD. WHy?? Because i had the right idea! But i had to go and scribble it off and change to another explanation that I myself do not understand what i was thinking at that moment. If i had not left my right idea there it would have been better. Then it wouldnt be staring at me behind those crooked lines, laughing in my face and at my stupidity. At that moment i wish i never even got close, then i wouldnt feel so bad about losing all those marks!! But no! I had to be close!

But i do realise now that it's better to have ever thought of the idea than to have never thought of it at all. At least i made it halfway there. Though being scribbled off, it contributed to my marks naught at all.

It's just like how when i want to do laundry i have only 4 out of the 5 twenty cents needed. And many other examples that my tired mind has blocked out. Things are always SO close. But its the either you get it or not kind of closeness, not the 4 20cents gets you half a laundry wash kind of closeness. Ugh.

BUT ON A HAPPIER NOTE, as i always try to make things into, I FOUND AN INGENIOUS WAY OF HANGING SOYABEAN'S WATERBOTTLE! See, the bottle keeps falling no matter how many adhesives i paste and no matter what other lame sticking method i try to make it stay. Since soyabean's cage has no grills and i cant just poke the holder through the grill. And i also didnt bring the container, that is his cage, home so i didnt have holes drills to thread wires through to hold the bottle there. But AH HAH. There is still another way!! I used the tunnel bridge that soyabean doesnt play with and it's made of wood and has several large holes through its trunk. I poked the bottle mouth through one of the holes and stood the tunnel on its open end and wa la!! A waterbottle stand!! And it's very stable cuz the wood is pretty thick. YES. i did not waste my $11 on this wooden ignored toy for nothing!!

WA HA HA i laugh in the face of all adversity!!!

okay no i don't. But it's a good way to face life in a positive way.

the sky is streaks of dark and light
and in this rain I stand and fight
what matters most, with greater might
stabs the heart, blurs my sight..
I plead that you withhold your words
they cut like freshly welded swords...
I only fight because I feel
the words are what I want to kill..

Pasir ris? No sir, it's Paris

i have failed to keep to my plan of saving $100 a month. But now im more determined than ever! Just that it always seems to end up failing. This week i shall try my very hardest to spend the minimal amount! All these to save for my very budget trip to visit Niewtums in the far away land of pompousness.

That means i must resist all temptation to buy unnecessary things and only spend on food and only food! And all food must be cai fan and as far as possible, from arts canteen where things are especially cheap despite being nice.

One shall stay determined and hopeful!

And one shall study hard!!!

i wanna remember uni life as happy times with friends.

not sad times with results.

today i ate the new macs salad thing. ITS SO SMALL. only the container is big, and that is very sad. No matter how small one is, one does need to eat some substantial amount of food!!

The chicken is tiny. The veggies are sparse. The only thing there's a lot of, is sauce.

Whoohoo. And it's 5.65!! I decided to be the guinea pig and try it for my friends.

IM HUNGRY NOW!!

my eyelashes keep painting my specs.. arggg