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yay! no more common tests for meee...

anyway since i have barred myself from the com for a week, i shall write about how the week went.

On sunday, to start off, my nose was running like a cheetah [oh wait this is kinda a wrong comparison since cheetah's lack stamina but my nose sure ran like a marathon runner]. Just kept running and running the whole day non stop. I used up sooo much tissue. Lazy to keep walking to the dustbin to throw tissue away so i just had a plastic bag beside me and it was fulll of tissue. This was the only day in the whole holiday i studied more than 4 hours [cuz on other days i kept falling asleep], since the studying was just annotating of Great Expectations and i had to finish it or be doomed.

Monday however, my nose didnt run anymore. Went for KI paper, which was pretty slack. My handwriting was so NICE and BIG for section A but small and crappy for section C cuz i forgot to write bigger to be able to gauge how many words to write. And also because i wasnt sure what to write... supposed to assess the argument, but didnt have many points to say about it.

Tuesday was chem and lit. Chem, a total disaster. A sure fail. Even heard this guy say wa study like never study like that, sure fail lo. But it wasnt supposed to be hard, i just really suck at chem... probably getting 30 or so out of 100.

Lit was alright. I liked the poem. About a jaguar. Didnt bother reading the other poem. My handwriting for lit was soooo spaced out it was like one-finger spacing between the letters man. Because during one of the lectures it was mentioned that average handwriting is 8 words per line, so i tried doing that but it still ended up around 12 words a line. M y w o r d s l o o k e d l i k e t h i s. Really! Wrote around 1200 worth of crapping for each.

Mathh on wednesdayyyy.. my first 3 hour paper of the common test. Ahhh the paper wasnt hard.. i made some stupid careless mistakes.. that cost A LOT of marks!! eek. I cant live up to those GREAT EXPECTATIONS!! > <>

Anyway i celebrated the end of my exam with a Burger King Milo.

Yay. What a not so epic week. But i had epic dreams. I forgot the actual content but my dream this morning was sweeny todd-esque. It had a guy that looked like johnny depp in it, with the eye shadow and mascara and pale complexion and black skinny clothings get up kind. Also had a girl character, similar, but with rags and layers of plaid and cloth with picha-ded[this is not a real word] ends with threads handing down and coarse and common boots[too much lit]. Messy hair. They really looked like characters from a crooked fairy tale. Then there was a part where i dreamt i had a hamster. And since in real life i didnt feed no hamster, in my dream i was like SHYT! I DIDNT FEED THE HAMSTER! so i went and took it out. There were two of them, but one hamster had a tail like a mouse.. i took it to the kitchen sink at home, to bathe it!! Rubbed green apple soap on its back.. remember seeing it almost fall into the sea [though there was no sea] But it slowly stiffened and died.. Yes it did. And its tail was swollen because i didnt feed it!! What is this ominous foreboding?? Ok, dont wanna think so much. Better do the bio quiz on km..

sigh... i need a new brain. wish i could buy one from a roadside stall. i wonder if brains have emotions without a heart.

This is from my heart. When you say that what exactly is it thats from your heart? Are feelings from the heart? I think the only feeling in a heart is when you get a heartattack. That sour feeling you get when its a so called heartache, feels more like a stomach malfunction. Or an expiring rib cage. I really am talking crap though, so dont take any of these to heart? C; what a pun... Take it to the brain man..

Was so hungry after pt today, but xr didnt wanna go with me to satisfy my mcflurry craving so i got one from bedok interchange. It went down like a thin, dried snowflake. I felt like i hadnt even tasted it and it was gone. I couldnt taste it, it just kept going down my throat. And just felt cold.

food food food food food....

im so packed with things on thurs from 8-1 and friday from 8-3. maybe i will faint and die? ahh, they wont let me off so easy...

say what you need to say.. say what you need to say... say what you need to say... the john mayer song playing right now keeps saying that. even if your hands are shakin.. He thinks its so easy. And your faith is broken...

say what you need to say... say what you need to say... blah blah blah you know what line comes next...

wow the pencil just stopped short.

Right there.

Couldnt get it to touch the paper. My inspiration wont spill out. But anyway the ideas in my head could just be some consolation prize. If you get what i mean. But i bet you dont. ahaha.

shyt. no inspiration.

nvm. Moosic music music.
i gotta pick me up when im downnn.. i dont know when i got bitter.. love is surely better when its gone...

yay i have worked my primitive brain today. Math math math math. I still dont feel fulfilled though, only cuz i still think i havent learnt anything more. Whoohoo! I wanna live in my primitive world with my primitive mind, and only know the most primitive thing.

The most primitive thoughts could still keep a person alive no?

bloody hell la all you idiot people in the world please just get sucked up by a large vacuum cleaner and disposed off into another universe please.

i hate this dam pollution.

why are some people in this world so evil and act smart!! and scheming!!!

like mr high!!!
grrrr so pissing off. this kind of crappy unhelpful uncooperative unreasonable unwanted people should just be shot right in the eyeball!!

walaoZ. Think we wanna use your car on purpose think your car very nice meh?!?! Got transformer sticker doesnt mean is really transformer okay!!! Got no car then dont use your car la! Not like youre the only human bean with a CAR. Obviously we will be able to find other people with cars AND other people who are MUCH MORE helpful and understanding.

HMPH. dont want to fetch dont fetch la! Dont have to say tell the others not to help us fetch it also right. So toot. use your brain a bit la... who is so dumb to take public transport to carry 6kg when you have car?? Like who will go carry a bag on a stick and trudge your way to the next village when you have trains.

pampered what pampered lor. You think the whole world wanna take advantage of you, so ego for what.

do you like my strawberry tartlet?

Baked on election day.

haha. its mayonnaise surrounding chilli sauce. I made it to dip my fries. Nice right?

yay im back to the real worldd.

uh. whats the real world.. my world is just shooting and study shooting and study. It has always been this real. The camp just felt like going to another planet but still doing the same thing. Back to my own planet now. The planet where maybe i can fall asleep.

I like to twist and turn in bed. I just cant lie there and fall asleep. :C This is like gonna be detrimental lor. I keep turning from this side, that side, facing this direction, that direction. Sometimes when i really cant sleep i just sit up.

Wow if i had to share a bed with someone i think i'll irritate someone to the ends of the earth okay. [Like i used to kick my sis all the time by accident without knowing.]

How to not move at all and just lie there and fall asleep? My body is acting out my turbulent mind. And then there are the dreams, that make me feel like i never slept. Oh i keep dreaming about scenes in the shooting range.

sigh. i need to sleep. Haha <-- this laughter is out of place.

Shall we run from this world?
Touch the nightsky filled with pearls.
In your eyes burning bright,
there's a secret we hold tight, as we
escape with our masks,
Rendezvous in the Night.
Climb our way to the stars, oh if we could
Reach those heights,
swing back and forth on threads of cloud,
shout our worries, lost in doubt.
Blink the tears out from our eyes,
for the Moon's our alibi.
We could be so alone, but
We could feel so alive.
You and me, just slumbering in the other's company,
Freed from the world's mess and misery,
Finally.

ha.