pain.

all im feeling is pain.

these feelings supressed.

will maybe keep me safe for one day.

tomorrow might change.

but probably not.

hearts cant stay the same.

after too long.

they're sure to go insane.

blame it on myself.

for choosing it to be this way.

cant believe in nothing.

cant believe in something.

cant believe in everything.

cant believe in anything.

cant be me.

cant be myself.

dont know who i am.

tell me where to run.

tell me where to hide.

but dont tell me to believe.

in myself.

in you.

in anyone.

LIES LIES LIES LIES

Trying to keep up but i'm lost in LIES.
Trying to breathe but im choking on LIES.
They tell nothing but LIES.
They are nothing but LIES.
This whole life. It's a bloody LIE.

PROMISES are all LIES.

its better not to believe in LIES,
and hold on to empty hope.

just want to STAB STAB STAB STAB something now.
I feel like exploding. Just want to Die right now.

I dont even know why its feeling so bad.
why the blardy hell do i feel so lousy.
maybe im just mad.
maybe its just for this moment.
yea.
hope it passes soon.
or is it because its been going on too long?

jiasheng says:
wads that monkey???
.shyt by any other name. .is still shyt. says:
what monkey?
.shyt by any other name. .is still shyt. says:
my dp arh
.shyt by any other name. .is still shyt. says:
its my pet monkey
jiasheng sent 9/17/2007 8:38 PM:
ah??
jiasheng sent 9/17/2007 8:38 PM:
really ah?
.shyt by any other name. .is still shyt. says:
yea!
jiasheng says:
u keep it in ur house??
.shyt by any other name. .is still shyt. says:
no la i send it to the zoo
jiasheng says:
ahhhh????
jiasheng says:
im confused..
jiasheng says:
why its ur pet monkey?? u buy it??
.shyt by any other name. .is still shyt. says:
yea
jiasheng sent 9/17/2007 8:42 PM:
monkey can buy one ah??
.shyt by any other name. .is still shyt. says:
no la catch one
.shyt by any other name. .is still shyt. says:
it was running around
.shyt by any other name. .is still shyt. says:
so we catch it and send it to the zoo
jiasheng says:
how long u keep it??
.shyt by any other name. .is still shyt. says:
like 1 day only la
.shyt by any other name. .is still shyt. says:
cannot keep this kind of stuff what
jiasheng says:
haha
jiasheng says:
why cannot ~ so funny little monkey~~~
jiasheng says:
not hard to feed wad
.shyt by any other name. .is still shyt. says:
no la, they dont allow people to keep monkeys in the house la aiyo
jiasheng sent 9/17/2007 8:47 PM:
chey~~~~ one day u cannot call it pet la~
.shyt by any other name. .is still shyt. says:
ey still counted ok
jiasheng says:
one day pet~~~

cool right lol

pizza hut is nice nice nice nice nice nice nice

and i dunno what homework we have to do.

help.

other than chem proj, geog essay, mi proj, physics thing, chinese testpapers, chem w/s, study bio what other homework is thereeeeeeeeee...

is there math?

he would never hear you cry
even to the point where your tears run dry
red eyes red hands red feet red knives
even some husbands can forget their wives
what makes you think that he won't forget you
just because you feel that this love is true
pain can never be mistaken
in the eyes of the heart broken
breathe while you can
this is soon gonna end...

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say hello to my new layout.

i finished the last kinder bueno today.

my sister made me a small wallet thing. uh. but i had to pay her for the materials. the inside is hedgehog cloth and the outside is elephant cloth. she bought the cloth from overseas.





















love pigeons.