to Mr Nobody:
this is the hand I've always known
the hand that I should always hold
this is the hand that comforts me
Truly, you are Nobody.
it's by this hand that I can see
a future that holds you and me
together we could walk for miles
and never hope to see the end
to me you are the perfect one
let's walk the miles now hand in hand
and never see the dark again
for though I thought we weren't to be
fate and luck brought me to find
mine in yours and yours in mine.

Changed to a shinier, happier layout for positive energy.

dreamscape or mistake?

this morning i dreamt that i didnt sleep! I mean, i felt like i totally didnt get to sleep, but yet i was dreaming, so i must have slept.

I DREAMT SOMEONE TRIED TO OPEN MY ROOM DOOR! so freaky... thank goodness i latched it cuz... WHAT IF I WASNT DREAMING?? cuz i really cant tell if i was or wasnt at that point. But who would randomly try to open my room door??? I clearly saw my door being nudged open, a stream of light trickle in, then some resistance, and close again. Needless to say, it was terrifying. But yet i lay on my bed doing nothing. Perhaps frozen with fear i don't know. Or maybe some part of my head knew it wasnt real.

And then i dreamt someone sneaked 2 hamsters into my room! And 2 puppies! At first i only saw 1 hamster, and then there was another! And they were in an unfamiliar container with a red cover so i exclaimed that the container didnt even belong to me! And then one puppy and another appeared and they were white miniature poodles. And one male one female (same with the hamsters) so i was like, crap! they're gonna reproduce! How am i gonna get these puppies out of my room without anyone seeing them!

So that's about it that i remember for my dream. I got up, realised i had been dreaming, yet all the while thinking in my head: when am i ever gonna fall asleep?

but a good thing that will happen this week is... I'm gonna finish all the 12 credits i have to fulfill for participating in psychology studies within this week!! WAHAHAHA. By participating in about 2-3 studies in a stretch, it's all over very fast, doesn't take up too much time, and makes me happy. I can thus concentrate on other things!! Like memorising the 700 page textbook.

Sigh.To erase that sigh i have a bright yellow shiny happy picture to raise my spirits!

i had a dream again as usual. this time it was more memorable thus i can write about it.

I dreamt that a bunch of us were being chased, and the people were scary, dangerous, whatever they were, we had to get away. At first when they chased us they injured a few of us and i got stabbed in the leg. When we got away from that, i rmbr running into a house with the other ppl, and we were scrambling to find somewhere to hide cuz the evil people were gonna catch up soon. We grabbed some weapons from the kitchen first, some knives, sticks etc etc. One of the people led us into this basement place with a lot of piping and stuff and said there were little holes, outlets where we could escape. So i went down to check it out and i was like, these holes are too small!! No one's gonna fit in them. So i searched around and saw a metal rung ladder leading upwards. So we decided to climb that. We climbed and and climbed until we got to the outside and somehow we were safe there. Throughout the whole dream i could feel it hurting where i was stabbed and always looked down to see blood leaking out of it and we couldnt stop to do anything about it.

The end.

As usual also, i forget much of the details.

hm? did the second week of school just end?

Feels like the first and second week just merged and I cant differentiate what i learnt in which week.

Time passes so fast sometimes but other times it feels like 1 day was spread over 2 days but it was really just 1 day if you stopped to think about it and nowadays i can't tell the days apart anymore.

I am having a long weekend but I feel barely a thread of freedom...

Things to do in the coming week or for the coming week:

1. get psychology textbook (by tues) XDONE

2. memorise chapters covered in psyc textbook (chap 4n5)

2. memorise words in japanese textbook for lesson 14-16 (by tues)

3. proposal for change in lab procedure(by sunday 2359) XDONE

4. tutorial questions for biochem (by fri)

5. watch webcast for math of games lecture (by tues)

6. After tuesday, jap lecture homework n lesson 16 homework. (by tues after next)

7. After friday, lab report (by fri after next)

8. Attend various psych studies signed up for (mon, tues, thurs)

etc etc etc... this carries on in a vicious cycle...

zzz zzz zzz

On another note, pineapple tart making today was very successful(albeit very sleep inducing)! Tastes undeniably multiples of times better than those selling outside...

i itch for a switch

okay i changed my template. It's a drastic change from the dreamy old melty sleepy one to this dark and ominous one... reflects my dark and ominous uni life.

why doth thou decideth to change ith?

well i just thought it'd be around the time to do so. first time since the creation of this blog that im using a default template... will prob change the background to something of my own (when i have the time) cuz i prefer it that way.

Anyhow if all goes wrong! I still have my old template in notepad so there.

where to find this thing called time?

And finally for a moment i have some of my own.

schoolwork is piling up,

its piling up high,

try to keep the level low but

My Oh My.

more and more assignments

less and less excitement

everything just seems like an

End

Less

Dream.

so, ya, bean

So! The first week of school is over. And it has been half interesting, and half uninteresting. My last week of holidays, highlight: kite flying with wenying! First time kite flying, not to be the last! Awesome fun, even if it was in the middle of a drizzle that gradually became a rainstorm. I wanna go kiteflying again!!

Anyway the main point of this post is... i got my new companion after much consideration! He is bigger than i expected at 8 weeks old. Here is a little information about him:

Name: Soyabean

Breed: long-haired Syrian

Birthday: 1 Dec 2010

Colour: Pretty much beige though he was supposed to be grey

Size: About the size of the palm of my hand

Temperament: Cautious

Diet: Peanut, strawberry cream hamster biscuit, sunflower seeds

He doesnt really eat anything else apart from the above mentioned. He ignores fruits and all the other bits in the hamster food. He eats a little bread but negligible. I guess he's still a baby and still learning. Soyabean is expensive!! He cost a lot in food and housing... here's a breakdown:

Soyabean himself: $28

House: $8.90(too small!!) new house: $26.90

waterbottle: $4.50

adhesive-backed velcro for pasting bottle in cage: $6.35 (got ripped off stupid homefix)

running wheel: $9.95

hammie hideyhole: $7.40

mineral chewing banana: $3.10

absorbent bedding: a blood-sucking $17

food: $5+ (strawberry biscuit), $2.35 (dried mealworms), $4+?(yoghurt drops which he doesnt even eat, but good thing fatty and hit eats it)

That adds up to $123.46!!! (wa almost 12345) Luckily i have the goodness of mother and honeybun to help me pay most of the cost. I only paid for soyabean himself and some of his food... and he is still refusing to be sociable. I'm leaving him alone to settle in for now...

School is crap. Lab report within the first week of school is not fun. Especially when you don't know half of what youre doing. Math of games is interesting though. Japanese is going to kill me. Psychology is turning out to be a killer (must take part in research studies as research subjects??They think we so free arh... lab already takes up 3-4 hours each time...). The life science modules this sem are all so chem that they suck many. Ugh. Shall look up to the stars and hope for a better day...

Random fun thing

The BBC believes most people will have read only 6 of the 100 books listed here. Instructions: Bold those books you’ve read in their entirety, italicize the ones you started but didn’t finish or read an excerpt (or those that you read the kids’ version of).

1 Pride and Prejudice – Jane Austen

2 The Lord of the Rings – JRR Tolkien (i even read the poems lor)

3 Jane Eyre – Charlotte Bronte (fav book when kid, no idea why)

4 Harry Potter series – JK Rowling (never. going. near.)

5 To Kill a Mockingbird – Harper Lee (becuz of school)

6 The Bible (must have read excerpts somewhere along going to christian schools for 6 years?)

8 Nineteen Eighty Four – George Orwell

9 His Dark Materials – Philip Pullman

10 Great Expectations – Charles Dickens (forced.)

11 Little Women – Louisa M Alcott (so long ago i don't even remember what its about)

12 Tess of the D’Urbervilles – Thomas Hardy (reminds me of hound of the baskervilles)

13 Catch 22 – Joseph Heller

14 Complete Works of Shakespeare (I'll go mad before i complete the complete works)

15 Rebecca – Daphne Du Maurier

16 The Hobbit – JRR Tolkien

17 Birdsong – Sebastian Faulks

18 Catcher in the Rye – JD Salinger

19 The Time Traveller’s Wife – Audrey Niffenegger

20 Middlemarch – George Eliot

21 Gone With The Wind – Margaret Mitchell

22 The Great Gatsby – F Scott Fitzgerald

23 Bleak House – Charles Dickens

24 War and Peace – Leo Tolstoy

25 The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy – Douglas Adams

26 Brideshead Revisited – Evelyn Waugh

27 Crime and Punishment – Fyodor Dostoyevsky

28 Grapes of Wrath – John Steinbeck

29 Alice in Wonderland – Lewis Carroll (scarily thick book of the old)

30 The Wind in the Willows – Kenneth Grahame (frigtening frogs and badgers. scene of the lake haunts me)

31 Anna Karenina – Leo Tolstoy

32 David Copperfield – Charles Dickens (thought it was about the magician :X)

33 Chronicles of Narnia – CS Lewis (more childhood stories)

34 Emma – Jane Austen

35 Persuasion – Jane Austen

36 The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe – CS Lewis (thanks to dad's magical childhood reads)

37 The Kite Runner – Khaled Hosseini

38 Captain Corelli’s Mandolin – Louis De Berniere

39 Winnie the Pooh – AA Milne (thanks to niewtums for snitching it from her sch lib which was gonna throw away their old books!! and giving it to me as a birthday present)

41 Animal Farm – George Orwell (forced by school)

42 The Da Vinci Code – Dan Brown (cuz i couldnt watch the movie)

43 One Hundred Years of Solitude – Gabriel Garcia Marquez

44 A Prayer for Owen Meaney – John Irving

45 The Woman in White – Wilkie Collins

46 Anne of Green Gables – LM Montgomery

47 Far From The Madding Crowd – Thomas Hardy

48 The Handmaid’s Tale – Margaret Atwood

49 Lord of the Flies – William Golding

50 Atonement – Ian McEwan (watched movie counted?)

51 Life of Pi – Yann Martel

52 Dune – Frank Herbert

53 Cold Comfort Farm – Stella Gibbons

54 Sense and Sensibility – Jane Austen

55 A Suitable Boy – Vikram Seth

56 The Shadow of the Wind – Carlos Ruiz Zafon

57 A Tale Of Two Cities – Charles Dickens

58 Brave New World – Aldous Huxley

59 The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time – Mark Haddon (awesome)

60 Love In The Time Of Cholera – Gabriel Garcia Marquez

61 Of Mice and Men – John Steinbeck

62 Lolita – Vladimir Nabokov

63 The Secret History – Donna Tartt

64 The Lovely Bones – Alice Sebold (again watched movie counted?)

65 Count of Monte Cristo – Alexandre Dumas

66 On The Road – Jack Kerouac

67 Jude the Obscure – Thomas Hardy

68 Bridget Jones’s Diary – Helen Fielding

69 Midnight’s Children – Salman Rushdie

70 Moby Dick – Herman Melville

71 Oliver Twist – Charles Dickens

72 Dracula – Bram Stoker

73 The Secret Garden – Frances Hodgson Burnett (wow i just mentioned this to honeybun recently)

74 Notes From A Small Island – Bill Bryson (only read notes from an even smaller island... which is more relevant!)

75 Ulysses – James Joyce

76 The Bell Jar – Sylvia Plath

77 Swallows and Amazons – Arthur Ransome

78 Germinal – Emile Zola

79 Vanity Fair – William Makepeace Thackeray

80 Possession – AS Byatt

81 A Christmas Carol – Charles Dickens

82 Cloud Atlas – David Mitchell

83 The Color Purple – Alice Walker

84 The Remains of the Day – Kazuo Ishiguro

85 Madame Bovary – Gustave Flaubert

86 A Fine Balance – Rohinton Mistry

87 Charlotte’s Web – EB White (childhood book)

88 The Five People You Meet In Heaven – Mitch Albom

89 Adventures of Sherlock Holmes – Sir Arthur Conan Doyle (iphone book)

90 The Faraway Tree Collection – Enid Blyton (must have read some of this)

91 Heart of Darkness – Joseph Conrad

92 The Little Prince – Antoine De Saint-Exupery (fav book now)

93 The Wasp Factory – Iain Banks

94 Watership Down – Richard Adams (attracted by bunnies on the cover)

95 A Confederacy of Dunces – John Kennedy Toole

96 A Town Like Alice – Nevil Shute

97 The Three Musketeers – Alexandre Dumas

98 Hamlet – William Shakespeare

99 Charlie and the Chocolate Factory – Roald Dahl (who won't read this??)

100 Les Miserables – Victor Hugo

Yay! I've read 18 of them. A very meaningful number for me. And considering i hate reading!! And started reading late. i guess its not bad? Though most of the people i know would have read like, twice of what i did -.- Many of the books are right in the bookshelf at home and i have glanced at them but never thought of picking them up or even flipping through them otherwise i would have more italics! I'm just not such a big reader :C I'm trying to improve though, because my vocab is sad and minimal... and my general knowledge? Can be concentrated into one pocky stick. And not the giant kind.

The ones in grey are those i think i want to try reading. And cuz they either have very cute thus appealing titles, are books for children, or I can easily find.

Must. Read. More!

yay yay its new years day

New year was grape! I had a great time with the company of i guess the weirdest but funniest and most entertaining bunch of people i know, and needless to say, my hunnybunny.

I met honeybun for lunch before meeting the rest of the gang and we weren't supposed to eat much but ended up eating macs and it was way too filling... ops. I guess that might have contributed just a little to my negative feelings towards the place we ate at later on. But only juuustt a littleee.... because i really don't think that place was any good! Elaborations below.

the cute crockery may be their saving grace...

and the wallpaper...

It was a japanese buffet place, MOMOYA(cute name, i had high hopes), somewhere in Changi, but it was a buffet where you had to order what you wanted, not the take-whatever-you-want on-your-plate kind of buffet (which i prefer) and the ordering went a little weirdly cuz they put serial numbers for the food, but they don't actually know what serial numbers are for what food :/ They require us to read out the names, which i think was quite lame. So nevermind, let's not be too picky shall we?

cute!

i added a fin to it. jonsung poked the eyes lol

So we ordered sashimi. And well the guys seemed to enjoy it but i thought the maguro was terrible compared to kiseki's. Kiseki's maguro sashimi is just absolutely awesome, and i mean because it has a totally homogenous consistency so it just feels nice and fresh and not squishy and weird. Momoya's maguro sashimi and squishy and chewy.. weird. And i had to discard a part of it i couldnt chew. I don't like sashimi precisely because it tastes weird most of the time, only kiseki makes me want to eat it. So i only ate one piece and was done.

look! the wasabi is a bird and wants to fly away.... now that, was not purposely sculpted!

smoku salmon salada

hi im weird.

The tofu, was just WEIRD. The tofu skin was a layer of melted gummybears wrapped around a block of plain old tofu. Not crispy at all though its under the AGEMONO (fried stuffs) section :C And the sauce didnt do nuthin' to help. Sakae's tofu is way 100% absolutely positively better... The zaru soba, for such a long wait (10minutes??), kiseki's one(instant!) beats it hands down... kiseki's dipping sauce tastes nicer too.

the really soft and chewy soft shell crab handroll...

The tempura was probably the only thing i liked and don't have anything negative to say about. (and sadly only have a blurry photo of that i cant be bothered to put up) Oh and the green tea. Everyone else seemed to love what they were eating though! Good for them! So they ate their fill and i was kinda full to begin with so i didn't have to eat much.

kimchi. not bad! started a very entertaining convo lol.

i dont eat chawanmushi so i have no idea if it was nice. but it always looks cute

and so they ate their fill.

I played monopoly deal for the first time! And was greatly confused at the start but finally understood it later on (kept doing stupid moves too but hey I still won 1 round! And summore won from Joe, the Guy Who Kept Winning. yessssss.. i stole his property wahahhahaha). It's a fun game! But it seems to end really fast, like in 5 turns or something. Or maybe it just felt fast cuz it was fun? And we also saw 2 other groups of people playing it! How cool is that.

We had to move to a strategic position to see fireworks when it was nearing 12 so off we went. It was an experience like never before i must say. Since my new year chinatown visits, i've never had such close contact with such a large bulk of the population in a long time and it sure wasnt pleasant. People were irritating, people were irritable, people were pushy, people were pushed, they were noisy, high, people were just doing whatever they wanted to get their way! And there were SO MANY PEOPLE. And we squeezed! (And were squeezed along) And had a train system so we wouldnt lose each other and i gradually felt the air getting thinner and it was getting harder to breathe and oh my god the smell.........

okay, we finally burst into the open, out of the rampaging crowd, a great boost of energy flooded through our veins and we ran! Oh how we ran to escape from all the fury of the world!! okayokay i'll stop. We ran because it was getting close to the time. And so we proceeded on until we reached a spot below a palm tree that did not sway in the wind sadly. It was such a hot night, the air was so saturated from people's breath i think that's why rain could not fall.

So we waited.

Jonsung n EW started doing a countdown in the middle of the silent crowd and it was.. indescribable? And they did it 3 times!! Gosh, they were so high no one could do anything about it. They shouted at the top of their lungs without a care in the world but at the 3rd attempt, the sky burst into lights as they ended the count! Wala! Good timing there!

Here, some lousy photos of fireworks cuz im too short and my camera is sadly, lousy for this...

bwlaaaaghh. that's what it looks like. fire monster puked.

fttpptt. pouf.

And this one looks like...

this.

Going home was the WORST. i almost got killed by a van according to Joe (i don't know what i was doing actually but i didnt feel a single drop of danger as the van zoomed past me 0.1cm away). Squeeeeezing to get into the MRT... Bian tai people staring at you for god knows why and i swear i was literally carried along for 1 second!!! It was the ultimate man. Those (insert what kind of people you would imagine it to be) were SO inconsiderate and kept squeezing and jumping over the fences like they would die if they didnt get to the mrt faster?? I don't understand why they have to do that. come on man. And some retards pushing from the back non-stop until my body is going further than my legs and i'm like oh shyt im gonna lose balance soon but thankfully some shouting helped to slow things down. The poor lady on duty holding the sign was practically voiceless. Her voice was gone. Like pooff! Gone. And yet she still had to yell to keep everyone under control.. oh man poor lady..

Once we got into the mrt station, the coast was clear and we were freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeedd... liberated!!! i couldnt have been more relieved...

We retired to honeybun's house and i have no idea if the others slept but i didnt much and am dead tired now.

My camera, lousy night mode, but flash is even scarier.