I HATE ANTS.

DOES THEIR POPULATION REALLY NEEEEEEED TO BE THAAAT HUGE???

come on! keystone species or otherwise! there's just TOO MANY of them!!

i need to get an anteater.

I had a series of dreams last night

1. I was brought to a haunted house where my sister was and she was normal at first but gradually became possessed. There was a part where the person who brought me here was trying to make me go into the kitchen but somehow I knew the kitchen had all the spirits so I acted normal trying to divert the course of action to another location. Then I looked into the bedroom and saw my sis sitting on the bed, her back facing me. She was holding an umbrella and her hair was tied in two long flowing ponytails and her hair was black and she was rocking back and forth. I was so upset I jumped onto her and yelled and screamed at the spirits to let her go but then I think I died cuz I woke up.

2. I had to submit something to the lab and there were two ways in but I didn't wanna take the lift for some reason I cannot fathom. So I entered by the door on the 4th story but the place for submission was on the 1st. I had to cross over a lot of things scattered on the floor and there were two lab ppl there telling me where to go. When I had to go downstairs they said there wasn't a stair, I had to go down through a hole in the ground. I didn't think it a problem until I was down the hole and there wasn't a ladder. There was a cloth that I had to pull ina certain way to support my going down. I suceeded initially but then I slipped and there was a long way to falling and I fell, and gasped as I woke up.

3. There was a civilization of strange creatures that were like gremlins but there were also normal animals like beavers and they were part of a game my brother played but I only found that out later in the dream. I was watching them live. They were having a power struggle, the evil guy seemed to be winning. A gremlin like creature was somehow bound to each leader and if the leader wouldn't let them
go they were bound forever. This particular gremlin was bound to an evil leader and he was trying to escape, but failed and was facin his doom. The other gremlins tried to help but they didn't succeed either because the evil was too much for them to bear. Then I saw a flashback scene where the gremlin was agreeing to be bound with the evil leader because he lost faith in the good one and thus this was all really his fault and no one could really save him. It ended with my brother seeing the creatures and exclaiming hey it's Torr! Which was apparently the name of the game. And I saw a poster of it and there was White powdery stuff which could be smudged about to change the setting of the picture which was the Torr characters at the bottom under a deep blue cloudless sky. I smudged the White powder into clouds that spelt 'hello' and hoped my brother would notice.

4. There was a house warming at a huge White house but i don't know who's house it was. I didn't stay there very long becuase I went for dinner with Lyrad n Js and his sister whom Ive never even met in real life and it was at a restaurant with orange lights and we sat at a round table in a corner and we ate too much and js's sister wanted to take a photo but only with me and not the guys and she was very happy with the photo, she gave me a high five. I woke up with a stomachache. From something I ate in a dream. How weird is that? And the stomachache faded away by itsel without me doing anything.

5. Somewhere in one of my dreams I ate a
lot of pizza but I don't rememer which dream
it was though I think it was the Torr one.

And that sums up my night of 29th October, or otherwise my morning of the 30th. The first dream woke me at 4+am. The first two dreams should be reversed for the order to be correct.

Im swallowing back the lump in my throat
really trying not to feel anything
counter it by deeply breathing
breathing... And breathing...
But still the lights still keep on dimming
the ceiling is a lake above me
quivering... And quivering
In my eyes there's something brimming...
The scale is clearly tipping...
There's never really a balance
when there's too much feeling...

Every time i use my tongue to touch the central incisors on the lower half of my jaw i feel like a rodent.

do you feel that way too?

こんばんは！

きのういそがしいですから、すこしねました。それはたいへんでした。
今日の午後よくねました！クラスへいきませんでした。
わるいですね。

しかし、そのだいじょうぶ。

あしたがんばって！

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my first attempt at a japanese blog post to practice my jap. unfortunately its so bad i cant express much other than the general idea of too much homework, no time, no sleep.

heres a translation:
Good evening!

I was busy yesterday so i slept little. it was tiring.
this afternoon i slept a lot! I didnt go for a class.
bad aint it.

but its okay.

better luck tmr!

Yea thats the end. i bet there are some inaccuracies here and there but nvm. when i learn more i will know haha. As for now i can only manage this primary school sounding talk! Thou shalt work hard!!

This was on the trees outside my house today! And my house meaning in a HDB estate, seen from the 8th floor, not some cool jungle private housing kind of house. It's a white bellied sea eagle juvenile! Identified by my dad of course, no way i would know just by looking at it fly past me. It just flew past our window and landed on a tree, so it was about the size of the nail on your little finger and my dad said, eh! theres a white bellied sea eagle outside! its not supposed to be here but its there! And he went to grab the binoculars and i was thinking, how in the world do you even see what bird it is. so we looked at it through the binoculars and it was coool. It was beeeg. You know, small in a far away sense but big in a, ah, you know what i mean. An eagle! On an HDB tree! And he said its a juvenile, well but, it looks grown up to me.

But the grown up one looks like this:

Fit and Feisty. So clearly theres a BEEG diff. And it explains the name anw. An inexperienced numbthumb like me wouldnt know.

Sadly we dont have any pro cameras :C so we couldnt take a picture of it... Arg. I really want a pro camera now. Miss capturing all the good stuff.

A Story of a little girl
Lonely in her own dark world
Only shadows she can see
Nothing here is ever real
Everything just lies still.

Memories just become dreams
nothing's ever as it seems...

Halloween at Night Safari (again!) 2010

Yes! Night safari halloween again! This year it was chinese horror theme or sth cuz there were chinese character-ed signs and more chinese ghosts than last last year. And there was a GUI HOUSE. what the lame name man! It was literally written as that on the signboard. but it looked quite funky. There wasnt a gui house the last time i went though and i expected it to be super scary so i was super frightened to go in! But i did anyway because honey bunches was there and we went in a group of 3 with an indian guy who was very enthu. First there was this creepy woman who FOLLOWED US and STEPPED ON MY SHOE! and freaked me out of course. Thank goodness i didnt see her face or i might have died right there and then. According to honey bunches the make up was really scary. The indian guy made sound effects everytime he whipped open the curtains to the next room! But it seemed like nothing jumped out at us. I think. Not sure cuz i wasnt really looking hah. There was a guy cleaning blood off the floor also but he didnt jump at us either. And in the room of mummies i raelly thought someone was gonna jump out! But no one did. So the whole time i was just scaring myself and squealing to feel better. It really does make you feel better! Oh! But a guy did pop out of the wall saying "want some companyyy?~?~?!~" in a creepy growl and shocked us all.lol.

gui house concluded very fast and it was on to tram! Yay the tram was quite awesome. the aminals were really closeee. And the stag! Huge!~ and the hippos! gargantuan! and the buffalos! really dam big la. See on tv never look that big. The scary portion of the tram wasnt very scary! not as scary as the last time with the 'hell' theme where people were being tortured on stakes and stuff. The scaring people didnt touch us like 2 years ago and didnt climb onto the tram like they did last time! So it wasnt so hard on the heart.

And the forest giants trail was quite terrifying for me. -.- stupid little girl popped out from the bushes with a sad ghost wail and i almost died and collided with some zoo helper guy. And whats his name carrying 2 buckets of whatsit made me almost slip down a slippery bridge cuz he was approaching all of a sudden -.- and i saw corpse bride! that was cool. oh. but i don't remember seeing any animals cept for those in the glass enclosures.

after the trail we went to watch the creatures of the night show and that was pretty cool too. a wolf! and it howled! how awesome is that. the rest were quite typical look how smart this animal is performances but the cute pakistan american kid volunteer was quite unforgettable with his cool true blue american accent "i just knew it!" which 5-7 year old singaporean kid says that?

night safari has mee goreng for $15 man! entrance fee $40 not enough to make you cough blood arh! sugarcane $8. omg!

anyway after that was midnight macs and sweet sweet sleep~