why. why is time passing again. Why.

I want time to stand still. The moment i let go.

before i am conscious again.

I wish i could be ignorant about this. A nothing that would feel nothing. Accomplished the former. Somehow i havent figured out how to do the next.

And then the stars hang in the sky like they did something wrong but they never did.
There was a rock that made my mind trip.

This is why.

- Cause obviously it's out of my league

And I know I never will be good enough for ... - mcfly - Obviously

Nothing much seems to have changed
since the time when you first came
And strongly took my hand in yours
and softly spoke my name.

Mysterious figure in the crowd
at the carnival you shout
my name and then i turn and see
you reveal your identity

T'was once when i received your care
I was down and you were there
Comfort in your words i found
a guardian angel from nowhere

Yet now i am to avoid your gaze
My eyes try not to see your face
I'd rather choose to live a lie
Than get you trapped here in this maze

What's on your mind im wondering
What is it that you're pondering
it may be worrying, but i know
that jokes are never genuine.

So leave you to your life i will,
Though you linger in my thoughts still
i hope that maybe day by day
the thoughts will slowly fade away.

Keep denying myself
And maybe it will come true
Though its not a truth
It's a lie that will come through
If i lie for long enough
To myself and survive this bluff
Deny.
deny.
Tell myself the truth's a lie
Make the lie a truth, just
deny.

i must write about sunday! since i havent, and since it was such a good day.

we had a class gathering and it was steamboat at lava's house. at first i went to vivo but it was too early so i went to xiu rong's house, wherein i met my new friend, stripey yellow cat[a larger sized bought-in-japan version of small yellow cat that i have]. yes it was sitting on the table innocently when i picked it up after which xiu rong told me that was for me. and then there was this tube of mini m&ms, and it was 3/4 empty. Xiu rong told me she had bought it for me initially but it couldnt fit in the wrapping so she ate it!! she ate it!! :O and she bought meiji milk for me, but realised it was coffee flavoured so she drank it!! yes she did! :S

anyway after that we went to meet everyone else at vivo and i saw one of my ex-classmates there too. got uber cute stufftoy and stamp thingy from kristy and minlu. then huiwei kept boasting about her giant rabbit that she bought although xiu rong insisted that hers was the pirated version of hers[xr's].

when we got to lava's house, i met my other new friends, giant yellow rabbit and giant tofuman. now i have 5 of the lengthy-limbed critters at home! gosh. huiwei didnt know i have a giant green rabbit! but nvm its so uber cute it doesnt matter how many there are. giant tofuman was given by the scholarly group of scholars!

we had steamboat and it was rather messy with food being flung left and right and random times where the cover of the pot comes off and one person-in-charge of each side of the table reaches out and grabs food for people on that side of the table. it was really squashy too with people sitting on half a chair with their legs randomly placed above and below but it was all funny and fun :D

zui qiu and his pet dog are so loving

then we went up to the rooftop and... there was a reaaaaaaaaaaaallllllllllyyyyy nice surprise!! Joyce called huiwei away. i wanted to follow but somehow i didnt. and then huiwei came out carrying a cake!! it was heart-shaped and dark chocolate and hazelnut flavoured!!! my fav flavours!~~ wa, she purposely went to find lehh... and it tasted. AWESOME. it tasted a bit alcohol-ish, but it could be the weird fruits inside [couldnt tell it was rather pitch dark.] then we lighted tealight candles and carried them around yay, coolest birthday ever.

lousy picture of awesome cake

yea went home after that carrying all my new friends :D

my old friends and new friends

we hold stardust in our hands

plus next day got SEVENTEEN kinder buenos man. jaw drop* so shocked.

anyway, thanks thanks thanks to everyone especially huiwei who purposely went to find a cake with BOTH my favourite flavours! for the awesomest birthday ever.

tealight candle '04'

start the day with C:




end the day with :CCCCC


how to have a C: and make it last?

C:

thank you everyone

sent gen off today :C she's gone to australia!! 21/27 of the 2K people turned up, it was like a class gathering :D how nice. Some people are like MONSTROUSLY tall now man... gosh, its seriously. shooting up. And im the shortest among everyone. hooray. lalala.

anyway, hope she has a good future there. farewellfarewell genevieve...

Ok, just returned home from talent time. It was awesome! Very very nice. The guy who came out first, the guest performer was sooo uber good with the jazz guitar. make you feel like a total loser failure. but nvm. After that came the solo singers. The best was sheena of course, her voice is so dam powerful. and she won for that category. then there was this Chester guy, who was the scary guy i taught how to shoot!! I got such a big shock when i saw it was him man... was like totally O_O *jaw drop* "thats the scary guy!!!!" His voice also dam good although he looks like a cartoon character, and he got second.
The bands were ok. Andy's band was the best, the rest were a bit messy at some point. The different instruments didnt seem to be very coherent with each other. And Andy's band won.
The group vocals about the same as solo, just with more people. So nothing much special either.
But watching the whole thing was really really nice. yay. ended up reaching home at around 1130 though :C sadness. Why cant i just teleport home...