Sunday, May 27, 2007

.aristal.

Aristal was cool. I saw huiwei and she looked like she was smiling extra happily. She was like dancing righttt in front of us cuz we were sitting really near to the front. And the VIP seats were like, right behind us, which i don't know what the point of that is. I saw Daniel dancing too. Can't miss him. The smallest one. When he hopped around he looked like a small kid la! haha.. so funny... But the first and last dances were quite grande..
I shan't bother going through all the dances.. The first dance was the intro dance. It was kinda mixed up with all the different dance kinds, and with music[Busindre Reel] that i have at home, but its nice. It's really nice to see lots and lots of people dancing together and they all look really happy even if they went for smiling classes.
Skip to the first Malay dance. This one was nice! Cuz the yellow costumes were like, super bright man, quite cool. And i saw huiwei dancing happily. They were like, swaying around quite fast like gold pieces being shuffled around by some greedy hand..
Then afters was the one with charlyn. That one was quite cool. It's like tribal-ly, but i don't really know what genre it's supposed to be. They were like wearing white ghostly dresses before stripping into blossom powerpuff girls tights thingies. I kinda like the ghostly part better though, and there were some people standing on blocks dancing up there. Hah.. I think i'll just fall off..
Then.. was a dance we already watched before.. some anti-drugs thing..
Chinese dance...
Indian dance.. i kinda felt that this one was a bit boring.. though Daniel still looked as happy as ever.
Malay dance, Huiwei's SYF piece i think. Quite nice too, haha. This time, Huiwei started out dancing miles away from us but she soon swayed her way over. I think i saw the solo part which someone was supposed to dance.
Then western dance again. Another drugs thing. This one was pretty cool. Well, i think its supposed to be, and it was.
Then Malay dance again, this one was a slow one though. I think i like fast ones better.
Intermission!
Chinese dance again..
Another western dance..
Western dance with fans! this one was nice, the sound the fans made were nice. I Heard them practising in school before. Didn't know fans could make such a sound. Sounded like scraping a board with lots of grooves or something.
Chinese dance with just three people dancing! All extremely tall and lengthy. They were all smiling like what la. But at least one of them looking genuinely happy. I don't know if they are smiling cuz they have to or they're really happy. I suppose they should be really happy.
Western dance Ballet piece.
Finally, Indian dance, the super grande dance which looks like it has 100 people or something, i don't know, it just looked like a lot. And when they all dance together with all the glittering gold bits of the costume and Daniel's extremely happy and excited face, it's really nice to watch man. It's like a dancing army or something, where everyone's in sync. Cool man.
So that was it for Aristal 2007. Haha. Congrats to all.

Xiu Rong was late. YET AGAIN. yes. AGAIN. although i reminded her not to be. I guess it doesn't work that way. What does? Why is XR always LATEEEEEEEEEEEE................ why?? Thankfully we were still able to get seats where we could see considerably well, unlike Lynna and Ama who had to make do with seats miles away. oh well, who asked them to be late. And blaming us for not saving seats for them cuz we gave the seats to Kirsty and company. summore. It's not our fault man. They came earlier and were in desperate need of a seat. If you guys wanted good seats too, why did you even come so late?You would have thought of coming earlier at least rather than blame us for your misfortune. Rar. Blame yourselves first man.

Friday, May 25, 2007

.z.

Oh, i didn't write about NYT shoot[12th May]. But its so long, i kinda forgot already. But nvm. I only know i shot 94 94 95 92, 375. According to written records, i felt that i couldnt keep still and my shots strangely flew away.

And on that day Julie and Hanson were also arguing about stapling the one-shot cards or not. Actually its better not to so you fully utilize them instead of cutting the total into half by stapling.. And Hanson ate a whole loaf of bread with kaya. Scary man.

After NYT was NJIS[19th-20th May]. I shot 377 but i forgot what were my series shots. The banner looked really nice, although Jia Pei wasn't satisfied with it, but im glad enough about it cuz we already worked very hard for it and if it didn't work out for him that's too bad. He's such a control freak and bossy uncle like person anyway. He wants to change everything about the banner, he might as well do the damn thing himself. Y_Y. Can't he be more accepting of other's work. And he simply flares up when people do something wrong. Woww, like that's gonna help. As quoted by him, "Hello?? Who's in charge here??" What a gay thing to say. My impression of him totally blasted into thin air thanks to NJIS. Didn't know he could be such a Thing. And i hate the way he orders people around. So disgusting lar, the way he 'tells' people to leave the room. Ah. But thank goodness its over.
The scoring people made lots of mistakes i think. Cuz today we had to recount everything and we found alot of mistakes. Sometimes the mistakes were such that the whole score still ends up the same, just that individual cards are wrong, but others the score is just counted totally wrongly, like an obvious 7 becoming a 9? And an obvious 9[not even touching the line] becomes a 10. I helped score for one detail, but we have our signatures there and it shows who can't count or see properly. Next time they should try writing names.

For internals i shot 383. 94! 97 96 96. It was quite a lame start cuz when i started i wanted to just shoot to get away the anxiety and fear of shooting the first shot. So i shot like 4 shots of anxiety relieving shots, which included an 8. And there was also another 8 in that series. I shot 3 8s for this shoot but its cuz i kinda jerked for some reason. But after the anxiety relieving shots, i suddenly thought, hey! you better start shooting properly mann! stop wasting your shots! and then suddenly i started shooting better, and pretty fast cuz i shot 40 shots in 20minutes. And it was quite sad cuz a lot of my 9s were 9.9s! sooo close to a ten. But i guess its kinda lucky too cuz some of my 9s were also 9.1s... hah.. a lot of my shots are like that.. very close to the line. Many of my tens are like, very edge-cutting tens too. I think its because i just see its about there and just shoot. And i don't really think about anything cuz i just need to shoot quite quickly. But towards the end i slowed down a lot and 'slpt' a few times cuz i was getting rather breathless from all that quick-shooting. But other than the sort of wasted first 10, it was all ok.
Okkk i shall stop here. Otherwise Xiu Rong will say i write about one whole week again.

.wordsII.

Deserving to die
Is a lie
Brought about by the mind
Sublime
Hinting, telling you to give in
But the heart
Is an art
Brought about by the living
Beating
And giving hope to
Keep on
Breathing.

.words.

Cast aside in a corner
Kept awake by calling corpses
In their deepest sleep, alive, to bring back
Sins, Songs, Sorrow.
In between the lines in paper
Hidden, sleepless nights, awaken
Hearing voices, voices, voices whispering
Noises, Numbers, Names.
Down the streams of blood brewing
Nightmares, dark dreams, gazing
Seeing empty, blank, transparent mix of
Rainbows, Robots, Roses.
Breathing, short, sharp, painful
As the heart falls apart
Feel the darkness come surrounding screaming
Souls, Souls, Souls.

Sunday, May 13, 2007

.learn to be lonely.

I wanted to live.

Child of the wilderness
Born into emptiness
Learn to be lonely
Learn to find your way in darkness
Who will be there for you
Comfort and care for you
Learn to be lonely
Learn to be your one companion

Never dreamed
Out in the world
There are arms to hold you
You’ve always known
Your heart was on its own
So laugh in your loneliness
Child of the wilderness
Learn to Be lonely
Learn how to love life that is lived alone
Learn to be lonely

Life can be lived, Life can be loved alone

like this.

Friday, May 11, 2007

...

YES. I am so happy now. The most gruelling, digusting, crappy, torturous, ultimate killer week of my entire life is finally over! Or at least, i think that since recent times, this has been the worst week of my life, ever.

Ok, so why am i saying this. Because first of all, it started off with a fever. This fever started on the friday of the week before. I suspect its from the archery thing that we went to help out at and i got totally fried in the brain or something because i found that my temperature was 39.3 that night. So i went to sleep hoping that it would go away the next day since it was just because of getting fried. But noooh.. it decided to stay on. And i lay in bed wasting the whole day away all Saturday, taking my temperature everytime i woke up. I think i woke up about 10 times or something cuz i just woke up, went back to sleep and so on.. My temperature hopped here and there around 38.8 to 39.4 for the whole of saturday. I was hungry but i couldnt eat and i didn't know why. I just ate some biscuits. Then after that when i woke up i suddenly felt better and my temperature was down to 37.8 or something like that so i got up and went to do my homework, which i had a lot of. So i did my binomial homework.. drew two graphs for chem and found the values for k and n... and so on... and then, the next thing i knew, my temperature was back to 38.6. Y_Y So i had to go back to sleep again. To make things worse, i had to go for an Econs project meeting on Sunday...
So on Sunday i woke up nice and early so that i could get to YCK MRT by 1000h. I still had a fever but i couldn't care much about it because there were more important things to care about. So we spent the whole day doing econs until like 7 when i left for home and reached home at like 9 or so. Then i forgot what i did at home.
On Monday there was coach training, where the coach came about 45min-1hr late so we started without her first. Train train train... My shooting was... weird i think, i wasn't really shooting that great. It's quite confusing, i was doing fine at first but after the coach came and shifted my arm, it all became shytted up. And even when i tried to change back the damage was already done, and i ended up shooting some rubbish shots... But anyway, after that we had air rifle girls outing! Some people were too lazy to walk out from the main gate so we wasted about half an hour waiting for the side gate to open. We went to cine and wondered for a long time what to eat until we finally decided on pasta mania because there was discount after 2. I couldnt eat much i think because i was still sick or something so i just ate like half of my food and someone finished up the other half.
Then we went to watch spiderman3! It was quite nice, although there were lots of stories happening at once, but i thought it was ok still and there were some sad parts which i felt extremely sorry for the Mary Jane girl because spiderman was being such a goldfish-eyed loser ass. What a gay man, how could he do such stuff? Ok nvm. The eddie guy in the black spiderman suit was rather scary because he had teeth in excess which was quite creepy and the screechy-roaring sounds he made were quite freaky too so i didn't look at his face too much.
So after spiderman we just went homeee becuase there wasn't much else to do and we all had stuff to do, like econs presentation.
So i went home and did the handout for the econs presentation.
On tuesday we stayed back in school to do the econs handout as well as go through the presentation. I wasn't sick anymore but i still couldn't eat and everything tasted like shyt [not that i know what it tastes like, but we all assume it tastes bad]. Everything was bitter, even the soursop drink that Kristy said was especially sweet. So bleh.
On wednesday was the presentation!! I admit it was totally crap partly because we started preparing so late, but also cuz CS's com screwed up somebit and the custom animation didn't work and stuff and he was talking like a dead fish when he presented so it was quite crap lar. But it was over. Thank goodness.
On THURSDAY, i had piano, which was equally crappy. I had to go on thurs since i was sick on saturday and missed it.
On Friday, MATH TEST and ELECTIONS! Math test didn't turn out too bad. I hadn't had time to study for the past few days but thank goodness i wasn't lost in the topics so i knew how to do it anyway. Elections was so scary i was shaking like hell when i came back from giving my speech. It was a close fight between me and peixin i think we had like 48 49? Before it ended with a 5 point vote going to PX. Oh well, there's always next year... I'm really glad that i tried this year cuz its the first time i'm ever giving a speech like that [in dunman i gave a class speech about muffins Y_Y] So yea, i haven't really done a real speech before so i think its quite cool that i managed to say the stuff that i wanted to say. Although i forgot quite a lot of things but nvm! It's over and done with, i'll just be more prepared next time..
Yes yes yes, so with all those horrible things over... i am now... HAPPY-ER! YEA. YEA. YEA. I think the week before i started getting stupidly depressed over the banner, econs presentation and stuff. But i guess its ok now, it isn't all that bad we can just take things as they come and it's still ok! Ok.. i really wanna sleep now... there's NYT shoot tmr..